State of affaires update:

Hey, I'd like to start this update off by saying thanks to every single one of you, for your patience and understanding.

I'm not dead, I'm not gone ... and it looks like there's some light at the end of the tunnel.

So where am I at the time of writing this:

Home ... in front of my computer, duh xD

Ok dumb jokes aside, as I said, it looks like the fog of war is slowly dissipating in my life after this very hard first month and a half of 2025 ... I'm starting to breath again ... figuratively and literally.

In regards to my health, the medication has been working.

I've been able to start breathing correctly for the past week.

Swallowing is still an issue though, but it depends on what I eat or drink, as some food and fluids still seem to cause a production of excessive thick saliva which eventually get's stuck in my throat, leading me to gagging and vomiting.

So I've identified some of those foods and fluids and stopped ingesting them.

I've been working out, and many chest pains I used to have seem to have subsided.

Might be due to my blood vessels dilating due to the physical effort and need for more blood-flow. Either way I'll keep it up.

Now, my parents.

The prime reason I've had no time at all recently.

So, my mom is getting out of the convalescence clinic on Thursday 13, meaning my dad will have someone with him to help.

Obviously, just because she's allowed to return home, does not mean she's autonomous and fully capable, so I'm still "required" to keep up the care I've been providing my dad, I'll just be doing the same for my mom (though, to a lesser extent) and also helping my mom with stuff she's not yet fully capable of doing again.

My dad's condition on the other hand has gotten a little worse, not going to say what's wrong because that's nobody's business than my own and that of my family, but I'll admit I'm afraid that it's a repeat of my grandmother ... who was very well until she slipped and broke her hip ... dying 5 years later from the snowball it caused at age 98 (and to think she smoked like a fireman every day since she was 17).

He (my dad) does have me very worried.

He's overweight from past issues, and it's caused the issues he's currently afflicted by ... issue is, he's no longer in a condition where he can lose weight without going on a drastic diet, which is made even more complicated by the fact he can't eat certain foods. Much like myself, he is also heavily depressed, which further complicates things.

I'm doing my best, even giving him tough love sometimes when required.

But I can see a repeat of what happened to his mom (my grandmother, only one I knew, since both grandparents on my moms side died during WW2).

I am very sorry I haven't had free time, or had the willpower to work on renders these past few weeks.

I also recently went to see a barber, to find a solution to my balding, and, well he's an honest person ... I'm now pretty much bald (0.8mm cut), but he did magic to my beard, looks so much better than what I'm able to do on my own.

Balding ... yet another stress in my life, and to think I had a full head of hair to below my shoulders in my 20's.

Life isn't fair.

But yeah, sorry again for the lack of content.

I'll try to get back to rendering as soon as I can, I do greatly appreciate the patience though.

And, to be perfectly honest, I'd prefer to not upload rushed trash for the sake of uploading something, rather focusing on renders I personally like, think are decent, and want to upload.

I'm at 10k watchers now !!

Can't be uploading shit for yall, got a "reputation" to uphold ^^