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(To answer that last question...)

Sometimes I do use the clothespins on other places... but only when I have someone to help me.

Painting of my cunt, by Elly Smallwood (2018)

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Pretty Little Ouches

“I didn’t know they made things like that...”

“They’re just cheap plastic clothespins from the dollarstore, I bought them because they were pink.”


“Oh. Does it hurt?”

“It feels good. Like when you pinch me. It makes me cum faster.”


“Do you u...

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Untie Me

Her pretty present. 💝

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Love Notes at the End of the World

‪“I miss your face and I’m glad I found you before the world started ending.” ‬

She sent me a picture of the fires in California, the ocean and the full moon glowing blue above and below. Terrifying and beautiful and a nightmare, really.

This whole year has felt that way. Terrible and shocking with a thread of wonderful woven through it, mercifully.

“As long as I have you...” it’s a comforting thing to say. An anchor stops you from floating away. I don’t ...

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10 Things

1. Fall is the best and October is the best and libra season is the best and tonight is the harvest full moon, which is also the best! 🍁

2. I’ve got a fun giveaway planned for next week so stay tuned! 🌈

3. I’m sleepy from staying up late dirty talking with Max about squirting and fisting. 🙈

4. Yesterday when I showed up at her place she was coming off of night shift and still asleep, so the pup and I frolicked in her backyard and did some gardening. I love being...

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Sneaky pics in other people’s houses...

I was feeling overwhelmed so I took some photos. Evidence that I was really here. Proof.

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Sleeping Beauties

Every single Sapphic Slumber Party ends with Kitten, Ms.O and I crawling into the big circle bed as the sun rises and the birds sing to catch a few hours of sleep. Sometimes Elly or Max might be squeezed in with us, sometimes Kitten has to leave early to catch a train, sometimes it’s only an hour or so before we can hear people shuffling about and leaving to return to their real life. But it’s a lovely way to end the dreamiest ofnights, cuddled up with my sweethearts.


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Shh...✨

Just wanted to celebrate the gif-improvement on the latest Patreon update with some sleepy late night titty gifs.

Hope your weekend is going well?

How are things where you live?

Pandemic things are improving here but the ominous 2020 vibe persists.

I’m bored at home binge-watching Succession. Do any of you watch it? I’m half way through the 2nd season and I’m obsessed.

I’m from a really big family so I’ve always been obsessed with shows that captur...

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Late Night Camera Roll

Some of my faves from the vault... a mirror shot I took real quick, a little orgy snap of Elly spoiling Peach (Kitten looks on and The Beekeeper is in fishnets moving to be helpful), and E’s selection of tricks and toys spread out in front of the fireplace.

Sapphic Slumber Party #2, November 2017

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Week 1

Friends, I’m writing from a calm, peaceful, quiet, EMPTY home for the first time in more than 6 months. The kids have returned to school (for now... in 2020 we have no idea how long that will last...) and I’m making tea with the pup at my feet (she misses them and I am boring).

It’s been 4 months since I confronted my husband about his drinking issues, which of course turned into a game to see how much I was willing to put up with, and where I would draw the lines. I stuck to my g...

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Candid snuggles 💕

I love this instax from my personal collection. Elly wrapped around me like a koala bear. Just random real little things that don’t get passed around the Internet, but definitely come to mind when I think of our parties. 💕

(Sapphic Slumber Party #4, November 2018)

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*ahem*

So yeah I’m an antagonistic bottom I guess. 😳Also I think it’s so fucking hot when I’m naked and dripping wet and she’s still got all her clothes on. 🥵 She’s so calm and cool and collected as she pushes me to my limits. 💦 We’ve been mastering each others bodies lately, she’s in awe of how tight I get after she’s fucked me with her hands and made me squirt over and over. 🌊 I love how long she’ll play with me for, endlessly curious about how much further I can go. ...

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Action shots ✨

These beauties never made it to tumblr because they were blurry from the action and there were sharper shots available... but I love them for their action.

The first photo is Lexie over Sabina’s knee for a good old fashioned spanking. I love the use of pillows demonstrated here to make the top and the bottom comfortable. 🥰

The second one is of Elly helping Kitten during the truth or dare game. You can see the bowl with questions beside Kitten, and lots of other helpful hands...

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Lucky girl.

When I scroll through photos from our slumber parties and coven events there are always pictures like this that just take my breath away and remind me how lucky I am. It’s actual fucking magic that I summoned and found and connected with these incredible women along the way.

Elly and Kitten making eyes at me while I crawl on top of them to take pictures at the 4th Sapphic Slumber Party, November 2018.

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Behind the scenes throwback

Here I am just before guests arrive taking a few Instax of the darling Ms. O to share with you.

(This is another vault pic from the 4th Sapphic Slumber Party, November 2018.)

I have a couple more hot as fuck vault pics for you this week, as well as a super brave life update, and a hot little story for you too. Thanks for sticking around!

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two years ago

I can feel the warm buzz I get from being around my coven when I look at these photos.

