When I'm depressed I tend to doodle a lot of characters in dresses and skirts.
Lately it's been Julien getting the treatment.
I'm not entirely sure why a character in a flowy skirt, standing in water, and looking kind of sad is something that just comes out of depressed me.
I also miss digital painting, it's very relaxing.
EDIT
Forgot to add another sketch that was part of the original SAI. file. :>
2018-08-01 04:04:21 +0000 UTC View Post
We're still recovering and rebuilding from the flood and it's exhausting.
I haven't had the chance to seriously draw at all, other than little doodles, and it's very frustrating, especially since I have clients patiently waiting for me.
Everyone in my family is reaching their breaking points with all this and anger and insults are flying practically every time we all get together.
Since my RV is here on the property I'm expected to do the most, I won't go into it all but these past, what, two weeks! Have been straining and so maddening but relaxing after everything is fixed isn't an option since we'll need to move everything back in.
I'm keeping it together as well as I can for my parent's benefit but two of my siblings have already pushed past my limit of keeping quiet and letting them belittle and insult me constantly.
I hope we all get through this in one piece.
I absolutely promise I'll get back to my work and drawing as regularly as I can!
I have some WIPs I don't think I ever got around to posting, that's something at least. ;w;
Thank you so much for your patience about all this! 🙏
2018-07-12 03:40:42 +0000 UTC View Post
My family, our pets, and I had to evacuate or home yesterday due to severe flooding. More then three feet of water devastated my parent's home, my RV only just above the water. The town did nothing, no help in getting my elderly, diabetic, has to use a feeding tube father out of their home. No assistance has been forthcoming at all, thankfully my parents do have flood insurance but it will take weeks or even months to clean and repair from the damage. We are all currently at my sister's home, it is still raining, later today we will go and check for further damage. I don't have access to my PC or home at the moment. We don't know how long it will be before we can go home. We're all doing the best we can to be hopeful, I honestly don't know what to do.
2018-06-21 15:00:09 +0000 UTC View Post
Yay to dads!
I spent the whole day with my family. :>
I actually started this ages ago with the intent of finishing it way before today but- life got in the way and I had to deal with a few major depressive episodes that kept me from drawing.
It's the worst! ;w;
I dunno man, I really love Uncle and I really want him to happy, sure he tried to kill a family member, but honestly, who hasn't? XD
Well, that's what AUs and the ability to draw/write is for!
Uncle adores all three of his kids, he may have really only fathered one but in his eyes all three are his, and when you think about it, by blood they kind of really are lol
Lilith and Persephone are pure daddy's girls and Justin admires his papi like no one's business! For the first couple of years Uncle isn't quite used to so much pure love and affection but eventually he can't live without it.
Julien is happy for his Uncle and mate. <3
I hope everyone had a great day with their dads and families!
Ooooh, what- did hell freeze over?? Did I just- finish a new page of Folksy Wisdom???
This has been sitting for a while waiting to be finished, I think it's over a year old?? Aaah, had to redo a bit of it since my drawing style has changed a bit since then.
Different gray rendering too, I know the older pages were too dark for some people, my laptop at the time made them appear lighter than they were.
After this the story and relationship start to pick up, not sure how long until the next page, hopefully not too long! I still have so much to catch up on. ;A;
I'm so out of practice with drawing comics, I pray for the days I can work on them more.
2018-06-12 04:55:32 +0000 UTC View Post
I made this video a while ago for a friend who couldn't watch All Hail King Julien, so I figured I would make a little 'best of' of the episode that sold me on the Uncle/Julien pairing.
I'm linking it from my Google Drive so I'm not sure how well it will work, so let me know. :>
Enjoy? X3
https://drive.google.com/file/d/1wxe1D3hnGAaY2MJGMGNGqB6SE1Q195i2/view?usp=sharing
I guess you could download it from my drive to watch it @3@
2018-06-12 04:45:19 +0000 UTC View Post
I forgot to post this along with the other sketches I had posted a while back.
It's a vent piece but not as self loathe-y as they have been in past years.
Starscream, like Julien, means a lot to me. With Julien I project a lot of what I positively want in life, real genuine love, wonderful family, dedicated partner, big home, all the good stuff.
With Starscream it's more of kinship, I know what it's like to believe in someone, to follow them through pain and torment out of love, dedication, approval, and to try and work so hard for them but to be treated like garbage. Like nothing.
But he's still a determined and strong character, he's been through a lot in so many iterations of himself but doesn't really give up. G1 and TFP are the Scream I relate to the most.
