Mental health brief
Added 2018-09-17 12:37:59 +0000 UTCThis post is from Mikael and doesn't speak on the other party's behalf.
Right. I lack some ability for transparency when it comes to mental health, mainly because I'm afraid of admitting to what some people will call "laziness". I will encourage anyone to take a rest as soon as they need it, but I do not like to admit that to myself being afraid to be dragged for it.
This punishing mentality has been making me crazy on top of everything.
Should I take a break and admit to some sort of weakness? Or should I just take it and hope it'll make things better in the long run.
I hate conundrums like this.
At this point, I'm starting to do more harm than good by not admitting to the fact something's wrong.
I do little screw ups here and there, I've started to lack on communicative skills, and just the basic twitter and discord announcements, and the readers notify me of these things.
I just don't notice. I didn't worry about that for a while, but last weekend I've started to realize that it's a side effect of something bigger.
There are also personal trouble I would never speak publicly of that has... Well. It's made me sad and deeply depressed the last few weeks.
I've had trouble focusing on my Indiegogo campaign and I'm confused about what day it is, if I don't have a phone to check what day it is.
I will be late on some things here on Patreon. I have scheduled YIH WIPs on Thursdays, so those at least are coming. I wouldn't stay on top of Year In Hereafter if I didn't have my buffer, thank god I do have it. I had a hunch these days would come and that's why I worked that buffer up anyway.
But yeah. If I miss on something I'm supposed to do for you Patrons within the upcoming few months, that's why. Just please let me know if you feel like something I've promised has not arrived, and I'll at least add that to the list of things I need to do when I can.
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Thank you for the encouragement. There was a weight lifted with being open, there was a little moment where I didn't know if I'm even able to be a good business partner to Elli on this Patreon either now that I don't trust myself as much, but she and all of you have reassured me too and it's more good than I'd deserve. - Mika -
AlwaysRats
2018-09-18 10:25:11 +0000 UTCThanks for the information on project status etc. It's useful to know. I'm glad to hear you have a buffer, but if you need to take more time, I think everyone will understand. Sorry to hear that you aren't doing well. A break sounds like it might be useful if you want to take one. I would like to emphasize that since this is very personal stuff, you aren't ever required to share this information with anyone, unless you do want to explain things like this. (Sometimes people feel pressure to give reasons when they don't have to, and others find it useful to explain things, I don't know which it might be for you.) Please be kind to yourself.
2018-09-17 14:00:57 +0000 UTCMay you come around to clear skies and calmer waters. A theme that always prevails in my spouses and my work is the theme of 3 wars. The physical war, what we actually know as war. The war of words. And the war of the self. The hardest war is the war of the self because it never ends. May you find what you need during this time. Life can be hard, but dont be afraid to seek help or just exist for a time. It's okay to just exist . Good luck my friend
The Seventh Tavern
2018-09-17 13:33:11 +0000 UTCOh dear. First of all, Mikael, respect for admitting it to yourself. That is an important step to get better, as you probably already know. I hope that you will take good care of yourself, for your own sake, and not with the mentality "I *have* to get better soon". It's not easy to avoid that way of thinking, I know. I wish you all the best, and that you feel better soon. *sends hugs*
TastaturKatze
2018-09-17 12:56:26 +0000 UTC
