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~September 2024 AMA~

Hi folks! It's time once again for you to leave your questions for this month's AMA!

If you're new and don't know how this works, it's quite easy! At the beginning of every month, I make a post where you can leave any question (or questions if you have more than one) you'd like to ask me in the comments of that post, and at the end of the month I will create an audio answering those questions!

So go ahead and leave any questions down below, and please don't worry about asking questions that I've answered before, I know not everyone has the time to go back through and listen to all of them!

I look forward to your questions!

~August 2024 AMA~

So sorry for the late audio! As I explain in the audio, I've been highly stressed and also unmedicated for the past two weeks due to a medicine shortage, so I've been a little scatterbrained recently, thank you all for understanding, also thank you for your questions!

~The Hobbit: Thorin X Listener SFW: Resting~ {Patreon Exclusive}

Thorin knows a thing or two about the concept of pushing oneself too far.....and he doesn't want to see it happen to you.

Contains: Comfort, Advice, Mental Health Talk

Honestly, in canon Thorin could use this talk, but we're also taking liberty with canon because canon Thorin is also, you know, dead, so yeah. Magically fairy wand Thorin truly learning his lesson and you get what's below lol. I hope those of you who are struggling with the concept of rest—true rest—find relief soon, and know that you are allowed to struggle, even if the struggles of the rest of the world seem far more grand than your own. You will find your way, just give yourself grace and do it in your own time.


~Audio Transcript Below~


Thorin: I know it seems as though there is no light at the end of the tunnel.....that all of the trials and tribulations that you have struggled through have been for not....... but it is not true.....

You are convinced that there is not enough strength in yourself.....that you could be doing--nay--should be doing more.....because you look upon the world outside the sphere of your own influence and see the terrors and the horrible realities others have to face and think that what troubles you is nothing.....

I....understand the sentiment......but you cannot mine from a vein that is empty......

*pause*

If a vein of metal or minerals has no clear signs of giving more ore......why would it make sense to continue digging, searching, scrounging and compromise the structural integrity of the mine?

*pause*

It doesn't make sense....does it?

*pause*

So why--may I ask--are you treating yourself the same way?

*long pause*

Yes....there have been and will be more times in the future where you must weather the storm.....where you cannot take the time to rest.......

But remember......debts must be repaid......and that includes debts of the body and mind......

*pause*

You as well as anyone know that there was a period of time in my life where things were…….difficult for me…..to say the least……

I was......a stubborn arse.....to put it lightly.....

I was so entrenched in my own need for....things to work out....I was willing to do.....and almost did anything for them to come true......to the point where I almost lost my life and the lives of my kin to greed.......

*pause*

But it took me finally finally realizing that my people.....my kin.....you.....were only trying to get me to see through my own bullheadedness......through my own madness.....

Though you are not fighting to reclaim your homeland.....or fighting in what seems like an impossible war.....it does not mean that you have to continue to treat yourself as though you are......or that you have no room to be vulnerable.....you do not have to pretend.....

Keeping it all inside is not the way to do it....I understand now......

And I understand how it is so much easier to say to ones that you care for....than to yourself.....

*pause*

What I mean is.....this turmoil will not end for you if you continue to bottle things up and advance forward like a farmer ignoring that the soil of the field has already been plowed and seeded and used to the point where it cannot give anything else forth.

*pause*

*scoffs lightly*

I'm being philosophical.....allow me the metaphors......

*pause*

Farmers sometimes burn their fields, give certain areas a rest, to allow them to regrow.....to enrich the soil.......

*pause*

Now I'm not saying that you should set yourself on fire......but resting--and I mean 'true' resting--will not hurt you....

*pause*

Do you not remember what I was like after all of the fighting had finally ended....when the dust settled and we were victorious?

I tried to continue on....to push through because there was so much work to still be done......

But my kin.....my friends--including you--refused to let me.

*pause*

And you have a wounded mind and soul currently......so what is the difference?

*long pause*

*chuckles ruefully*

I suppose this could be called an intervention.....

You are not a one person war machine.....you are not condemned to face this world alone....not if I have any say in it.....