TFP actually helped me out during the last few years of the relationship and made me realize how poisoned I had been from the abuse I was suffering.
I was an underling, not an equal, he never cared for me but used me to do his dirty work without question, and for a long time I accepted that as my life, what else did I have? It's one of the main reasons why I support Starscream, as a concept, a character, needing support, not so much redemption in the form of changing sides or completely changing himself, but healing.
No one is perfect, no one is pure who has done no wrong ever, even on the smallest scale. I've been there, I was told to do something and I did it, I hurt people for him, I destroyed, I spread his hate, and what I don't think people realize is, in those kinds of situations, we convince ourselves that this is what we want, that we made these decisions on our own, to try and trick ourselves into believing we still have freedom of choice.
Ah, I'm rambling but- it's difficult.
I embrace and accept my inner Starscream but use his attributes for positivity and healing myself.
I also went full 'hey I can draw realistic kinda I went to college for a year' lol.
2018-05-23 00:37:00 +0000 UTC View Post
These are the most recent scans from my sketchbook!
A lot of AU stuff and a lot of Uncle/Julien but there is a little Kowalski/Julien sprinkled in. :>
All images will be uploaded at full size, I just want to mess with this image feature. X3
Zootopia-ish AU, where mammals/animals are the peoples!
Look, it's Justin! I need to work on him more before I finalize his design but there he is!
Raised by Julien and Uncle, still royalty, Lilith has no memory of Kowalski before he ran off with Doris, Persephone was born months after never knowing him. Not that it matters, all three kids are their parents miracles, spoiled and loved without question.
Having Uncle as their father, the girls are fierce and snide. They are better than everyone else and they know it!
Justin is still a timid thing, his sisters are sometimes a bit too much for even him but they never put him down or leave him out, they protect each other no matter what.
Julien and Uncle are happy, preferring to stay in Madagascar and their kingdom, which accepts them openly, they do sometimes make trips to America for work or UN meetings. lol
Uncle's first Valentine's day and he is not used to people genuinely loving him. Lilith and Persephone can melt any heart!
Getting into AU territory!
Uncle loves his girls, as far as he's concerned when Kowalski ran off and abandoned a perfect family for a hussy dolphin they became his.
A happy end to a sad AU.
Technically Kowalski/Julien? XD
How false God actual God Julien used an evil and abusive alternate Kowalski to make a confused handsome child lol
Uncle is 100% cinnamon roll in this AU, not a bad bone in his body. He loves his cold, murderous nephew and helps raise his feathered child without question.
Lilith and Persephone Steven Universe fusion!
No idea what to name her, I guess if I ever get the chance to color her then I can worry about her gem name.
I wanted multiples of everything and a big lady!
I hope you enjoyed all the sketches and my ramblings!
I always have some sort of story going on with everything I draw, it makes me happy. ;w;
I don't always have access to my PC, especially when I need to help my parents in their home, so sometimes I pull out my old laptop and even older tablet and doodle a little. :>
For the picture above, I had seen someone on tumblr draw a pic of a humanized Uncle and kid Julien interacting and I thought- this is wonderful, I love this, I must draw something, so I did!
It's disappointing how we didn't get to see much of Julien's childhood or interactions with Uncle. From what he's said he seems to have admired him and I think I prefer to go with that lol
The three-ish pages(?) that are attached below are from a comic I wanted to draw and post to my KoJu blog, explaining their separation and how Julien and Uncle decided to fall headlong into the relationship they used to have.
And I completely understand how people feel about incest, I totally get it, in reality it's not cool, at all. Fiction on the other hand is something that's created with control and understanding the difference between reality and fantasy.
I like the connection between these two characters but they happen to be related.
Lately I don't feel comfortable at all sharing my personal work on tumblr because of the mindset of the users. I've been online for years, in adult communities where I felt safe and accepted, best time of my life. Lately though, not so much.
Of course I'll continue to post to my Patreon and to a lesser extent my FA but tumblr might not see my Uncle/Julien art and what's attached to it.
2018-05-02 05:57:46 +0000 UTC View Post
I love Star VS the forces of evil and I think it was only an inevitability that I would draw something involving Julien and family.
I drew the kids first in my sketchbook and after drew and colored Uncle and Julien digitally. I wanted to give them tone and work with a regal color palette.
I'm still on my Uncle/Julien kick, I can only guess it's more fun for me since there is recent material I can indulge in while Kowalski/Julien is something that hasn't anything new.
Still like it but my mind is set on this for now.
