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THOUGHTS.

I just really need to write this down.

I was watching this video I randomly clicked on Youtube titled How Fascination Leads to Your Authentic Self. What the artist said in this video maybe seems obvious, but it got me thinking. She had a few good points.

One statement she made - how do you get people to pay attention to what you're doing? By being fascinated by that thing first.

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I've really been exploring what inspires me these days.  After years spent being a designer, I think one of best skills is my "eye."  I'm good at seeing the small tweaks that can take an image to the next level.  And I think a lot of that comes in with styling.  I do sometimes style my friends for shoots, and I LOVE making them see themselves in a new way.  Like, something they just hadn't thought to try that takes things up a notch.  That being said, I also love...

A small world

I booked this gorgeous space to shoot on Peerspace, and when I walked in the door the host said - Hey I know you!  You're Erna!  Haha, turns out she's a model and photographer herself, and we have many friends and peers in common.  I love those moments in New York...the biggest and smallest city, all at the same time.

Almost ready to say goodbye to this year

I fell in love for the first time in 6 years.

I had foot surgery, without insurance.

I turned 35.

I started my own company.

I paid approximately 1 billion dollars in taxes (jk, but it felt like it).

I had a cervical cancer scare, and surgery.

I swam in the ocean a lot (for a person who lives in NYC anyways).

I was diagnosed with ADHD.

I came up with some cool ideas for projects in 2023.

I photographed many, many beautiful people.

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on film x anna del rey

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Once upon a time in Manhattan, a man ordered his usual lunch at the oyster bar in Grand Central station and bit down on something hard. It was a pearl valued at $4,000.

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I have so many ideas, but so much trouble getting them started...does anyone else struggle with this?  I think this "frozen" feeling is the primary symptom I experience with depression.  I started taking ADHD medicine which has helped a lot actually, but I hate to be so dependent on something like that. And while it helps, it's not a miracle either.

I had this conversation with a friend recently that made me realize something.  She asked me, what if I'm not special like y...

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Muses of Wintherthur

Digital and Film

One of my recent travels took me to Philadelphia, where I met this lovely crew organized by Lizabet Roberts.  We all packed in a car and drove to Winterthur, Delware and shot at this beautiful location.  It's a museum and gardens, however the interior was closed as they were putting up their Christmas decorations.  We shot outside for a few hours in the FREEZING cold haha.

All of these women are influencers of sort...Youtube, TikTok, costume design,...

Happy Thursday! + free OF link

Whether you're celebrating Stolen Land day in America (hey still a good excuse to see you're loved ones and enjoy traditions while recognizing the land you're sitting on!) or elsewhere in the world just enjoying the world cup on a Thursday, I hope your week was good and you get to have a relaxing weekend!

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old photos

My bedroom in my first apartment in new york. I thought i looked terrible in these photos at the time...

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Raw off the camera, but I think they look so cool!  Shot by Aaron Pegg aka @underground_nyc

I've been so busy lately, but lucky to be working so much.  Less time to get stuck in my own thoughts and ponder various existential crises. 

I've been 

-Doing packaging design and photo retouching for a denim company I used to design for

-Designing lingerie for a collaboration coming up (more details later)

-Filming...ahem, spicy stuff. But only when I...

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I really hate how Patreon won't show a thumbnail of the last video link I posted. But anyways, see below for a link to my Vimeo account with saucy videos and BTS content

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Soon Patreon will be rolling out native video features for post (currently only for premium and pro users?) So I won't have to use Vimeo anymore, which I find rather clunky.

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Part 2

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I've been watching too many historical lesbian dramas again...

PART 1

The rest of the story coming soon.  Photos by Alex Tarazano

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Sorry it's been a minute, I've been busy!  Getting back to shooting more lately and my schedule is filling up so fast.  I've also been watching a lot of art documentaries, reading, and going to exhibitions to get me inspired for what's next. I'm not giving up on myself creatively yet, I know I have some juice left in me still.  Ahem, speaking of...need a fresh link for the other place?

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Want is a drug

Want is a drug. The craving, the pursuit. The chase, the high. What happens when you get it? The hit doesn't last, you want more, or something else.

The brain in love acts like the brain on c0caine. That *feeling* cannot be sustained. So I suppose we are to sit in the spaces between hits, feel them in their stagnation, maybe even enjoy their stillness.

I want to want. I live for the pursuit.

But I no longer want anything.

I don't want money, I really j...

On Film

You know, I have so many stories...some crazy stories, funny ones, sexy or romantic ones.  Some are actually pretty boring but they are little moments that stick with me.  Do you like hearing about them?

Here's a story.  It's about my very first heartbreak.  

I was 12.  It was at summer band camp.  Yes...I know.  Let me explain! 

My parents are both music teachers, and my siblings and I grew up playing music.  Piano, trumpet, mell...

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This week was ROUGH.  Every day since this week I have felt worse post surgery 1 week out.  I guess it's normal that there is a delay in some of the recovery symptoms, as the first week was not as bad as I thought it might be.  But 7 days later, oh boy did things get rough.  And then rougher, and...

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Take me back to the start

I was in love once, long ago. It was tumultuous, passionate, toxic. If I had only known about attachment theory back then...him avoidant/dismissive, myself anxious/preoccupied.

He had a pattern. Infatuation and lust, then he would grow distant, I would question it and he would break it off. I would spend a couple months devasted and heartbroken, then just as I was starting to scrape myself back off the ground he would reappear. And apologize and profess his love again. I fell back in ev...

End of summer glow

Please enjoy this epic golden photo set by Langston Bowen.  I borrowed a friend's car and drove to Connecticut to shoot with him, our last shoot being last fall upstate in New York.  I love any excuse to get out of the city, and take my top off in nature.  Even more I love a hazy golden glow at the end of summer.  More sets from this day coming soon!

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So, for anyone curious...I had some biopsies done a few weeks ago to check for cervical cancer. The result was "high grade change" cells, which means that pre-cancerous cells were found and have to be removed. The procedure is called LEEP and it's basically a surgery to cut away affected parts of the cervix. That's ...

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As I mentioned before, I recently increased my OF subscription from $5 to $10 at the advice of a "friend." Well....I ended up losing more than half my subscribers, and more than half my income.

Then this friend used one of my work resources (after telling me they wouldn't), which also eats into my income drastically.

Overall I feel...betrayed. Disappointed. Hurt.  Is this a sign to retire?  I just spend the...