An Update On Things

I had a strange moment last night as well, I woke up in the middle of the night and couldn't go back to bed. I started listening to some old early 2000s country, the kind of stuff that makes me nostalgic for my childhood.

So hey I wanted to address the last couple weeks. I feel really bad about how I haven't provided much for you guys. I took a momentary break to draw a picture of a dragon back on FA and it well sorta turned into a little bit of a series for a bit there. It wasn't planned it kinda just happened but I know that it wasn't just my audience.. I felt compelled to keep drawing non-car stuff myself. It kinda got me thinking that maybe I need a slight break from cars just for a bit you know? Some time to recharge? You DO get kind of burned out drawing the same thing forever.. and I'd probably come back stronger afterwords. 

I had a strange moment last night as well, I woke up in the middle of the night and couldn't go back to bed. I started listening to some old early 2000s country, the kind of stuff that makes me nostalgic for my childhood. It reminded me how I used to fuel my old obsession with The Brave Little Toaster by listening to music from that time period as well. So, with no tiredness in me I decided to take a nostalgia trip. I went back and read through my old story, the Pinky and Violet story that I did years back now? For newer people you might not know what it was but it was a spin-off side-quel of The Brave Little Toaster I did featuring a side-character from the movie that only got like 20 seconds worth of screen time before being killed.. heh morbid I know. Here's a link to it for those interested: https://www.deviantart.com/half-dude/gallery/57635609/pinky-and-violet

Anyway I read through that old comic and the strangest thing happened to me, I actually cried to my own comic! Like so many of my fans on DA told me they did when they read it, it was like I got to have an outsiders experience to it.. it touched me. It got me thinking how part of me wishes I could draw stuff like that again, you know, emotional stuff, stuff with weight and a deeper meaning to it! But how can someone draw porn but also draw emotional works.. it almost seems like too much of a juxtaposition to work.. does it? 

I'm kind of in a hard place emotionally about this at the moment. I'll always love drawing porn obviously, but part of me kinda wants to rekindle my old skill of emotional storytelling. Part of me would really like to devote time to finally making the epilogue comics to the Pinky story, make the true ending of the story finally after years...

Normally I wouldn't care that much, my FA people will watch what they want to and ignore what they want to but you guys... you're my paying supporters. I know some of you guys tell me to draw whatever I want and you'll be happy, but I also know there's got to be some of you maybe even a majority of you that came just for the porn and I get that. So I don't know what to do.. 

I'd love to be free to draw what I want to, but I also don't want to make you guys, you guy that have supported me for so long feel cheated, and I don't want to loose you guys either... what should I do? Because I don't know if I can draw both kinds of things at the same time.