MY NANA MADE A GIRL OUT OF ME - CHAPTER 3

Well… the mass in the church was quite okay. People were looking at the priest and the altar and nobody had noticed me at all… Everybody just thought that I was one of my nana's granddaughters. Of course that everybody thought so, because when they saw me. They saw that I was dressed in a very old school pink dress and nobody would think that I am a boy who wears such girly clothes. And not only that… even a bra and full makeup. Eve and Rose really did their best. They made a little girl out of me. And my necklace around my neck was just the cherry on the top of a cake.

But during the mass I was okay. Nobody paid attention to me and I was happily looking at what was going on around the altar. My family didn´t go to church every day like my grandma so it was something really special for me and I felt really comfortable there. Back at my home, we were going to the church just during Christmas and that was all of it. And I have to say that it was quite nice there.

But my biggest fear was just coming. My nana agreed that we will visit the mum of those 2 girls. I was really scared. What if they find out that I am a boy who is just crossdressed? That would be so much embarrassing for me. I know that it is kind of my fault that I forgot my bag with clothes inside my car, but still… this was quite too much, right?

The mass was about to end and I was getting more and more nervous. I was really afraid of the visit, which was going to happen. I didn´t want anyone to see me like this and I was really scared that people would laugh at me if they knew that I am a boy who wears a bra, dress and makeup. My cheeks were turning red and my heart was bumping in my chest a lot faster than usual. Rose did notice that and she asked me:

“Hey Jane, are you okay?”

“I'm just nervous…” I answered and I really was nervous.

“Why is that?”

“We are going to visit the mum of those two daughters and what if they recognize that I am a boy?” I told her my biggest fear. I was expecting some comforting answer but Rose told me:

“So what? Just don´t be afraid of that. If it will happen, is something going to change? We will love you with the same love and I am sure that the mum and her daughters will just understand that you forgot your clothes and we had to dress you up for the mass! Come on Jane!”

I definitely didn´t expect this type of answer. At first, it was really harsh for me to hear it, but after a while, I could see that she was kind of right. I was too afraid of what the others were thinking about me or what they were saying about me. But does it matter? No, of course, it doesn´t...  The most important thing was this: What am I thinking about myself and am I okay with myself? This was the most important and the others just don´t matter!

“Yeah… you are right Rose. But still, I am nervous…” I confessed to Rose and I just wasn´t able to get rid of this feeling. Rose looked at me and she took my hand, looked into my eyes and she said:

“My sweetie, I understand you… Of course, it isn´t easy to walk here in girly clothes, bra, makeup and all this girly stuff. But I will give you a very important question and it is crucial for you to be as honest as possible, right?”

“Okay…” I said and I was really curious what the question would be. Rose was quiet for a while and she was just looking into my eyes… then she asked me:

“Did you like it while we were making a girl out of you? Did you like dressing up and applying makeup on your face? Did you like that feeling?”

OMG… What a question that was. And it surprised me a lot. I know that lot of boys would just immediately say that they were hating the process… But I wasn´t like other boys. I wanted to say that I didn´t like it but then I thought for a second and I remembered all the moments. I remember how Rose helped to put the old pink dress on and I remember the joy of my grandma when she saw me dressed as a girl. I could see how happy she was that I would be able to church with them. I remembered how girls were applying layers and layers of makeup on my face and how they were giggling and having fun. I remembered how I felt during those moments and I really can´t say that I didn´t like it… On the contrary, I was kind of loving it. It probably sounds very strange, but it was the truth. I was trying to be as honest as possible and this was the result. I looked into Rose´s eyes and I answered:

“To be honest, I kind of liked those moments… It just felt good. I was happy that my grandma was happy and that you enjoyed the makeover. I was happy because I felt really happy and… I don´t know how to say it… I just felt full! There was nothing missing there inside me in those moments!”

Rose was again completely quiet for a while and then she smiled at me and she hugged me. It was so nice and I really felt that she understood me. She really cared about me and it was so sweet.

“I kind of knew that!” whispered Rose into my ears and she added: “And just remember that there is nothing wrong about it. It is absolutely okay that you like it and never, just never feel any embarrassing feeling that you liked it, right?”

“Right! And thank you, Rose!” I whispered as well and I felt a tear in my eye… I was moved because Rose was right and her words just touched my heart… It really did. She was really so kind to me.

After this chat with Rose, I felt already a bit better. I was as nervous as before but it doesn´t mean that I wasn´t nervous at all… Of course, I was, but I had a lot better feeling about myself. The mass already ended and our nana came to us and she said:

“Well, my three cute girls! We will visit this very kind mum! She has two adorable daughters and I think that you will have fun with them!”

And the mum was standing just behind my nana and her daughters as well. She was quite young and very pretty. She smiled at us and she introduced herself:

“Hello, girls! I am Jessica and I would love to invite you to my home. My daughters are really looking forward to you and you can have a nice and calm afternoon with them. And of course, there will be some good meals! So what are you saying, girls?”

“We would love to come!” said Rose for us all and she added: “We are really looking forward to it as well!”

So it was decided. If I could choose for myself I probably wouldn´t go there but Eve and Rose coming as well and I could imagine how sad would my nana be if I had told her that I am not coming. And that was something I really didn´t want to do. So there was no other choice than to come to Jessica's house.

Well… her two daughters looked like two barbies. They had these shiny fluffy dresses and both of them had plenty of makeup on their faces. I noticed that they were looking at my old school dress… they probably thought that I could look a lot better in a very different dress.

We came to them and Jessica has already prepared the table for her and my grandma. They made themselves tea and they started to chat. And Jessica´s youngest daughter came to me and she asked me:

“Why are you wearing this old dress?” I was suddenly speechless because I had no idea what to answer. I was immediately red as tomatoes and I just said:

“Ehm… I … guess that I like them…” It was the only thing I could say and I was very very nervous. Her daughter giggled and she said:

“And would you like to try on some other dresses? I have plenty of them and we could try them on!” She was really looking forward to the dress-up, but I wasn´t sure that it was something I really wanted. But before I said something, Jessica answered instead of me:

“Of course girls! Go to the house and make yourselves beautiful and then come to show us.

“Yeeees! It will be fun, don´t worry!” said Jessica´s daughter and she led me to her house. I was really helpless and I was just blindly following her.

We came to her room and she told me to sit on her bed. I obeyed her and in the second she pulled out of her wardrobe a fluffy fairy dress with a lot of glitters.

“You have to try these on!” she giggled and she was so persuasive that I obeyed her and I really tried them on. They were a lot more fluffy than my dress and I have to say that the material was so much softer and more comfortable.

“Look at you! You are such an adorable fairy!” she giggled and she put on the same dress and we were two fairies. “And let me put a bit more makeup on your face! You must be a pretty fairy!” she giggled and she put a LOT more makeup on my face. She was so happy while she was doing it and I was afraid that I would have to show myself to my nana, cousins and Jessica… and indeed…

“Now… we have to show ourselves to our families! Let´s gooo!” she said and she grabbed my hand and we went back outside… Two girls… two fairies… And it was just the beginning...