Hey everyone! I’m consolidating all the chapters of every book and moving them onto Wordpress for convenient viewing.
Patreon experienced a coding issue with the update and removed all the italics from all existing posts, so I’ve had a hell of a time with that.
DARLING has been put through an edit with the help of my beta catching inconsistencies, readability, etc. The only terminology change you should be aware of is that ‘Soulmate/Mate’ has been changed to ‘Tether....
2023-12-12 18:00:48 +0000 UTC
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🎃 HAPPY HALLOWEEN! 🎃
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Directions:
Follow the link to my WordPress: the password is TobiasSmells2011
There, you can read the original version of Black Velvet all in one post. All other books will soon be consolidated and posted on this site as well and locked for patron members - so that they're easier to read for first-time readers or readers who want to reread without searching through Patreon's awful tagging system.
Only Pa...
2023-10-31 21:26:25 +0000 UTC
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🔞 WARNINGS FOR: skippable but explicit sexual content, Ezra being a terrible (outstanding) influence on Milan and his vocabulary, slight dom undertones, Ezra's (gross) potty mouth, mild praise kink, Ezra thinks Milan is pretty, Milan likes that (what's new, really) 🔞
I hope you enjoy 5,000 words, because my eyes sure didn't! 😭 (jk I'm happy for them, what a milestone) but if you find mistakes shhh no u didn’t I’m fragile from two days of editing ...
2023-09-22 04:40:39 +0000 UTC
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* back to regular updates, kiddo is in school and my brain is finally in a semi-normal spot *
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I shift back a step at his teasing, a roll of my eyes the only retort I can think of. Still, I feel delirious, my heart pulverizing the grace of my footing. I desperately try to latch onto the easy escape that his taunt offers me, to dismiss every slithering caterpillar's transformation inside the vacancy of my belly, their fragile wings unfurli...
2023-08-24 17:12:45 +0000 UTC
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Since I was “absent” this month, I paused the billing cycle for July patrons that were existing patrons in June. This means existing Patrons from June that remained subscribed will not be charged for July.
I put absent in quotations because I have been working on maintenance issues. A hardship for existing patrons that I’m very aware of is the horrible tagging system! I wanted to do Google docs originally (as stated in my last post) but it turned out that this wasn’t a viab...
2023-07-28 18:08:01 +0000 UTC
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Hey everyone!
At the advice of a professional, I haven’t been seeking reassurance through compulsively posting progress updates on Patreon. I hope you understand that this is related to my mental health and not a change in my respect for any of you. 💖
That being said, this post is strictly an update on what to expect next, as I personally believe it is some pretty great news!
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I’m consolidating all chapters for each story into a separate EPUB file or Goo...
2023-05-16 22:49:29 +0000 UTC
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(This mega chapter took me LITERALLY two weeks and the first several paragraphs were already written and then thrown out and rewritten — then Ezra and Milan went to breakfast instead, but that was thrown out as well, but hey, at least 😭 we're making progress.
I was obsessive with the dialogue in this because I wanted it to be realistic and I think this is an important stepping stone. Please forgive me for any rootin' tootin' idiot errors because this was a monster and I was r...
2023-03-22 09:26:40 +0000 UTC
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(warnings for referenced child abuse, referenced alcoholism, and a toxic friendship — but don’t worry, the next chapter is pleasant)
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Lucas was my lily pad.
He had boxy ends to his fingers where his nail curved, blunt, sometimes dirty — like the archetypical teenage boy, usually somewhat filthy, always touching something. The sheets, the pillowcase, his hair — tapping along my thigh when he spoke. His movements were like that, young and reckless, lips we...
2023-03-16 05:04:39 +0000 UTC
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(making up movies and books to fit my narrative as always)
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"Yeah."
Ezra sits back with an exhale, flicking through the outputs until he finds his DVD player and settles on a movie already inserted.
"Since I'm tryin' to find you a favorite." He nods toward the screen. It flickers brightly, the tinny sound of an old production company's logo, and then in green Egmont font, "Classic."
The Lily Pond
"...Classic, as in
2023-02-26 21:52:50 +0000 UTC
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don’t let this mess up ur headcannon views of any characters (it’s the reason I don’t post art) I just like to doodle while I listen to podcasts at night so I have a bunch of random book art
(shout out to William for holding his hand up to the living room light for a horrible amount of time)
this was meant to be a tarot card sticker for ten tier patrons but idk man! Idk!
