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A Happy Project

Max is moving to the city.... eventually. There’s a lot of steps between here and there. One of those steps is getting her house ready for renting, part of which involved pulling up the giant garden her ex planted to make the house more accessible. She’d mentioned the task during the winter, alluded that it would be good closure for her. She’d been putting it off, maybe because the symbolism of letting her ex take over her yard and her life was too heavy. I offered to help, “Nah,” s...

More Prizes! 💐

Hello my darling Patrons. I wanted to thank you for your kind support during these ridiculous times. My day job won’t be back in action for months, so more than ever your patronage is SAVING MY ASS!!!! 💝

As a way to say thanks, next week I’m going to mail out a few prizes, similar to the wand giveaway I did at the start of the month. Stay tuned for more info on how to participate.

In the mean time this week has felt a little lighter in my house. All that sun and rain is he...

Sweet moments ✨

I’ve been going through my personal collection of instax from our coven events and it’s made me so sentimental. I’ve selected a few of my favourites to share with you this week.

This is a quick candid snap of me helping my Kitten tie her beautiful satin gown at the Spring Sapphic Slumber Party last year. She made this floaty floor-length gown by hand and was stunning, as always. I love the body language here, Daddy and her little girl, her downcast eyes and my sure smile.

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Sunshine

There’s baby birds calling and all kinds of things growing. The warm grass on my bare feet was the best sensation I’ve felt in a while. I try to keep these things close to my heart.

Lovebirds

We speculate now and then about our first fight. Its a pastime of ours. It’s been 9 months but we’re still honeymooning, there’s been challenges sure, and a few tense moments, but we haven’t made each other angry, and we haven’t made each other cry. We’re curious about those sides of each other.

“I don’t know, I can’t see it happening, maybe we’ll just never fight,” she said, her face resting against my stomach, my curtains blowing a little in the breeze, my neigh...

🍀

I found a four-leaf clover just now! Haven’t found one in a long time. The 4th leaf is a little nibbled and mangled, but it’s still lucky right?

I needed a good omen today. 💫

Saturday

The day like all the other days except more people are home and I have to try harder to find a little quiet.

Venting and pickin’ flowers 🌸

This feels like a safe place for all of these words.

Being on lockdown with someone who has a drinking problem has not been easy. I don’t want to say too much about it because addiction is intensely complex and intensely personal, but I can speak to my experience trying to stay positive through this.

Part of me feels guilty for taking issue with it, I’ve been smoking hella weed since lockdown started, my consumption has increased to cope with stress. Who am I to criticize any...

a bunny and me…

Such a sweet little bunny, hopped herself onto a plane and flew all the way to Canada to see me. Her home is so far away, but she brought some of the sunshine with her, and borrowed all of my warm clothes when the chilly nights made her shiver.

She’s in law school now, and she’s killing all of her goals and aspirations. I feel lucky to cheer someone so lovely on, and admire her from so far away.

Throwback to a lovely day in bed with PetitePersephone, Summer 2015. 2020-05-22 12:25:14 +0000 UTC View Post

Day 66

Today was call my therapist o’clock. I haven’t seen her in a few years. But it’s time. I know it’s no surprise, everyone is starting to lose it a little, it feels like. I feel like a pop can all shaken up.

Self-portrait while house-sitting for my in-laws, 2014.

City Lights

2014 in a hotel room downtown...

Good Morning 💋

This week is gonna bring good things. Don’t you think? We’re due for some.

I would have been leaving for Amsterdam this morning, if the whole pandemic thing hadn’t gone down. I’m missing the tulips and the pancakes and the stroop-waffels, but I have faith I’ll be able to visit again one day.

It’s a holiday here in Canada today, not that it means anything these days. But it definitely means I’m lazing around in my robe with the windows open, listening to the birds c...

“Now?”

Would you drive a few hours just to fuck me on a nest of blankets on the floor of the greenhouse in my backyard? I’d put a sheet over the back window so the neighbours couldn’t see if they got curious. We could still hear them though, working in their garden, their fence is just on the other side... we’d have to be so quiet.

There’s no privacy in the house, and it’s the middle of the day so fucking in your backseat would be risky with all the joggers and dog walkers out... bu...

Balance

This is one of my favourite self portraits from my circus training days. A neck injury from a car accident meant I couldn’t continue at the level I was at, I always secretly hope one day it will be possible. I miss being strong like this, how my muscles felt different. More capable.

Reminder!

When I absolutely feel useless and like I need something to keep me sane I force myself to colour. It’s known to reduce stress, I know this, but how often before quarantine did I reach for those adult colouring books? Either way, this is just a reminder that if you’re getting through this you’re doing a fucking great job!

