Lilibeth

Bitter Friends

I'm trying!!!! I REALLY AM! I'm so close of getting Jasper design! I'm so close yet I'm never really happy with it. Though! this time I am! this is as close as I'm going to get! Jasper and Beebun relationship is SOUR! yet Beebun has a soft spot for him.

 Jasper would have anxiety attacks....he is  prone to anxiety attacks and he would spiral out of control especially in a dream. He tries to hide this from Lili at first and always go off somewhere to try to calm down and Beebun...

You make me proud

You are a good kid don't ever forget that...

The Golden Field

Jasper would often dream of Lili in a golden field, She would smile at him as he approaches. He doesn't understand what she saying yet he feels calm and loved. Jasper wants to hold her tell her how much he loves her and how sorry he is to hurt her the way he did. Sadly, as he begins to speak he awakens in tears. 

Jasper would have these dreams often especially when Lili was in the hospital, at first he believed she entered his dreams but sadly it was never the case. He held this dr...

LOOK AT ME!

As the story progresses Lili begins to show confidence and demands to be heard!. Jasper begins to truly see who Lili truly is and its nothing what he thought she was. Lili at first is shy and quiet...very nervous but she is willing to do anything she cans to be a great asset to the team. 

To tell you the truth she wouldn't be this aggressive but I like to think she would one day....

Universe form

In this form she is angry, she wants revenge and she will do anything to get it. To reach this level her memories must be shattered and destroyed. All of Lili's memories no matter how big or small it is must be protected because it is apart of her. 

Jasper would steal some memories he felt he didn't think she was ready to face and memories that reveal who he truly is. Jasper destroys her memories and she takes on this form. Jasper believes if she can create new memories than the ol...

Make the Voices Stop

why won't the voices stop? why am I constantly filled with grief. Who has hurt me? why would they hurt me? it hurts my body my soul my thoughts. Why can't I hold onto my tears. My feelings, my thoughts my memories slipping through my fingers because of you....why does emptiness feel so heavy? how can I run away....I can't....im lost...im trapped....save me please...I beg you release me from this pain.....please....I beg you....help me make the voices stop.

The voices I can't understand....

Who am I?

There are two forms I want Lili to have, one of pure white light and the other as the universe and the pit of space. The white light is pure but empty. She loses herself in thought and begins  mumbling to herself not understanding what she truly wants. She begins to lose all her memories as they spill out of her in golden tears. She is desperately trying to hold onto her memories but failing to do so.

For her to reach this form is TBA. Jasper is able to communicate somewhat with he...

Golden Strings of Faith

Leon isn't the good person many people think he is, its definitely my fault since all Ive been drawing  is my AU in which he is a good person. his story is undecided but I do want to make him a villain even if half way he decides to switch teams. personally between us I have an amazing idea to give him a larger role in which hopefully will mind blown many. however, until then lets just talk about his role in the project.

Leon....he is complicated character, there times he is willin...

2017 illustrations!

I thought another illustration this month would be nice, I really enjoyed my first art book! it help me grow not only as an artist but as a seller as well. This is a piece I made in 2017. I NEVER showed it before because it was an exclusive run. I really love this piece and I wanted to share it with you all! 

Thank you again for being amazing patrons! and I can't wait to show you what I have in store for October! Stay safe and wash your hands! <3 you guys help me achieve my goal...

Reaching for memories

Self Doubts are apart of Lili nightmares in which she can't control. It whispers the sadness in her ears as they reach to take her memories. Living in the moon kingdom they protect the queen of the Queen of the night/moon. A mind of their own they are lethal and will kill if need be. They are instructed by a unknown enemy who is will to take Lili down before she loses everything she worked hard for. 

No soul and no desire to live just the desire to take everything, Jasper isn't str...

I see you! (in different variations! please click for full view)

I have posted this on my social media but I thought you guys could see the high resolution version of this piece since I really love the process! 

Lets run away together!

I wanted to create this as a digital illustration but gave up half way ;_; so I consider this to be a complete fully colored sketch...I was enjoying the process but I BECAME LOST. haha another AU. Lili is running away ....again! and she needs Jasper to come with her....Jasper....doesnt understand why he gets drag into her adventures since he always will be the one to get in trouble.

Agni 2020 Hindu Mythology project

This is currently how Agni looks! very close to what I imagine him to be. He looks much older! please enjoy and yes all of my OC must have the hair fluff! 

Hindu Mythology project

So...I have this other project I'm creating or have been creating since 2016. It is a story about the reincarnation of Hindu god and goddess and their strive to protect their world yet be true to themselves. The main character is Agni the God of fire and sun. Agni understands his role as the fire god and isn't torn by his duties. Agni cares for those around him and loves his brother Indra. Not all God and Goddess reincarnates to those who use their powers for humanity. Many strive to be stron...