Without those who cared for me guiding me, and sticking with me when times were rough......my journey....my goals would not have succeeded......

*deep inhale and exhale*

And I would not be here.......

*pause*

So please.....allow yourself the care that you give to others......perhaps treat yourself how you would treat others once.....instead of the other way around.....

*pause*

I would not be able to live with myself if I allowed one of the people I care about waste away simply because everything on the outside 'seemed fine'. I have learned that those are usually the people who struggle the most......because they do not wish for others to feel the way that they have or currently feel.

*pause*

You are more than worth the effort.......

If it takes the remainder of my life to prove it to you….that you are worth more than what you do and put into the world.....then so be it......

*pause*

*hushed*

But please do not think for one moment that this world is better off without you.....

*pause*

*hushes*

I know.....let it out......and anyone who says that you aren't doing enough, or that you have it easy or are lazy? They're going to have to get through me first......

*lowly*

It is not a weakness to ask for help......and you are not alone.....

~Grace Kelly Progressive Harmonies~

I'm a little nervous to post this to be honest because like, most of the time you all hear me sing is from my bloopers, but I've always wanted to try to replicate that Ryan Reynolds and Will Farrell TikTok where they use progressive harmonies to sing the chorus of Grace Kelly by Mika, and so in a spur of the moment burst of inspiration, I tried it! I also know that a lot of people like my singing voice, and while this isn't perfect, I'm actually kind of proud of how it sounds! I hope you all like it! (ps I can't get my falsetto like Will Farrell's so I just sang it an octave lower lol)

~Clean It Up (Boss X Maid Roleplay) NSFW~ {Patreon Exclusive}

If you're going to be working here, you might as well be useful.

Contains: Sexual Roleplay, Unbalanced Power Dynamics, Light CNC, Voyeurism Kink, Exhibitionism Kink, Heavy Humiliation/Degradation, Implied Public Sex, Heavy Dirty Talk, Talking Down To, Name Calling (use of 'Slut", 'Whore', 'Stupid', 'Dumb'), Light Spit, Bukkake, Humping

WELL, it's been a while, but here we are! This is something that just kind of came out of me, because I was trying to think about scenarios/fantasies I haven't gone into too much depth with before, and I know that there is a big demographic of people who enjoy the idea of a scenario like this, so I went with it! I hope those of you who listen will enjoy! 💚

NOTE: This audio contains a roleplay scenario where it is not explicitly stated within the audio to be a roleplay. The audio is focused on the scene itself in an attempt to make the fantasy more realistic. If that could potentially be triggering to you, please read the script below, or avoid listening to this audio

~Audio Transcript Below~

-door knocks-

Come in.....

-pause-

Ah yes, the maid......I'll be working here for a few hours yet, but you may begin with dusting the bookshelf and the mantlepiece. Once those are finished, you may continue with anything else that won't disrupt my work. Do you understand?

-hums-

Very good, now go on.....

And....try not to make too much noise, I have important calculations that need to be made and I cannot risk any inaccuracies.....

-long pause-

-sighs-

Do you need something?

-pause-

You're not as subtle as you think.....I can feel you repeatedly sneaking looks at me.....so spit it out......

-pause-

Or you can shut your mouth and do your job and stop distracting me from my own.....

-pause-

-under breath- That's what I thought.....

-long pause-

-frustrated sigh-

Do you honestly need that much direction? You can't figure out anything else to clean silently? You need me to tell you what to do?

-pause-

Fine, come here then. 

-pause-

Closer.

-pause-

There is one thing I can think of that needs to be cleaned......

My shoes.

-pause-

Do I look like I'm joking?

-pause-

Oh no.....I'm not going to take them off.....

-pause-

kneel.....

-long pause-

Your two choices are to kneel, or to leave and never come back.......I know how much you need this job....so I suggest that you start kneeling......

-pause-

There.....was that so hard?

Spread your knees.....

-pause-

There....

-long pause-

Are you going to do as I've told you? Or continue staring at me like, gawping like a fish.

-pause-

-sighs-

I have to do everything around here......put my foot on your lap.....

-pause-

Yes....like that.....

Now.....

-spits harshly-

-lowly- clean my shoes......