(Have you done any crafts of projects to pass the time? Lemme know in the comments!)

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Gifts

It’s funny how the universe works. Our ex’s sound like similar people. We were both taken advantage of. Our friends are relieved we are free. We were both so careful at first, slow to be vulnerable with each other, unsure about trusting our instincts.

“I know this sounds like such a low bar, but when you say things, I believe them, and I can’t tell you how good that feels.” I wish I could explain how my ex was so good with words but they meant nothing. Nothing means anything ...

Bored in the house...

...and I’m in the house bored.

Nothing fancy here just some fresh outta bed titties to start your day.

💘

O 🌿

The darling Ms.O was kind enough to let me share this selfie with you. I miss her apartment so much! Her beautiful little sky pod right downtown. The furniture is white and the floors are dark and it’s full full FULL of plants and growing things. It’s the perfect habitat for this kind of babe. 🌿

She sent me the most O text yesterday...

Chilly

Still waiting for the sun here. I keep seeing garden photos from friends who live in warmer places and it makes me so jealous! A friend in Seattle posted peonies today! Mine are a month away at least. But they’re coming. Eventually they’re coming.

This weekend is supposed to be sunny though, and things are gonna thaw. Gonna set up the slack line and make pancakes and maybe go outside without a coat CAN YOU IMAGINE.

Max lives a few hours north and she had snow on the ground t...

Time Travel

TheVictory of Faith (c.1890) by Irish artist Saint George Hare (1857-1933)

I send her this picture with the message;

“Look, we time travelled. Here we are in 1890 exhausted and snoozing after fucking all night in the barn.”

She laughs and agrees it look like us.

“You can see from that wall restraint that I’m some sort of slave for taking care of those lions in the background,” I continue.

“Mmm hmm. They’re my lions,” she says, I can he...

Softness

“Ma lapinette. So soft and so eager to be here.”

Throwback to a lovely day in bed with PetitePersephone, Summer 2015.

Mansion Doll

Instax of me from one of our first slumber parties... circa 2017.

Found Hearts 💘

Max is working downtown and sent me this picture of the tower, all lit up with hearts. I’ve been feeling so trapped in the house these past few days, being irritable from my period isn’t helping at all. I was whining about feeling like a housewife and it auto corrected to mousewife, so now we joke about my disenchantment with the mousewife life. It’s nice having someone to be sweet to me when I’m feeling so sour.

I guess I just wanted to say it’s okay if you’re feeling shitt...

Gay 4 Girls

I loved this edit of our lady E at one of the slumber parties. There’s something so free and fantastic about it. I was immediately inspired... stay tuned.

Group Effort

In an effort to try and make life more fun I try to come up with these cute doodle challenges for the kids, but the grownups play too of course.

I usually draw the challenge and leave room for everyone else to contribute. Sometimes it’s an underwater scene and everyone has to add an animal and plant. Sometimes it’s a tree and everyone has to add something growing. Sometimes it’s a question everyone has to answer. This time it was “ what is (our dog) thinking about?” and I add...

Oh 🍁

Bee passed on some clothes recently and this shirt was in the mix. Gonna keep it in case I ever wanna play up the “Canadian Girlfriend” angle.

Hanging in there...

How is everyone doing? No really, we okay?

It was nice reading your comments on my thank you post. They were so awesome I decided to give away all three wands instead of just one. Congrats to Karly, Casey and Kristan, I hope the new wands leave a lasting impression. (And feel feee to send me pictures of the marks!)

A few nice things from my end: I ordered some cute new girl-gang merch things that I can’t wait to show you. I’ll be doing a giveaway again when they come in! I w...

Devotion

She was disappointed that the tulips were dropping their petals already. “But that’s what they do,” I assured her. “They open and open and open until they fall apart.”

I needed her so badly, just the feel of her fingers filling me up made me desperate to fall apart too.

Later, in the wake of another orgasm I nuzzle against her neck and whisper sweetly, “I lost count, but I think it’s your turn now...”

She smiles. I know this means no.

The rule is I ge...

May the Fourth

May the force be with you, friends! Thought I’d share this throwback from tumblr, Funny enough this one didn’t get picked up by the anti-titty algorithm. 

Thigh Cuffs

I still have fantasies about clipping two pretty subby girls together with these leather thigh cuffs while I put them through their paces. Letting them hold hands and comfort each other and kiss while I ask them to awkwardly follow my directions and get into the right position for their next task or challenge. So many good ideas for the next party we get to throw... one day.

(Photos are PetitePersephone and me in 2015)