sonderlust

destruction

Added 2024-09-22 17:40:52 +0000 UTC

The container I once resided in suddenly feels too vast to feel the sides and top and bottom
I’ve realized you have broken it completely
Created space for parts of me that were hidden away
Quieted and shunned
It’s beyond snapping me out of something that once felt inevitable
It’s a revelation of things I kept away from myself for a reason
It hurts
Like a peeling back of skin
Gruesome and human
Looking backward and feeling the container tighten around me has suffocated me quickly
There is no room for me there anymore
You have taken so much away from me
But that’s what accurate mirrors do
They destroy what is not true
In your eyes I see myself
In a way I haven’t before
In them I feel a new kind of pain
One of remembering
And I can’t stand it
And I could never thank you enough