Kaelan + Ecstatic Self

Early Access: This Week's Video

What if this were the last night of your life? How would you live differently?

NSFW Content link for Jan

Hey patrons!

Here is your link to access my OF for the month of January.

Thank you for all your support! I hope that you enjoy.

Big hugs, Kaelan. :)

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NEW Website!!!

Hey gang! Before I release this to everyone else, what are your thoughts?

There are still some tweaks that need to happen. The designer who did my two book covers helped me out with this -- and I am thrilled with how it's turned out!

I appreciate your opinions and observations. Sending you much love!!

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Patron only livestream

Happy NEW YEAR!!

Early Access: New Year's Meditation Video

Hey guys! Here's this week's video. I hope that you enjoy! You get to see it here first.

Merry Christmas! Patron Livestream!

Christmas is traditionally a time for ghost stories... today, I share an advanced practice for connecting with and ushering loved ones through to the other side. I hope you find this useful. Blessings be!!

Quick update from Chicago...

Things have been not so great for my dad (who is still in the ICU). Wanted to drop you all a quick note. XOXXO

Early access: this week’s video about the solstice.

I hope that you enjoy!

What's going on with my dad?

If you were in the meditation class tonight, you know that my dad ended up in the hospital and could have died today. Here's the full story about what is going on with him. thank you for all your love and blessings!

Early Access: The Great Purge -- How Digestive Distress Taught Me a BIG Life Lesson

Hey gang! Here's this week's video.

It's been really cool to share the steps of the journey with you. Last week, I did a candid Patron-only livestream talking about getting sick and how it was teaching me something. This inspired me to write a script for a video, which I then shared in my next post. Finally, I actually created the video.

You will notice that the tone, focus, and intent has changed dramatically between the three versions. This is why I really try to allow the stori...

My little video last night inspired this...

Hey guys. My talk with you last night made me think I should turn it into a YouTube video. What do you think? Here's a script I drafted up.

Big hugs!! Kaelan

I just returned home from a long weekend in Mexico, and while I was there, some uncomfortable emotions came up,. You see, we returned to the place where hubby and I got married. The reflections about our time there celebrating the wedding were beautiful: going through old photos, recounting stories, etc. But there ...

Behind the Scenes: Sick with Digestive Bug, Purging a loved one, and Connection Time with Hubby

Hey guys! Here's my behind the scenes for the week. XOX

This week was my husband’s birthday

Hey guys! just got home tonight from my husband‘s birthday trip in Mexico (and I am sooooo sick from food poisoning).

I thought it would be fun to share this with you: two years into our relationship, I wrote this song and made this music video as a gift to my husband. His nickname for me is panda, and mine for him is monkey. I told the story of our meeting in this song.

I hope you enjoy!

Monthly link for NSFW content

Hey guys! Here’s your monthly pass to OF. Just a reminder that the uncensored versions of my YouTube videos are available there!

Big hugs, Kaelan

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Early Access: Your Naked Truth

Being honest and having integrity are big ideas for me. I am happy to share these thoughts with you!

Tomorrow's Video: Gratitude Meditation for Thanksgiving

We all need to destress during holidays. Hopefully this will help!

Patreon Livestream!!

Here's you exclusive behind the scenes look at what changes are a brewing!

FINALLY able to access YouTube again... here's this week's video

After the ANNOYING 1-week freeze (they still haven't responded to my appeal regarding the strike on my account), I am finally able to upload and post again. Here's the video that is upcoming next; it is very dear to my heart, and I hope that you enjoy! Big hugs!!

Meditation tonight will be on instagram :-/

Hey guys!

A year ago, I interviewed the orgasmic shaman on my YouTube channel. Two days ago, YouTube issued a strike against my channel because linking to his homepage back then apparently he violated community guidelines. When they do this… You cannot upload or lifestream for one week. I have appeal the decision, but have not yet heard back. So, for meditation tonight, I’ll do it via Instagram live. I hope to see you there :-) sorry for the inconvenience.

Behind the Scenes for Patrons

This is something I have been thinking about a lot this week: the burnout we feel from the emotional distress of others. It's not something I am ready to talk about on Youtube, but for you all: I am more than happy to share!

Early Access: Youtube Video about the retreat!

Here you go!! Eager to hear your thoughts. <3

Sneak Peek: Oct 2024 Spiritual Retreat in India

This is something I have been working on for MONTHS... and I couldn't be more excited!

Picture this—waking up in the regal Oberoi Delhi, or the historical BrijRama Palace in Varanasi, right on the banks of the sacred Ganges. Soaking up the divine vibes at awe-inspiring places like the Akshardham Temple and feel the ancient whispers in the wind at the Laxmi Narayan Temple. Imagine witnessing the sunrise at the Taj Mahal or cruising down the Ganges, taking in the essence of a land where...

Link for NSFW content for November

Namaste, my beloved Patrons!

Here's your exclusive OF link for November. THANK YOU so much for all your love and support!

I hope that you enjoy. Sending you all big hugs!

Peace, Kaelan

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Script for a video that I don't feel comfortable producing

Hi, gang:

As my Patrons, I try to give you an insider look into my life and process.

This is a script for a video that I wrote two weeks ago. When I approached shooting it, however, I realized I am not ready yet to talk about this publicly.

Accepting that I am cognitively different than the average Joe is something of a second coming out for me.  I'm not yet ready to publicly share my narrative around it.

I hope that you, my Patrons, can love and accept me for whe...

Tomorrow's Video: The Story of Why I Left My Acting Career

This is a video in response to a question several of you have asked me about: Why did I leave acting? Would I ever do it again? 

ALSO ... YAY for starting to shout out to all of you at the end of the video!! THANK YOU for all of your love and support!!! XOXO

Live stream for Patrons!

Big hugs to you. all!!! Here's some important updates from me for you all. Please let me know your thoughts!!

Also... this week's video will be the first one where I thank Patrons at the end of the video. Please be sure to check it out!! 

Tomorrow's Video: Coming Out in 2023: A Personal Choice, Not An Obligation

This video comes from a fan question. I believe that the decision to come out is deeply personal and unique to each individual. While coming out has historically been seen as an essential step for many, the pressures and potential consequences should be weighed against the benefits of self-actualization.

I am excited to hear your thoughts!

Not sure I should post this... but I had something happen tonight

I have very mixed feelings about sharing this experience. But hopefully that it's helpful for others.

A special behind the scenes conversation just for patrons

It’s been an intense week. This isn’t something I’m ready to discuss publicly yet—but as my friends and supporters, I thought you’d like to know. 

Tomorrow’s Video: The Edge of Madness

Thank you all for checking out the script for this video that I created earlier this week. I thought you would have fun seeing the development process. How it went from that to this. What do you think of the changes?

Big hugs! Kaelan :)