Felix Elise

the night comes down like heaven

Less than three weeks.

PC: Elizabeth Blair Stephenson

REDO: Mononoke

I got the email with high resolution photos from my last shoot today. Shout out to my happy trail! (yall will know the picture when you see it lol)

PC: @jdpfilm

mononoke

I was waiting on the email with high resolution pics but got too impatient! Hopefully the quality of these is good enough. I'll upload the other photos when I get them, but for now I wanted to share these!

I had an absolute blast shooting this set. Jake was a super cool guy to get to know and he was kind enough to drive to my house. These pictures were taken on film in my backyard. I looove them! I definitely can't wait for the shoots I have coming up. I'm so ready to create again!

fae

I was so proud of my makeup that day! Love these photos.

PC: Timothy Landon Tritt

soft gothic

I really felt like a little fairy here, running around this church barefoot and cold. I actually really liked my makeup that day and got a ton of compliments on it at work. 

Part 1.

PC: timothy Landon Tritt

whole lotta ass shots

i did it. i quit my restaurant job. i quit my therpy job at the end of next month. ill be headed for japan march 16th. no amount of time can prepare me for this journey, i am scared shitless.

PC: Francisco Vazquez

priestess

This ruin totally reminded me of Shadow of Colossus.

PC: Allen Douglass

seasons change

November and December are always the most chaotic months for me. My Abuela had multiple strokes right before Thanksgiving, so my sisters and I had to make an emergency trip to Florida to go and see her. She's been bedridden for over a year now and it was pertinent that we go see her as soon as possible. While we were down there, my Abuelo pulled a gun on my Dad because of something that I said. There was alot of tension between Abuelo and my cousin Twinkie because she likes to hang out with h...

magic

PC: Brent Reno
Edits: Lilith Jenovax

con cuidado

PC: David Dodson

dressing/undressing: the yellow sweater

in all of my flawed skin glory. seriously hate the skin on my backside. this yellow sweater is cute tho

PC: David Dodson

punk rock tank top

I'm currently listening to soul meets body by death cab for cutie on repeat. im totally fine. anyways, i'll upload more later. thanks again for the continued support. shout out to brandon and noah for being so great<3 lol I SEE YALL

PC: David Dodson

four sizes too big

PC: David Dodson

white tank top

I'm really starting to dig this soft white aesthetic. When I first started modeling, I mostly did grungy, messy looks in harsh environments. Don't get me wrong, that shit's still my bread and butter.. but it's nice switching it up sometimes. 

These pictures were lightly edited for exposure and cropping. David is sending me most, if not all, of the pictures we took with a light edit on them. He's also going to send me a batch of his usual edits, which I usually get around 10-15 pict...

past versions of myself

I believe this was the first time I got to work with color gels. Circa 2017/2018ish

PC: David Dodson

past versions of myself

I cant believe I was so insecure about myself around the time these photos were taken (2017/2018?) I felt ugly, didn't like my body, felt bad about my hair. I look at these pictures now and wonder why? What was so wrong with me that I couldn't like myself back then? I would give anything to be able to go back in time and really appreciate myself and walk with more confidence. I do miss that figure.. but then I realize that I should be appreciating my current version just as much. I'm still me...

song of the south

I am so in love with the soft mood of this photo set. Bonus nip slip at the end xD <3

BTW, I'd really recommend yall to look through my photosets on a PC if you have one. The quality is MUCH better there than it is on a smartphone.

PC: Bethanie Hope Loudermilk/ mindsiobscure

sneaky peeky

I dont wanna relish in feeling too good for too long because something bad inadvertently ALWAYS happens, but I dont think im riding a manic high right now. I'm just really thankful that the people in my life went out of their way for me today to make me feel seen, appreciated, valued, and WANTED. I know that my friends love me, but sometimes it's hard for me to really believe it. I believe it today. I even believe that my acquaintances enjoy me enough to invite me out to do stuff with them co...

shield maiden

I adore the somber, gothic vibes here. It looks cold as fuck but these were actually taken on a very hot summer day last year

PC: Lilith Jenovax

edge of the world

I am so grateful to Lilith Jenovax for sending me more pictures to share with you guys. She even took the time to slap a preset on them, which I would've been more than content to just have some unedited pictures and she definitely didn't have to do any of this. If yall arent following her already, go check her out. She's an amazing artist that basically does everything

light in dark places

Feeling discouraged here lately. I've had a few canceled shoots in a row and it's a little defeating. I'm thankful to the photographers that reached out to me yesterday after I made my post on facebook. They reminded me that people do still want to work with me, but now I have to overcome the challenge of suddenly feeling too tired to care about lining up shoots again after the constant back and forth. I do care.. I just need to reset.

Huge shout out to Lilith Jenovax, David Dodson, Bri...

kicking off the spooky season

Brandon told me I should title this one "candle by my foot" o__________o lol, I'm just tired of the same ole' cliched names that I usually give, but I'm not that creative. Anyways, here is set one from the shoot I did in an abandoned old shed down the road from my apartment. An old house used to stand there as well, but they tore it down some time last year :( the yard is still nice and secluded from the road, so it would be good to use again for an outdoor shoot.

Side note, whoever liv...

Update

The photographer I worked with last week does animal rescue with his fiance, and the kitten theyre taking care of got really sick this past week. I wont get my edits back until Tuesday or Wesnesday as he's busy taking care of his animals. Sorry for the wait guys! Lets hope that the kitty gets better🖤

Throwback

Hey guys! Currently trying to line up shoots for this month and it's proving to be a bit challenging (availabilities and shiz). Who remembers this wacky shoot i did 4 years ago? I was a year into modeling at that point and JUST starting to feel more confident in myself. It was my first time shooting with wax, the one and only time I did cliché cheerleader. I love working with Aaron. He was one of the first people I ever shot with and the first photographer that taught me how to say no and NE...

e-thottin in the cemetery

PC: Jordan Aethelric

e-goofin'

This set is mostly me goofing around/freaking out about being caught. Totally unprofessional, but I hope yall like the candid, "Im actually a person" vibes.

PC: Jordan Aethelric

dare-devil

Middle of the day behind buildings on a Monday when people are walking around? Yeah, that was risky business. Button ups are PERFECT for quickly dressing and undressing.

PC: Jordan Aethelric

the square

Styled by Jordan's closet. These outfits felt like I could own them, so I think I'm gonna start shopping in the men's sections for real. I've never felt comfortable in women's clothes, and I think that's part of the reason why I'm unconfident with my wardrobe. The moment I put on a man's pants, shirts, etc., I feel a complete shift in my confidence. 

PC: Jordan Aethelric

im in a band

I got to run around the square in my hometown with my friend Jordan and be his first practice dummy for photographing human beings. He's been playing around with a camera for a few months now, taking shots of nature and buildings, but he wanted to photograph a person before he leaves for school in Japan. I think he did a great job! Naturally, I had to include the goofy pics too. There's a healthy mix of serious and sloppy, unprofessional me in the sets I'll be sharing.

I really love th...

Update

My shoot tomorrow got canceled due to rainy forecast and the distance of the location from me. The photographer felt more comfortable rescheduling than having me drive out in the weather.. im very thankful for photographers that value their models as people too. I will try to find something closer/an indoor location if anybody else is free to shoot.. i will keep yall updated!