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clear light of the void

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eyes that know

the polish man

has eyes that Know

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i made this with intention, says he

handing me the coffee cup

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his eyes that know

hold me in the shape

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sometimes i am ruled

by chaos, i say

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i look into him

deeply, for he knows

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“watch. do not become.

you are the center,”

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reach into your rib cage

“if you just put your hand through your ribcage and feel your heart….. there is a tenderness. it is sore and soft. and it hurts.


and you want to spill your heart and relate with the others. it is very raw also.


how much of the particular attempt to expose yourself has been repelled because you might discover something terrible? it takes immense courage to let that raw exposed organ be touched.”

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who is there?

Dreaming, dreaming, sleeping, awakening

Rhythms of darkness and light.

Day and night, night and day, wondering...

... Who am I? Who AM I?

Who is morphing through this

Ever-shifting flow?

Beloved, wake up!

Dance in your true body before time, Shimmering energy without end.

— [Radiance Sutras] —

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she, the blade

i cut my hair

with nail scissors

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let the hip bones

come together

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magnetically

or like scissors

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focus

on the tailbone

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the root

(the door)

/

focus

on anything

/

where you are

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what else is there?

i am the moon

flowing swift

from the crown

*

i go away

i come

back

*

in this leaving

and coming

what else is there?

*

i am the sun

consumer

of the moon’s nectar

*

who am i?

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autumn again .

mirror

mirror

Friend

move slowly


to go deeper

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welcome, october

everything about time

here in this space

was a gift from God


it came

at the perfect time

then it went

away and returned

just like a great lover

and now we part ways


welcome,

october


a teacher once said

just sit there

and love yourself

tha...

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what are heaven and hell?

“Heaven and hell - what are they?

You carry heaven and hell with you.

Your desire, anger, etc, produce these regions.

They are like dreams.”

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full moon in pisces

sit there

and love yourself

one who can be trusted

with the mind

can be trusted

with the world

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light of light

some not seen outtakes from the session i posted this morning. also want to share a quote that my yoga teacher read in class this morning, which penetrated me deeply. perhaps it will resonate with you, as well. if it does, please share in the comments…

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“Do you love Me?" Alice asked.

"No, I don't love you!" replied the White Rabbit.

Alice frowned and clasped her hands together as she did whenever she felt hurt.

"See?" ...

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in the end

“In the end, a dandelion needs no reason to blossom, even though a thousand other flowers are already blooming. A child needs no rationale to sing, even though a thousand other songs have already been sung. I need no rationale to [create] other than to declare that I love . . . and wish to do so.”

—Ken Liu

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thank you to the waters

knowing

Knowing

rising

with the sun

to the mountains


in the mind vehicle

vehicle of the mind

or, the mind


breathe down

into the hips


be receptive

to God’s grace

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down to the bone

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in the garden

parivrtta surya yantrasana: “molding the body into a tool of guidance” .. self portraits .. goodbye, august,

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surrender

this series of images

reminds me of surrender

surrender? what is that?

to you? it is so simple


and so tricky. it is

the exhale, the pain,

the bliss, the being

‘now that i’m free

to be myself

who am i?’

i allow a friend

to practice tying

me with ropes

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‘some time, the dreamers finally wake up’

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behind the veil; full moon

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i might need

to free


myself

again


and again


hear now

here now

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peacock, mayurasana

i remember this posture wouldn’t unlock. one teacher told me that it correlates to “the lightness of one’s past”. i felt ashamed and thought my past must be pretty heavy. one day, later on, the asana emerged, under the guidance of another Teacher. i floated and gasped. this time there were no stories. she actually said it doesn’t matter. now it is one of my favorites. it was a narrative that was made up about the past. and i believed it. maybe that’s why i felt so heavy. chicken o...

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momenta

the ones that didn’t make it to instagram. these are special.

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love is

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i carried my own ashes to the mountains

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‘ceremony at dawn’

the chorus of cicadas

the emerald insect corpse

the gaping flora

and yearning vines

climbing towards light

/

a slender, dark-

haired girl — burning

mugwort on the porch

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she lays down

on robins-egg-blue

wood; warming womb

with herbs

/

listening

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growing up

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mirror, flame, self, altar

what a gift

to have the space

to go inside

/

radical

audacious

play

/

to rest

to rest

/

thank you

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groundless ground

who are you

in this moment?

i have no idea

there is no ground

/

there is ground —

the pelvic floor

there is no ground

You, a feather

/

there is ground

the body and blood

there is no ground

you are falling, falling

/

there is ground

practice, lift yourself up

there is no ground

what a relief!

/

there is ground

it is the Mother

groundless ground ...

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the body as a laboratory of what you are trying to find

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in bliss; see? no time

in the middle

of the mountain

I am

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in the belly

the cave

the womb

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terrible

Mother

who births

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everything

There

nothing

*

Grandmother

a midwife

to this

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ancient darkness

I labor

now i moan

*

now I am

nearly consumed

not quite

*

i growl

i pray

to Jesus

*

We give birth

to our shad...

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full moon - guru purnima

home

in the body

home

in the body

home inside

/

even if it is

dark, very dark

that is good

do not turn away

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what fear

has been conquered?

can fear be

conquered?

/

perhaps

transmuted

(is fear love?)

contracted bliss

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over the years,

how have you changed?

nothing is the same

as when we began

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now this breath

now th...

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