Update 08 - 04 - 2020: Mentally and Emotionally Drained

Hi guys, I know I said I'd try and get the patron rewards out as late as Monday however my family would not leave me alone and when I tried work I'd be tired the moment I sat down to draw. I would feel drained.

I was able  to make some progress. The pieces are almost done they just need some cleaning up on the coloring and  I gotta finish up the shading. Which to me is the most tedious part. 

I'm sorry to make everyone worry and keep you waiting. I don't mean to especially after I said I was fine Saturday. However Sunday and today thing just got complicated. Mom and dad want me to keep helping them with improvements to the house, including my own room. I had to clean up the house over and over because of all the dust. 

Yesterday they wanted me to look after me nephew again. Basically finding time to sit down alone and do work has  been difficult.

 I tried to work on as much as I could last night and today, but a few other things happened today and it just made me want to break down and cry a bit. 

Today, I was supposed to go to the bank, but I missed my meeting again because it took my brother forever to get out of bed and take over watching our nephew. So I go pissed.

I had an emotional conversation with a very close friend of mine too. So that did not help matters. 

I also checked my bank account today and my relief  benefits were still not processed after two weeks.  And my mother is taking her sweet time paying me back the money she owes me. (That's a whole mess in on itself) And even after receiving her Heroes Act money, she gets mad every time I ask her about it.  And it's been 2 weeks since then. She can't even just write me a check or even wait in line. And I paid for the power, water, and my dad's loan. Even my cousin's tuition for next semester, which surprisingly she  and my auntie QUICKLY paid me back. 

Because of all of that I had a case of, "I'm always saving everyone in this house" episode  while doing errands today, so that really screwed with me even more.

All of that was enough to really put me in a bad mood and I really wanted to break down and cry. 

I feel like my patience has been tested to the limit today and I still feel like crying as I write this.  So I'm asking you guys to please be patient with me and thank you for doing so at this point. It's just very trying for me at the moment. Again thank you. 

I just need a little time to collect myself. 

this is exactly why I wanted to take a break because trying to juggle babysitting, paying for stuff, dealing with my part time, my art work, relationship with others, my family, and a bunch of other stuff...I feel like I need to take a step back and have a good cry for a bit. 

Again I promise I'll get this done and again thank you for your patience. 

P.S.

Please forgive me for all the possible grammatical errors  you might have come across, I am not in a proper state of mind right now.  My meds already feel like they are only working half as good.