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Tomorrow I’m announcing a witchy giveaway! In the mean time here is my butt. This week has been truly overwhelming, plus my period is about to start and the full moon this week is in Pisces so suddenly all of the feeling and dreaming and crying makes perfect sense. Was your week kinda crazy too? Emotional rollercoaster vibes? Hope you’re finding some peace in spite of it. I’m curled up in my llama sheets with my indica vape pen and a book I’ve been carrying around for weeks but can’...

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You pushed first.

I’ve never been good at letting go. I’ve been holding you close even though you pushed first. How foolish. I wanted to give you all of the delicate things I’ve grown, how many times did I let you crush them? You can’t help me tend to my garden after you’ve salted the earth. You can’t lay claim to all of the fruit, it was yours and you let it rot. These are my flowers now. 

(I just found this text in my tumblr drafts from 2015... never posted because I got back toget...

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Special Announcement: Postcard Club!

I’ve added TWO new tiers here on Patreon and I wanted to tell you first.

Postcard Club is a fresh new $6 tier, each month on the 15th I’ll send you a unique postcard print in the mail!

  • Postcards are 6 in x 4 in (15.2 cm x 10.2 cm) and are blank on the reverse side.
  • Postcards will feature myself and other coven members and will be include new and archival images.
  • Postcards are suitable for framing, collecting, sending to friends, sticking up on your wal...

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Late Night Longing

One day I’m going to write a movie about us.

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My horoscope says I’m conflating optimism with enlightenment. Enlighten me while I’m on my back, I’ll get it right. It’s easy to be optimistic when you’re on top of me, underneath you I’m steady and good.

A compulsion is not a choice, it’s a drive, a habit. An itch you scratch. But I choose this, my eyes are open, yours look right back at me, green and clear. This choice feels easy.

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I’m healing and working through some things. My life is a construction zone at the moment.

But I’m grateful for all of you, and the soft landing this space provides.

I have a few exciting photo shoots coming up, another giveaway, and some personal writing about the changes in my marriage.

The giveaway this time is a witchy one! Stay tuned for more details. And thanks, as always, for being in my corner.

(Burning ritual: Abalone shell from Ember, Sage from Ed...

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Your Face Belongs Here

ā€œYour face belongs here.ā€

I send her this picture with those 4 words. She knows it’s true. She tells me all the time.

I love how she rests her cheek against my thigh, gently nuzzles against it, closes her eyes and breathes me in. My softest places make her so soft.

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Mood

Today is a complicated day.

(Algonquin, 2013)

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Quiet time alone (Part 2)

Privacy and time alone have been in short supply during this fucking pandemic, but everyone went swimming and I have the house to myself for an hour at least.

It’s summer sticky hot, but the fan on the windowsill feels so good against my bare thighs as I lean back and slip my sundress up.

I trace my fingers across my panties, the wet spot doesn’t surprise me. I’ve been thinking of her all morning, how it felt when I stretched around her fingers, her other hand gripping the...

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Grabby Hands

An oldie but a goodie šŸ’˜

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Sweet Escape

It’s been the loveliest weekend at my babe’s house (I love wearing her clothes). So much to celebrate and so much sweetness.

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Tease

We just passed day 150 here... I’m getting a little stir crazy. My husband has been away for work and I’ve been single parenting, it’s fun but exhausting, privacy is a dream...

BUT! This weekend... Max and I are celebrating the one year anniversary of our first date. A year ago I sent a risky text after midnight confessing my crush on her, flustered and giddy. A year ago I woke up to her sweet reply, asking me out for a drink. A year ago I talked myself out of that date a dozen or...

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Cabin Fever

Summer, 2013. We had a cabin in Algonquin booked, but then the car accident happened, and I had headaches that never quit. And the long drive was daunting but... we went. I spent long stretches of time alone while everyone else hiked and swam and played. I took self-portraits to try and connect my body to the present moment. I was suffering from PTSD on top of the whiplash and headaches, though I hadn’t been diagnosed yet. It was in this cabin I decided to un-enroll for school that fall. I ...

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Dirty Talk

ā€œGet that little ass up here so I can clean you up,ā€ she says, knowing I’m dripping wet after getting her off. I love going down on her, it’s a treat every time. I cherish it, relish these rare moments when she lets me take care of her, worship her as much as she’ll allow. It turns me on the way I can feel her clit throbbing in my mouth as she gets closer and closer. When she’s about to cum she puts her hand on the back of my head and fucks my face and I almost cum too, even thoug...

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Coven Roll Call

I’m going to have posters printed but I wanted to share this with you! I asked everyone in the coven who wanted to participate to send me one of these cute avatars and I made a collage of all of us hanging together. I would watch this queer kickass cartoon, that’s for sure.