2023-02-14 05:57:39 +0000 UTC
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When I emerge, I see that Ezra has turned on the TV and is lounging on the couch beside the coffee table. An unused lamp is near the corner, hidden in the room's pitch — a pillow and throw blanket rumpled and pushed into the junction of the couch's arm and cushion.
The living room is dark. The windows are shuttered tight, with the blinds drawn under his pretty, eyelet curtains. The only light is a hazy white, leaking across from the television screen, mirroring in Ezra's watchful eyes...
2022-12-20 23:56:25 +0000 UTC
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Months ago — I cried in Ezra's doorway. I allowed him, as a stranger, to gather me in his arms; to cradle the significance of unhappiness that I'd never let someone else touch. Weeks ago, I stumbled there, past the threshold, pathetically inebriated — bearing the consequence of my sadness as he carefully peeled off my shoes.
Today, drenched and mud-covered, greedy and different, and seeking something only for myself — I kissed a man I once told not to touch me, one tha...
2022-12-15 04:02:39 +0000 UTC
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(when ur new roommate is a night owl - welcome to an XL chapter)
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Lexi's house has a white picket fence. It's also rather large, especially when compared to Ezra's modest single-family abode and my former one-room apartment. Her home is two stories, featuring a sleeping porch, and is fully equipped with a hanging, haint-blue ceiling. The driveway pivots into a large stretch of gravel, like a small, makeshift parking lot.
Once we exit, she motions to the dried filth that cov...
2022-11-23 04:43:51 +0000 UTC
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"Is Huxley like, permanently stuck in a time warp?"
Tobias' dryer has decided that drying clothes really isn't it's calling, after all. Of course, it fails to announce its change of life goals until after my hot-chocolate-stained clothes are sopping wet from the washing machine. This leads to Tobias and I standing in Huxley's very dated 24-hour laundromat — squinting under flickering, blue-toned fluorescents.
"I told you," Tobias sighs, trading quar...
2022-11-15 18:44:30 +0000 UTC
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Black Velvet is on the way; after that will be Wicked Boy!
Sorry for my unexplained absence, I had some very expensive and sudden health issues, and I’ve been recovering and adjusting to a new medication. I didn’t have the energy/mental capacity to pop on. I feel like I’ve had to make a lot of posts like this and didn’t want the stress of it. This year has been full of ups and downs, so I apologize.
I’m ready to write again/I am currently writing, so there will be (mo...
2022-11-09 21:56:50 +0000 UTC
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(disclaimer: i do not own lord farquaad's namesake, i removed an a, don't sue me)
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previous chapter
Liza is swooning at the idea of Adrian being back in town —and shows up with coffee at my work, hoping to impress him with her new hairstyle, which I can only call a Lord Farquad-inspired mistake.
Which I, of course, voice.
"Don't call me Lord Farquad, you little shit." She snipes, before taking a swig out of my coffee. My back presses into hers as I cr...
2022-10-29 17:54:43 +0000 UTC
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do you have a reason?
2022-10-25 00:02:05 +0000 UTC
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Previous chapter
As much as I hope otherwise, Hunter might end up hailing victory on his assertion of Levi's character. As he said, I don't have a knack for predicting the mind of men - and that includes my understanding of myself.
I consider that as raindrops smatter against my chilled skin.
What other option do I really have?
My nose is r...
2022-10-19 21:53:38 +0000 UTC
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A chapter in Darling should be out tomorrow! 🫣
So sorry for the wait on these guys. I have been writing in this evil little chapter for over three weeks. Unfortunately, I scrapped the first go around and started over because I’m a glutton for pain (just kidding, I’m a glutton for chemistry and I wanted more of it.) As you know, the last scene was in total darkness, proving very difficult to write 😂 and that darkness carried over to about 3/4ths of this chapter.
I coul...
2022-10-14 06:29:20 +0000 UTC
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Previous chapter
"Long story short, I'm thinking of staging a casual run-in with Levi."
I cross my arms when Hunter looks less than impressed by my plan.
"... What?
"... Nothing."
"It doesn't look like nothing."
Hunter sighs loudly,
"... It's just,"
"There it is."
"Theo. Come on. So...
2022-10-10 00:06:32 +0000 UTC
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Previous chapter
warnings: sexual content/frantic blowjobs?
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"But I'm not," I hesitate, averting my eyes to the cabinet with another flare of heat at my neck. I stretch the sleeve of my cardigan over the back of my hand, then use it to wipe at my tingling lips. "I want to. But I'm not prepared — like last time. Um."
