It’s a Tough Job, but Somebody Has to Do It

So, what’s it like working with me? I guess the question that everybody is always interested in knowing. This would be a question that Jim should be answering, but I’ll answer on his behalf.

It’s interesting; and what I mean by that is, it’s messy, outrageous, weird, and gross—a lot.

When Jim and I first started dating, my first discourse on horror did not happen until after the first year. I knew that I had always wanted to do it but never pursued it. If any of you knew me before horror, you knew I was immensely confused. Yeah, I enjoyed metal, but being a metal thot in a t-shirt wasn’t enough, and it certainly was a waste of time. I started re-visiting corpse paint again, and from there spawned my love for horror again.

Fast forward, now I’m puking up worms thar slither down my throat. But, how does Jim feel? Jim’s been through a hell of a lot with me since the start of all this. He’s cleaned up blood, puke, dead animal guts, insects, piss—you fucking name it. The irony is, he’s never been hesitant about any of this, and he’s thoroughly enjoyed being my right-hand man.

When Luke Samp came to shoot with me, I don’t think they anticipated just how grisly it can get. I poured copious amounts of my blood all over the sides of the tub, floor, and was covered in chunks of regurgitated cow kidney. Under my rules, of course, I don’t allow anyone to touch my blood without some kind of gloves. Though, I’m 100% clean with no illnesses, I’m very strict about photographers or fellow models handling my own fluids. Jim, on the other hand, is the exception; hence, why he is allowed to touch me or help me clean up during a shoot.

What most people don’t appreciate is exactly how much of a task it is applying all of this makeup. Honestly, it takes longer to take it off than put it on (because with long hair that shit SUCKS), but the entire process is extremely daunting. I’m not complaining, though; the rewards of seeing yourself in a seemingly non-linear world, with no inhibitions is quite cool! Still, the application versus the actual shoot is a very stark difference. Maybe if I were in film I would tell a different tale, but my own in-home studio is what it is.

Most outsiders may think our methods are highly unconventional, and that our basic setup of a ring light and a shower is quite tasteless, but I’m not concerned with making a Paper Magazibe editorial. This is exactly what it is: a couple making grunge shit in a shower, and hoping to make some money along the way.