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Peony Season

It’s that time of year again, my favourite tradition.

I’m grateful for my garden doing spectacular things, it’s a necessary and beautiful distraction from all of the difficult work around here lately.

I have my third therapy session today. I’ve been writing little notes after each of them, to help me remember, to help me stay clear. I’m going to share them here too. It’s personal, but when I was going through treatment for PTSD and I posted about that journey on tumb...

You tasted as many as you could...

“Life will break you.

Nobody can protect you from that, and living alone won’t either, for solitude will also break you with its yearning.

You have to love.

You have to feel.

It is the reason you are here on earth.

You are here to risk your heart. You are here to be swallowed up. And when it happens that you are broken, or betrayed, or left, or hurt, or death brushes near, let yourself sit by an apple tree and listen to the apples falling all around you in he...

Promises

Mars sent me this little daydream in the mail. A tiny painting of our coven dancing naked in wildflowers. We keep making promises for things we want to do when the pandemic has settled, dancing naked in wildflowers is high on the list.

🌸

This week has been an impossible train of Events and Things That Must Be Addressed. I’m setting off explosions in my own life, instead of enduring, instead of being afraid to rock the boat. It’s hard work.

Flower Crown and Claws

I love that I took one look at this instax from my personal collection and knew immediately which party this was. Summertime Badness last August, where E introduced us to the titanium claws, I tried (and failed) to hit on Max, and Toppy O came to life thanks to the magical powers of a flower crown.

Here she is clawing my cute little butt. (Click the Summertime Badness tag below to see all the photos from that night.)

Last Chance!

I’m sending out these gay ass stickers tomorrow! If you want me to mail you one just leave a comment on this post telling me one good or nice thing about yourself.

I’ll send you a message through your Patreon inbox (you have one of those!) to ask which mailing address to use, so you could even ask me to mail them to a gay ass friend.

If you’ve entered previous giveaways you can still participate in this one. In fact especially if you’ve entered previous giveawa...

Slumber Party Moments

I’ve been sharing instax from my personal collection, and this one is actually Joie’s, but it’s one of my favourites. All the babes sifting through the piles of Instax from the party.... I love these moments.

Private Collections

One of my favourite things about visiting friends is that I get to see their little instax shrines! At Joie’s apartment she has a cork board with all kinds of fun things stuck to it. (Including this shot of me from the 5th Sapphic Slumber Party last Spring.)

Grandma’s House

My grandparents are moving to a smaller home. They’re still alive. All 4 of them are actually, even though I’m 38 years old. Isn’t that wild?

I feel lucky to know them and spend time with them now and then, when life allows. I call and send cute notes in the mail with pictures and memories. I love them all so dearly. They’re in their 80’s, in varying states of health. But those are good genes and I’ve been blessed to have so many adult years with their stories and wisdom in...

A View

“If you suddenly and unexpectedly feel joy, don’t hesitate. Give in to it. There are plenty of lives and whole towns destroyed or about to be. Whatever it is, don’t be afraid of its plenty. Joy is not made to be a crumb.” -Don’t Hesitate by Mary Oliver

I saw this excerpt from a poem by Mary Oliver and it was exactly what I’ve been trying to say.

The best part is this is the third time during lockdown that Mary Oliver has saved me.

In A...

That’s What Friends Are For

My home situation has become increasingly challenging, and today my best friend Joie gave me the gift of a mental health day. She went to her girlfriends place and left me the keys to her beautiful EMPTY bachelor apartment with a killer balcony view. I spent 10 hours on blissful selfish indulgence. It was so fucking necessary. I am very lucky to have such good people on my team.

(Reminder: You can still comment on Saturday’s post and I’ll send you a gay sticker in the mail, if you�...

Sunny Saturday

Just a reminder that you can comment on yesterday’s post to get a free gay ass sticker mailed to you. Mail is a nice surprise these days.

This dress is wrinkly and I didn’t sleep very well but the birds are singing and I’m determined that today won’t be so bad.

Because YOU are wonderful 🌈

Congratulations to syr who won the pride wand!

Today’s present is my favourite one so far. I’ve made these gay ass stickers to cheer up our resident dominant, E. (Thats her cute butt at a slumber party.)

The stickers are 2 inches x 2 inches, and they’re outdoor safe and waterproof.

I want to mail you one! All you have to do to get one is drop a message in the comments telling me ONE NICE THING ABOUT YOURSELF. Lemme see that self-compassion. Tell me o...

Day 81 thoughts ✨

My teenaged-self marched for gay rights, decriminalizing weed and abolishing the police. Things everyone scoffed at. Our city has a police budget of over a billion dollars. I work in mental health and I can tell you how badly we need that kind of money, and how much safer we could make our communities with the right services in place. Defunding the police is the only way to move forward.

You can read more about the defund movement 2020-06-05 04:04:19 +0000 UTC View Post

A few of my favourite things...

“I would have been happy if you’d picked me dandelions,” I was in awe.

“I know,” she replied, “but you deserve so much more.”

She’s been the sunshine during these hard days. The bouquet smells so good my youngest kiddo inhaled them deeply and said “Mama these smell so good you could sell sniffs for fifty cents a snoofle!” And he’s right. I’ve been snoofling them all day.

There’s been some positive progress on my home front. And some negotiations ...

Pride Wand

Today’s giveaway is another wicked impact wand from Eden. This pride rainbow double-star wand leaves a super cute star-within-a-star mark on your desired consensual target.

I’ll mail you this pretty little baby (and a couple extra little treats) if you comment below and tell me something GOOD you did this week. I want to hear about how you’re making positive change, whether it’s protesting, donating to important causes, doing some important self care, taking a first st...

New Angles ✨

Dating a person obsessed with my thighs means trying to figure out how to best show them off when I’m sending her pictures. I balanced my phone on my light fixture to get this one... she said I did a good job and she wants to put her face right there. Mission accomplished.

Just a reminder you have until tomorrow morning to reply to yesterday’s Mask post (with a song you love to fuck to) for a chance to win one of those lovely designs! Tomorrow I’ll be posting the winne...

Birthday Girl Joie

My bestie had her birthday today and she drove over to have a dance party at the end of my driveway. I missed her so much! Here’s an instax from my personal collection from the first Sapphic Slumber Party in 2017 of me and Joie being adorable.

Masks but make them FASHION

One of our darling coven babes is making these lovely masks as a way to keep her business open. I feel lucky to know her because I get front of the line access to these kickass masks! Of all the designs I’ve tried these ones stay on the best, instead of having elastic that hooks over the ears it’s two bands that go behind the head. That means the mask stays put, no adjusting or fussing with it. The masks also have a bendable nose-piece so they shape to your face, and stop the dreaded glas...

Good Things

1. Puddle pants. Remember these from your toddler years? I found them in big girl sizes. With Care Bears on ‘em. They’re very little and cute.

2. Shout out to my girlfriend for spending 2 and a half hours on the phone with me yesterday when I was in crisis. She listened, and she distracted me with stories about her slutty dating days, which are my very favourite. She was at work and still made it feel like it wasn’t a chore. She insisted on being there for me. (Even though before...

Reckoning

The world is on fire and so is my home. Yesterday I had to take a stand and give some tough ultimatums. It did not go well. It’s hugely anxiety provoking to not know what’s coming next, but I couldn’t keep going the way we were. I was raised in a chaotic environment with angry drunk men. I do not want to live in one now. No one can thrive that way. It’s hard to say enough is enough, especially when you love them, especially when you understand. These are hard times and no one is at th...

The Morning After

Self-Portrait

Sapphic Slumber Party #2 - November 2017