I really love the multi-verse idea that SVTFOE has and how you can pretty much add whatever you want to it, so the long royal lineage of the Julien Kings it is!
In most of my recent AUs Uncle and Julien are married, Uncle taking on the title of king-consort and Julien keeping his position as king above his spouse. I went full royal inbreeding here, ha!
On to the kiddos!
Lilith is next in line to take over after Julien and it's a big deal, after 13 generations of kings she will be the first queen. Along with not being named Julienne, she breaks another tradition.
Great things are expected from her, she's a bit detached to it all but stays dedicated to her learning and what she must become. She has full support of her family and does find time to enjoy being a teenager.
Persephone is being trained to be leader of ringtailed guard.
She's extremely dedicated and loves her lot in life, even as a princess she earns her own respect and is looking forward to supporting her sister in the future.
Justin, first actual look at Justin and it's an AU for you guys!
The girls fully believe that their great Uncle is there father but Justin is the only full blooded offspring of the two.
Justin, along with regular royal training, accompanies Lilith with her own schooling in preparation to become her royal advisor. He's a bit timid but finds courage in his family. He's four years younger than Lilith, three years younger than Persephone.
I can't help myself. ;w;
2018-05-02 05:47:32 +0000 UTC View PostSorry for the delay!
I just finished scanning a ton of drawings and doodles and looking through my laptops for anything I have drawn that I haven't shared yet.
I did get sick a few days ago and am catching up on a lot of things!
-- Tsu
2018-05-02 05:25:01 +0000 UTC View Post
After a two week, plus a day or two, break, it's time for me to get back to commissions!
If we've spoken before and I've added you to my queue expect me to get in contact with you soon. I have a fairly long queue, so many people hit me up during my break, but I know I have one friend who's been waiting a long time and they're at the top if my list!
Look forward to some commissions, comics, and overall Tsu doodles!
Before I forget, I hope everyone had a fun Easter holiday!
My family doesn't do anything, no young kids to celebrate with, so I spent the day with some friends and broke my soda lent fast with a tasty root beer float!
From a little sleepy Tsu to you, stay safe and enjoy yourselves! ;>
2018-04-03 06:09:07 +0000 UTC View Post
First drawing during my little break and it's a character concept I've been wanting to draw for a long time, Julien XII and Julienne's mother!
I head-canon that Julien the Terrible's son is the father to Uncle and Julienne, only way I can explain Julienne's lighter/orange coloration, so the darker gray/charcoal colors come from their mother.
She's a distant descendant of the Julien King's bloodline, her ancestor generations before married off to the kingdom she hails from.
Her appearance is made to explain a few traits that could be passed down to Lilith and Persephone in the AU where Uncle claims them as his own children and is Prince-consort to his nephew.
She is a calm and thoughtful Queen, who doted on her children and showed no favoritism between them, she was her husband's sun and moon, and with her by his side he regained the trust and loyalty of his kingdom and subjects that his father had destroyed.
Unfortunately she passes away before her children reach puberty, resulting in a long depression that would haunt her husband until his last days and her children trying to drown their emotions in extremes. Her son dedicating himself wholly to his royal lessons and responsibilities along with his father and preparing for the future as predicated by Masikura's mystical prophecies and her daughter in partying and rejecting any and all royal duties, apart from her betrothal to Prince Barty, which she does to honor her mother, but nothing more.
If she had lived her children would be better well rounded, not controlling or emotionally distant, better parents and family.
Whew, if you read all that then thank you! ;w;
You'll notice I never mentioned her name, truth is I have no idea what to name her!
So if anyone has any ideas on what her name should be I would love to hear them!
Look forward to more character designs and, hopefully, comics too!
Folksy Wisdom has been waiting for me and I'm finally proud with the rewrites I did to further the story, here's to hoping I can get at least one page out of that!
Enjoy! <3
2018-03-22 08:13:50 +0000 UTC View Post
February was not a good mental health month and all I could manage to work on was digital painting practice.
I'm really hoping I can finish up the last of my commission work this month so I can take a bit of a break come April.
Until then thank you for your patience with me! ;w;
It's been a rough month and I'm hoping the coming of spring and a fresh month will help me with productivity! ;>
2018-03-01 17:28:18 +0000 UTC View Post
I couldn't sleep last night and decided I would distract myself with another themed pic idea; spring break!
I've never celebrated spring break in the traditional sense, I live near South Padre Island and for as long as I can remember we've had to deal with a hug influx of college party goers and death.
