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Thought I would announce that this months exclusive set is coming very soon! 🤩

Also wanted to have a talk about my day yesterday! I say day but I mainly mean evening/night 😅

So I actually turned up!! ...I went and had my first shift at the coyote ugly bar as a Coyote. 

First, I’m in shock I actually did go, anyone who knows me, knows I struggle to do ANYTHING and this was a HUGE thing for me!

How did it go? 

Well. That’s a difficult question. Half way through the shift I had to get a break and said I needed the toilet. As soon as I got there I literally burst into tears. Basically despite me having no bar work experience, the girl who was supposed to train me just threw me in there without giving me hardly any information on how to use the till etc. I kept making mistakes and panicking.. 

When I came out the bathroom upset, another one of the girls seen me and she noticed I had been crying. She took me upstairs and went though everting with me. That was all it took. One kind person. 

She basically changed my night. After she helped me, I was way more confident for the second half of the shift. But I’m not gonna lie it was still so scary. I was mentally exhausted. I’m so so jealous and envious of people who can work full time and function like a normal human. I kept looking around watching everyone. I just wish I was like that. I hate how damaged I am. I just want to be like everyone else. Why do I struggle so bad with absolutely everything I do? 😔

BUT!!

This wasn’t supposed to be a negative post sorry - I am really proud of myself just for turning up and despite wanting to make a runner half way, I also did decide to stick it out there. This is by far nothing normal people celebrate and be proud of.. but I’m not normal and this was such a big deal for me. It was a massive step forward in my life. 

They asked if I could work again next weekend too so I can’t of been as bad as I thought 😅 I also danced on the bar a few times without alcohol to help 😂 that was fucking scary! Haha 

I don’t think I’ll work there again because I kinda have the weirdest mixed feelings about it but who knows.. 

I just wanted to tell you guys cause I know some of you really do actually care about me 🥰

THATS ONE SMALL STEP FOR MAN... I mean LEANNE 😌

Thanks for reading my long ass rant posts haha 

Mistyy out ✌🏻

xxx