I shrug with an embarrassed ...
2022-10-09 22:45:25 +0000 UTC
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"I think I'm hilarious." Kia has half a Coastal Cafe pretzel shoved in her mouth, but I reach over the table to yank it out, all while ignoring the disgusted looks of the elderly couple seated two tables away from us, "Theo, you little shit."
"Not funny," I groan, wiping the pretzel cheese off onto her napkin, "None of this is funny. You are seriously the worst."
"I was eating that."
"Okay, so, I go there to make amends,". I'm talking over my fr...
2022-10-05 20:52:08 +0000 UTC
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Just as the title says!
While I write up a chapter of Black Velvet, go ahead and comment any questions you might have! 💖
If discord is easier for you, you can ask them there! If you’re shy about commenting, feel free to DM me.
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I will absolutely avoid major spoilers for upcoming chapters, don’t worry, but I will answer all questions (world, character, or plot-specific) in the best way that I can without ruining your reading experience 🫣 basically, I...
2022-09-26 03:49:45 +0000 UTC
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Hey guys, I am just posting to keep you updated!
I would like to write a chapter in:
- Teach Me (okay, I forgot how fun this AU is?! I’m currently rereading it so I can write!) / Black Velvet (I’m sorry for the domesticity rut, I have a better plan now!)
- Darling (have half of this chapter written!)
- Perhaps another in Wicked Boy? (I just miss Ezra, haha) We’ll see!
This is sort of me having high hopes for just one week, but I thi...
2022-09-23 21:52:44 +0000 UTC
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I've only been out and about one day on my own, but through unplanned traveling, I'm growing somewhat demystified towards Huxley's configuration of bumpy backroads, towering trees, and eternal dirt. The only way to distinguish a road from a parking lot is the curbs — and the only way to discern a large house from a medical facility is an engraved slab of granite.
Meadows Medical Center is the unfitting name of Huxley's veterinary clinic. It doesn't look p...
2022-09-16 21:00:08 +0000 UTC
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I stare, nose wrinkled — unsure whether to be irritated or confused and,
"... You gonna tell him, babydoll?" Lexi leans her weight back on her elbows, her rather thick head of hair bouncing. She then blows a bubble, and when it pops, she smiles around her deflated gum. "That Ez says you ain't up for grabs?"
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"... He doesn't really have a say in the matter," I don't smile back, an indignant lick of irritation at my spine, but I do reach for Lexi's ...
2022-09-13 03:38:21 +0000 UTC
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Beyond the Seraphino and The Blue House updates, I’m sure you’ve all seen an increase in extra content. After reading through my comments on my last post, where I thought maybe I should take a hiatus, I was able to find a comfortable/healthy & happy medium.
From Tuesday/Wednesday-Friday, I will likely work on extras if I’m feeling creatively burnt out. If not, I will write. If I’m doing questionnaires, it’s the perfect time for any patrons on the five or ten tier to as...
2022-09-08 23:04:26 +0000 UTC
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Just as the title says! 💖
If discord is easier for you, you can ask them there! If you’re shy, feel free to DM me.
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I will absolutely avoid spoilers for upcoming chapters, don’t worry, but I will answer all questions (world, character, creature/beast, or plot-specific) in the best way that I can without ruining your reading experience 🫣 basically, I’ll be collecting questions from here, discord, and DM, I will answer them on a word document as they come in, a...
2022-09-04 23:06:32 +0000 UTC
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Unlike the drive to Sleepy Birch's cemetery, the ride home is silent.
Everyone grows quiet after finding the flowers at Edgar's grave. Levi's actions are a sobering mystery. The graveyard turned back to what it was — not a ghost hunt or a photo-op, but a field full of heartache and bones beneath our feet.
It leaves my friends lost in thoughts I couldn't expect to understand better than my own. Confrontation scalds my conscience. Kia and Hunter's expressio...
2022-09-03 23:02:36 +0000 UTC
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Hey, everyone!
You may have seen my post on discord.
I don’t know if this is an inappropriate post to make, but I like to check in since I appreciate your support so much. Still, I also know that you are supporting me monetarily — and I don’t want to feel as if I’m taking advantage of you or not fulfilling my part. I know you are all here to support me, or read a story that I wrote, which is just amazing. I am so grateful. I want to make things for you...
2022-08-30 20:19:29 +0000 UTC
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