Both from drowning at the island and, for some reason, these people want to go to Mexico? So, as morbid as it is, one of the earliest games I remember playing with my friends and family is guessing how many people would die that year, yeesh.
Alcohol and ocean water don't mix people!
So I ended up talking to Danny and asking him what people even do for spring break, most I ever did was go to the zoo and even then it's crazy crowded with people.
We came up with beads, both agreeing that Julien would be the kind of person to get as many beads as humanly possible.
I threw Uncle in there because- I really wanted to draw him in swim trunks pulled way too high XD
I also realized after I sent him the sketch that I left Julien in a two piece but he either didn't notice or accepted Julien's choice of swim wear.
Aaaah I'm rambling lol
I want to say I'm going to digitally paint this the way I did the Valentine's pic, because it's fun, but I really should fight this executive dysfunction because I really need to get those commissions done. ;w;
2018-02-18 23:59:30 +0000 UTC View Post
I whipped this up in between commissions and self loathing procrastination lol
Aaah I really missed digital painting and I hadn't given it a try in SAI since I preferred OpenCanvas, but since the move I haven't been able to find my copy and so decided to try my hand at SAI painting.
Fiddled with some brushes and this was the result, something small and pink, because I love dat. :>
I hope everyone has a great day!
Remember that there isn't only one type of love, there's more to love than romance and we should celebrate it all!
Love and treat yourself!
I love all of you and hope today treats you like the cupcakes that you are! ;D
Alright!
First official public commissions of 2018 and they were a ton of fun to work on!
I got to draw a character I haven't yet and got to enjoy some skimpy outfit drawing and ideas from the client. :D
My next commissions will be private and are huge works, I'll do my best to post as much as I can in between working, I still have so many Valentine ideas and haven't gotten to do any of them. ;A;
Maybe I could still work on them even after the holiday passes, that would be okay right??
I hope you all enjoy! ;>
2018-02-08 00:29:09 +0000 UTC View Post
Aaaaah, this holiday season was very busy!
For the first time in about thirteen years I spent the whole holiday with my family and it was great!
I rushed to try and get a themed pic out, better late than never I guess considering it's now officially 2018, so we'll consider this the last pic of 2017 and hopefully the first pic of the year will be a good one! ;D
I hope everyone had a safe and fun holiday, we have so much to look forward to and I'm excited!
Thank you all so much for coming along with me on this new journey in my life, it means the world to me knowing I have support and friends in you all! <3<3
BTW my mom calls a puss a cookie or kitty, I figured cookie went better with the alliteration. XDD
Happy New Year and enjoy!
2018-01-02 02:50:47 +0000 UTC View Post
It's sort of funny to me that I've been working on an AU for a while where Kowalski leaves Julien for Doris and- once my own life followed a similar path I found the AU to be an even bigger outlet for my sadness and anger.
I don't have Julien suffer for long, thanks to the introduction of Uncle and his parents he has more support than he used to. Granted I have Uncle act a much bigger, emotional, and romantic part, sure Julien's parents try to help too but- they have absolutely no experience in raising children and I like the idea of Uncle and Julien coming back together over their own broken relationships.
Maurice looks awful lol.
For the life of me I couldn't remember how his marking went and winged it until I re-watched some episodes.
I plan to work on the concept a lot more, still debating whether I want to keep the AU as is like the shows, living as zoo animals or an AU within an AU like Zootopia, where they live like humans, clothes, cars, all that jazz.
I like drawing them in clothes and living lives lol
Anyway uhm, enjoy the sads. ;w;
2017-12-19 22:58:02 +0000 UTC View Post
What??
I can draw other things??
Ahaha, yes!
A very fun commission that I finished recently!
I hope you all enjoy it too!
2017-11-15 03:59:52 +0000 UTC View PostI spent all day watching horror movies and eating pizza, not my most memorable Halloween but there's always next year to do something fun and dress up. :>
I'm currently doing a ton of commission work along with every so often roughing out a comic I want to get done, so look forward to some posts!
Now to strap in and get ready for the holidays, my first time in over 12 years celebrating with my family. At the very least Moon is here with me, maybe this holiday season will be good, bring some good things.
Talk to you soon everyone! <3
-- Tsu
2017-11-01 15:03:30 +0000 UTC View Post
Sorry it took me so long to share a video or update, I've been keeping busy and helping my mom out with whatever she asks of me. :>
Quick little video to show off my bedroom (same bedroom I grew up in, it's also a storage room) and how Moon is handling it. I did have her stay with my ex under the agreement that he took care of her but- he wasn't and is spending all of his time out of the house and with his-- girlfriend. So I brought her with me and may be bringing his cat too if the situation over there keeps being as disgusting and unclean as it is.