The first shot Elly snapped of me living my best life. It’s one of my favourite photos of myself. This is me at slumber parties, hands full, climbing on stuff to get the right angle, always distracted by babes.

The next image is one I never shared, but I love it’s candid vibe. It was just a cell phone pic someone snapped of Kitten giving Ms.O some attention. Her placid face and focus make...

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Slumber Party Memes

Anna has been lifting our spirits with these excellent slumber party memes. I thought you guys would appreciate this.

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2014, Lake Superior

I was trying so hard. And it got me nowhere.

So I made art about it.

While he ignored me.

I still can’t believe I posted these, they feel so damning. Vulnerable and sad.

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The real party pics...

So these ones never made it to tumblr because they were too personal, or weren’t like, *~{aesthetic}~* enough or whatever BUT it’s moments like this that keep me so in love with my girl gang.

You might remember this story from the instax that were posted.... I gifted Kitten this spectacularly sexy red suede pumps at the 4th slumber party and she immediately said she longed to step on someone with them... Sabina practically dove onto the carpet in front of her. It was so f...

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From the Vault

Me, Elly, and some mansion decor at the 4th Sapphic Slumber Party. (Fall 2018)

I went through my phone and came across a bunch of old slumber party pics that I never posted. I was only sharing on tumblr at that time so I kept more personal photos to myself. I’m going to share some of them here this week.

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Lovesick rambles...

I’m a lovesick little fool. I’ve seen her every single day for a week, slept next to her night after night, and it was LOVELY.

She texts me and says “I miss having your body next to mine.” She says “I’ve never been so lovesick in my life.” My heart flutters when my tough as nails girl says such soft things. I know exactly what she means though, missing her like the French say it, “tu me manques,” you are missing from me.

She’s at work, long shifts all week, I...

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“I’m sorry to tell you my love...”

“Do you miss kinky sex?” She asks.

“What do you mean? We have kinky sex.” I reply.

And thus begins an exchange of ideas about what the fuck those words even mean.

“You give me all of the things I want out of a kinky exchange,” I explained. “You’re toppy as fuck. You take what you want, you’re good at being in charge, you make me feel little, and like I’m in good hands. You’re rough with me in a loving way, because you wanna give me what I want, but a...

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Strange Days

Me, in my greenhouse, smoking, half naked, with an old painting Elly made of her Mother’s teenaged face. Contemplating.

September, 2020

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Care

Her: Do you wanna have a warm bath to help your muscle pain? I could give the tub a good scrub and get it ready for ya.

Me: That’s so sweet, but you don’t have to go to the trouble.

Her: It’s no trouble at all, you know I’m good with the elbow grease. I’ve got Epsom salts too.

(There was an absolute conversation between us through eye contact alone, a long silence but so much back and forth in our body language. “I want to but it’s hard...” “Let me t...

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Good Medicine

I’m wrapped in her flannel shirt, away from all the hard things, this is good medicine.

(Tomorrow I’m going to try and take some nakey pictures in her big back yard. My pupper might be zooming through them. Either way it will be peaceful.)

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Correspondence

I’ve been a bit out of touch, unable to keep up my usual reaching out and checking in. I’ve been too overwhelmed by my own life.

But last night I put on candles and a City and Colour album I hadn’t listened to in a long time. I wrote to everyone I’d been thinking of. Reminded everyone I love them. Addressed and sealed the envelopes and felt a little better.

Last week things escalated with the ultimatum I gave my husband regarding his drinking. It fucking sucks. He won’t...

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Reminder 🍁

Reposting one of my favourite selfies to remind you that there’s still time to join my monthly Postcard Club before the first batch gets mailed out on the 15th. Check out this weeks “Special Announcement” post for more info.

There’s also still time to comment on the “Magic” post so I can maybe mail you a little ritual package. Yay mail!

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Birth Control and Dirty Talk

I’ve decided to go off of the pill. I haven’t had the kind of sex that can get me pregnant in a very long time, and I can’t imagine a scenario where that would change in the near future.

I have chronic pain issues from a car accident injury, one of the triggers for the tension headaches I get is my period. Which is a real mother fucking bitch! Because that means a quarter of the time my pain issues are inflamed and I can’t do anything about it. I’ve tried all kinds of things ...

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Magic 💫

Call it what you want but I think rituals help us to solidify our desires and focus on what we want and need from the universe. Saying things out loud can be powerful, and giving yourself time and space to process changes or feelings has a lot of value, especially during these stressful times. I work in mental health in my regular life, and I see a lot of parallels between mindfulness and the kinds of witchy rituals I like to do with my friends.

For this giveaway I’m going to mail yo...

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Please hold...

I sprained my ankle today and fainted and it was quite an adventure. Just wanted to thank you for your patience, things did not turn out today the way I had planned...

I will be posting the giveaway info and some cute new pics (taken before I kissed my driveway) as soon as I can. In the mean time look at this gorgeous painting Elly made of us. I remember the day we took these reference photos in her bedroom...

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