Lili face practice

I tried drawing Lili head in every angle, I think I did an ok job...not the best. I really just wanted to try...I do like the perspective but I can't seem to get her face to stay on model....back to the drawing board...

Sketchy Bunny

I completed this sketch and created a pin up bunny. I really enjoy the sketch and thought I should show you guys cause she so adorable! I have this big urge to always draw Lili in a Bunny costume. for....research purposes of course....>___>

A sketch I grew to like

I didn't like this sketch and never posted it in the last rewards but now I actually really like it. I decided to post it because why not! 

sketches

I really enjoyed the sketches in this one

Happy Family

OK THIS ISNT CANON. I LOVE to create AU stories! one of the Jasper is married to Lili and together they have a daughter name Isabelle. They're a happy family and love each other! In this AU the dream world isn't a dream but an actual reality. They grow up to love one another yet are torn by their social standings. Jasper is a guard and has no right to even be in the same room as her or even speak to her but as childhood friends he has some privileges that others don't haha. 

Now I ...

Lost in space

I like to think those who cuddle with Lili are surrounded by her hair. How lovely it would be to sleep next to someone who such hair. Again, I can't explain to much for spoiler reasons but their relationship ends in sadness. Leon is based on someone she knew and a memory that was locked away from her. Leon is the memory he understands what he truly means to her and what breaks their bonds. Maybe this is why he has a soft spot for her. Maybe he isn't willing to tell her the truth but is he abl...

Sadness

This piece is the opposite of the yellow one I drew a few rewards ago. I wanted to do one with Lili and Leon. ah, and of course Beebun and the yellow Beenbun. Leon has a huge role to play within the story yet I don't want to spoil it to much. He is the villain yet...his character so gray. He isn't real since he just a figment of her imagination. He is based of someone she once knew in reality but that to be discuss in the future. She cares deeply for him since he begins to try and help her. L...

Group of Outlaws

A group of outlaws searching for the truth. haha. not sure about that really. I really enjoy this piece, Especially since I haven't drawn Jasper in such a long time, my poor child ;0; I can't even choose a hairstyle for him. Beebun looks allot smaller here....why must he always be off model....ah......forgive me! if you notice I gave Jasper a black cloak because I couldn't draw his arm correctly....im rambling! please enjoy!

Into the Ocean (Click to Enlarge)

Lyrics are from the song Into the Ocean by Blue October.

I like to picture that in the beginning of the story Lili is lost in sort of Limbo. Lost within her own sadness she hears incoherent voices. These voices become louder and more clearer as she reaches for the light. Sadly each time she touches the light she awakens in her own dream. Lili believes whoever is calling her is calling her within a dream. The Subconscious mind knows she already in a dream state so whoever is calling for ...

Patreon rewards will be posted later this week or weekend

Hey everyone! Wanted to say I will be posting on Patreon this week or weekend. Life been crazy and I recently had a bad allergic reaction and it been hard to edit. The images themselves are done but I just need to edit them. Thanks for supporting me this month! Sorry for the delay

practicing comic panels 2

Jasper doesn't seem to happy but if lets be honest is he ever really happy?

practicing comic panels

I wonder what she is saying....

Eclipse

Eclipse is a huge character in the story, I don't talk about her much because she still in development. She has two forms one in her original human form and the other a bird something as a harpy. Her personalty varies but she is connected to the Queen of the Moon. She is Lili's self doubt, her reason of unwillingness to try or to move forward. Eclipse is often sad often misjudge but her love for Lili is strong. Again her character still under development but Im sure I can give more informatio...

How can emptiness be so heavy

Lili has two chaotic form one black and one white. The black universe seems to express sadness anger and sorrow while the white expresses nothing. I don't know what would make her turn into this form but when she does Lili is just a empty shell. She asks questions but isn't looking for answers. She isn't sad but she cries golden tears as she does in her other form. 

This scene does happen in the story so it is canon. Its when Lili is completely lost and emotionless. Jasper doesn't ...

golden hands practice comic panel

again inspiration of FMA Brotherhood. Jasper is willing to lose everything if he could just have her back. 

I've been practicing with comic panels, I REALLY want to make my project into a comic one day and for that to happen I need to practice practice and practice some more. I find making comics a bit nerve-wracking it didn't help when I had comic artists who I consider a friend tell me she doesn't believe I can be a comic artists and to just stick to what I'm good at. 

LAIR LAIR LAIR LAIR

I have a concept I'm working on in which Jasper is faced with Lili's truth, my inspiration comes from FMA Brotherhood in which the tiny black hands would reach outside of the gate of truth and grab Edward. I enjoy that idea because it feels even more disturbing and desperate when these tiny hands reach out and won't let you go and it gives that claustrophobic feel to it.

Jasper is facing Lili's truth, he should of never taken her memories from her, Now Lili is lost in silence a chaotic ...