From top left we have: Eden, Max, Heart, Joie, Piper, Scout, Peach, Elly, Gloria, Sabina and her girlfriend, Kitten, Doe, Beth, Ember, E, Anna, M, Elle, Betty, Mimi, The Beekeeper, Bee, Madeleine, Ms.O, Mars, Ce...

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Selfies in other people’s bathrooms...

My specialty. šŸ

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Tender šŸ’™

Ms.O and I get to hang out together this weekend! I can’t wait to see her and soak up her smile.

July 2017 - Coven photoshoot with Kitten, Ms.O, and Heart

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Time Away

Max, that darling prince charming of mine, invited the kiddos and I to her place for the week. Ice cream and hiking trails and movie night cuddle piles. When the pup was attacked by wasps it was Max who rescued her, scooping her up in her arms. We hailed her a hero, the pup is more in love than ever. Me too. Meeeee toooooooo.

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The wand-winners have been contacted, but I’ll be doing another giveaway in a few weeks so keep an eye out.

I can’t thank you enough for your support, especially during these strange times. It’s been so great hearing from more of you in my inbox too!

Here’s a cute snap O took of my butt on the bouncy castle last weekend at Eden’s place.

I’m soaking up some summer days with Max and my kiddos (and the pup of course), the crickets and full moon are giving me plen...

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Last chance!

Just a reminder that you have until the end of the day today to comment on the Wand post from earlier this week for a chance to win one of 4 cute Impact Wands from Eden.


Here are some excellent examples of the cute marks the wand makes, all from Beth, the sweetest test subject. I love how her skin marks, such a pretty canvas. (The cherry blossom is my new favourite!)

You can check out Eden’s wan...

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Quiet time alone (Part 1)

When I’m alone I can hear myself. I can hear what I need, and sense how I’m feeling. If someone else is in the room my radar tunes in to them, to their needs. It’s how I’m wired. I can’t hear myself if someone is standing beside me. I need to be alone, without interference, to feel myself exist.

I’m learning that I have to be responsible for this on my own. It’s not my loved ones fault that I can’t focus on my own needs when they are around, it’s me who has to work ha...

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Something worth celebrating...

I posted this last weekend on Twitter when I got home from our coven hang at Eden’s place, but I wanted to share here too.

What felt so good to me is that I wasn’t even fighting my triggers or actively trying to work through my trauma. It was just okay. I was just turned on and in the moment and wanting her....

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Eden ✨

I don’t use the word perfect often, but Eden’s boobs sure are an exception.

Hope your Friday is off to a good start. ✨

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2020 mood šŸ’„

This is my new favourite article of clothing and I needed to show you.

(It’s from DatCraftyGal and it’s currently being restocked.)

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Don’t forget!

You have 3 more days to comment on the Impact Wand giveaway! Find Tuesday’s ā€œWant A Wandā€ post and leave a comment with your favourite summer thing. There will be 4 wands to mail out to lucky winners so your odds are very good. I’ll be announcing winners on Sunday!


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Kissing Ass šŸ’™

I know I’m not the only one who has missed Ms.O’s gorgeous bum. When she asked me to try out one of Eden’s star-shaped wands on her I was delighted.

I couldn’t resist the urge to kiss her ass and leave my (lipstick) mark next to the mark the wand made. šŸ’‹


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Butch Bait

So this is kinda funny... I was fussing over what to wear to Eden’s backyard bbq with the coven. All of my visits with Max this summer have been in kid-friendly clothes and I wanted to flaunt the opportunity to dress for her eyes.

At the last minute I picked a yellow mini-skirt with pink roses, and this cute pale pink see-through T-shirt. With no bra, of course. From afar it looks cute and summery sweet, feminine, but I knew she would be tongue-tied and distracted if she could see my...

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Hostess with the Mostess

Eden and her vintage camper, which she has spent lockdown customizing and upgrading. (The countertops inside are GLITTERY!!)

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Want a wand?

Eden wanted to spoil you a bit so she let me pick 4 impact wands to give away!

For a chance to win one of these cute wands leave a comment telling me your favourite Summer Thing!

My favourite summer things are the sound of cicadas, flowers, bare feet and chasing the ice cream truck. I’ll be picking winners randomly on Sunday so you have all week to enter. (You can enter if you’ve entered OR won before.)

And a big thanks to Eden for her generosity. You can 2020-07-28 14:54:01 +0000 UTC View Post

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I wanted to see if the sunshine wand imprinted the smile when it left a mark and the answer was YES.

Here’s Ms.O helping me with the experiment.

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