It may be small and I sleep on a couch (the same couch I slept on in high school lol) but that's okay, I'm not broken up about the separation at all, he's someone else's giant man child problem now.
I hope you get a laugh, I'm so tired and lose it at one point over how much I love Transformers, and please ignore my hair, I need to shower. lol
2017-10-15 02:34:54 +0000 UTC View PostFor lack of content right now.
If you don't follow me outside of my Patreon I'm currently going through a separation with my husband.
Finding a place to live/stay, dealing with all emotional things has taken a drastic toll on my ability to work.
I'm doing the best I can to find a place to stay, which it's looking like will be my parents home. Once everything is settled I will do all I can to get back to drawing and all the good stuff.
Thank you for understanding!
2017-09-22 07:10:28 +0000 UTC View Post
I've recently fallen into the Lion King fandom and can't find a way out.
It started with a few fancomics and now I'm drowning in theories, comics, shows, fancanon, and everything in between!
But that's okay, my first love has always been cats and how can I resist big maned ones?
This is my first ever attempt at drawing any sort of lion at all, lol, aaah and I used no refs out of indifference.
For months I've wanted to draw my poor Breakdown as tribute to his little soul, I went as far as to look up what his name would be in Swahili and came back with Kuvunja.
I have three different patterns for him and couldn't decide which one I liked most, so I'm going to include them all.
Even the little story I have going still ends in his death but he makes a handsome lion and is still my precious little spark.
Up with the great kings in the stars, my little Kuvunja.
2017-09-01 12:24:23 +0000 UTC View Post
These are FULL RES images and there are a bit of them!
These were a blast to work on and I absolutely loved working with the client too, aaaah such fun!
We've got sketches, inks, full color, and alternate full colors! I went a little overboard but when I get to work with wonderful people like you all I can't help myself! ;w;
Full NSFW mode peeps, we got peens and poons out, akjhfjd if you couldn't tell by the image there ahahaha.
Another post coming your way after this but please enjoy and let me know what you think of them down in the comments, I will do my best to respond in time!
Enjoy!
2017-09-01 12:16:31 +0000 UTC View PostOfficially taking commissions again!
Letting my wonderful supporters know first before I publicly announce it so if there is interest in a commission you can be put right at the top of the list!
You can email me directly or contact me here on Patreon, looking forward to working for you!
-- Tsu ;>
2017-08-23 05:30:07 +0000 UTC View Post
After all the stress of this week I completely forgot Ducktales was premiering!
Shame on me!
I managed to snag a download and have been watching non-stop! Ah, it brings back so many great memories and all the easter eggs and upcoming drama the end hinted at, I can't wait until September!
Quick doodle to celebrate!
David is no Alan Young but he can be my Uncle Scrooge any time!
2017-08-13 08:15:23 +0000 UTC View Post
Makes you think you've forgotten how to draw!
I started sketching the next page of that comic, a name still escapes me but I'm having fun with it, and BOY, do not go tablet hopping!
At first I thought I was losing my touch but slowly I re-adjusted but in the process my young UKJ keeps fluctuating.
In a previous panel he kind of looked like a young lemur Jesus lololol
aaaaah I need to get to bed I only wanted to share this because it was funny to me, plan on streaming the comic page later today, barely inking it but for the first time in a long time I'm motivated to work on a comic and full color to boot!
Enjoy! :>
I'll make this public, the full page will be Patreon only when finished. @w@
2017-08-10 09:45:17 +0000 UTC View Post
People don't appreciate it when you keep sneaking into the privacy of their homes, bedrooms, and beds only to tell them you want to kill them.
I was never a fan of Karl and to be honest he hasn't grown on me, I do have friends who like him and do ship him with Julien and, of course, I do not be of the judgings and only want my friends to have fun.
This is for myself. lol
The whole thing was done on my old laptop, I had recently found a big drawing tablet while my husband and I were out thrifting and I absolutely love drawing with it!
Problems is it only works on Windows 8 or less, I did try to make it work with this PC and it does work, all except for the pen pressure, that's kind of really important ahaha.
Unfortunately, I learned that the manufactures have discontinued the brand and there is no Wins 10 driver update coming anytime soon, ah well.
First time ever drawing Karl, I used no reference because- dat's how I roll!
This was a ton of fun and meant only as vent work, hope you enjoy it! ;>
