updates

so i postponed this month's payments (unlike last month but like a couple previous months iirc) because i thought i could get something up last month... 

turns out i couldn't and might not be able to this month yet so for transparency's sake, here's a huge list of things that have happened while i've been gone aaa (it is gonna be a bit rambly bc i am also in the process of going off and switching around medications too so my brain is just zooming FJASLDKFJSADK)

• was still in school so this was all happening with way too much stress... i never took a single semester off school since i started in april 2019 and ended up feeling a ton of burnout
• feeling unsafe around my roommates (there were two straight girls who kept saying homophobic, transphobic, and biphobic things around and to me, a bi woman(?) so yea lmao, i used to vent abt it a lot but near the end i just got tired of venting and even just stopped talking abt it to friends)
• MOVING!! so i couldn't really spend money on new pc parts or anything since i now had to buy enough furniture to furnish my own place (still in the process of moving actually but initial furnishings bought!) and my already small savings account went :sob:
• extreme tooth pain, which i started feeling about two or so months ago but didn't have time to go to the dentist and assumed it was my wisdom tooth growing in... it got really bad around a month ago during exam season and i ended up in the ER. long story short, it was due to an incredibly broken molar next to the wisdom tooth that was coming in, which was caused by my bad jaw and extreme overbite (in which i will need jaw surgery to fix, but cannot afford so my teeth are getting smashed instead lol) and there was pulp exposed and an infection into the nerve that the wisdom tooth started growing into, which led to me sobbing and dry-heaving in pain while trying to sleep sometimes... ANYWAY i was just able to get it yoinked out this last week and holy cow i have no idea how long the pain was going on since it was quite a gradual buildup, but i've not felt this painless in... many, many months
• job hunt (though for an internship, so it only starts in september lol F to my money still) and i think i'm accepting the offer i just got so i don't have to stress abt this either :')
• i think those are the major points??

i still haven't been able to finish building my PC, since i can't even get a gpu (??? been on backorder since literally NOVEMBER) plus my money went woosh due to moving & my dental issues, but i'm hoping i can finish everything up by the end of the month, since i only have a couple parts left to purchase

my laptop will not stop blue screening, so there has been not much i can do in terms of releasing anything (imagine consistent blue screening with all the above stressors going on too - everything took at least 2-3x longer), but my files are recoverable at least! i'm really looking forward to being able to continue making cc ;__; 

it has been just over 3 weeks since the end of the semester, but i managed to get like 80% of the things i needed to get done despite all my pain AND i feel huge weights lifted off my shoulders despite not having a break yet :') so here's hoping the pc parts and my budgeting go all to plan as well since i'd love to relax and make & release more cc since i took this summer off from school!!