-pause-

-chuckles lowly-

Haven't you ever heard of a spit shine?

-pause-

Don't make me tell you a third time....

Good.....

-pause-

Oh no, I'm going to watch.......I need to make sure you're doing it right.......take your time......make them sparkle......

-long pause-

I have a hunch as to why you kept sneaking glances at me.....and keep sneaking glances even though I'm looking right at you.....

You're not stupid....I'm aware of that......however, neither am I.....

It's almost as if you wanted me to order you around....you're intrigued by me.......I wonder to what degree......

Do I anger you? Do I disgust you? Are you jealous of me?

-pause-

Or perhaps......the only reason you're here, kneeling with my foot between your legs, shining my shoes with my saliva and not storming out of the door......is because you like me.....and you like this.

-chuckles darkly-

-pause-

No? 

-shifts-

And what was that noise?

-chuckles darkly-

You can't hide from me......I've got you right where I want you......

-growls-

Now clean.....I want you to be able to see your face in it before you switch to the other one.....

-pause-

No.....clean it like this.....with it pressed in between your legs....right against your core.....

-chuckles-

You know.....if anyone were to come in here....they'd see you like this......the door isn't locked......it would be so easy......

Just like you......

Don't think I can't feel the shifting of your hips.....the little humps....you may not be stupid.....but a little attention in the right way and your mind leaks out between your legs, doesn't it? 

-pause-

There's no use denying it.....I can see it plain with my eyes......your breathing......the heat radiating off of you......plus....you've been cleaning the exact same spot for the past few minutes......

-growls- Focus up, you're still doing a job......

-chuckles-

Even me pressing tightly against your crotch has you shuddering......I wonder if you're a little pain slut along with being an attention whore......

-pause-

Why deny it? You keep trying to, and yet even throughout your embarrassment and shame, you still can't control some of the movements of your hips.....and you just keep sneaking glances up at me, as if waiting for more.....

You've gone a little dumb, haven't you? Need more direction.....

Well.....-sighs- I suppose I needed a break anyways.....

-belt buckle and zipper clinking-

No no....this isn't for you.....keep your eyes on your work......

Make sure that you get in all the little crevices....I want them spotless......

-pause with soft beathing, moaning, and wet noises-

You're just made for following directions aren't you.....

-chuckles- Ha. ...."made" (maid). 

When under your own devices you flounder.....second guessing yourself.....unsure of what to do next.....and while it took a moment for your silly little pride to get out of the way.....once you started following directions....you have focus....drive......

I wonder if it's because you're embarrassed and want to get this over with quickly....

-moans softly-

Or is it because you love being told what to do......love not having to think for yourself......all you have to do is go a little dumb and do as you’re told...…

-pause-

-laughs-

I knew it……all it took was the right words, and you give up your hand.

You’re a little voyeur and a little humiliation slut, aren’t you?

-growls softly-

Say it.

-chuckles darkly-

Good little maid…..

-soft moans and pants-

It’s almost precious seeing you go from focused to a little glassy eyed….falling into pleasure…..only for you to remember exactly what it is you’re doing, and what exactly is happening here…..you twitch as if you’ve been burned…..but then the realization makes you all the more embarrassed and horny…..

Like a vicious cycle, you can’t handle it…..and it’s so fucking delicious…..

-hums-

What’s this? Starting to leak through your uniform are you? Even though I can’t exactly feel it through my shoe…..the friction is getting smoother……and I can see it….a little dark patch forming between your legs…..

-moans-

I wonder…..what it would do to you, if I were to cum all over your face, and order you to walk out of here with it still dripping from your cheeks?

-chuckles through a moan-

I bet you would run to the bathroom, your cheeks burning, trying desperately not to be seen, cum all over your face and an obvious patch of wetness over your crotch…..you’d push the door open, hurrying to try to wash it of, but then you’d catch your eye in the mirror, and you’d have to look…..

-lowly-

And oh….when you do…..I bet you’d be so embarrassed and horny you’d almost fall to your knees….you’d have to brace yourself on the sink top……

You’d just have to touch yourself, wouldn’t you?

-through pants and moans-

I wonder though, would you touch yourself over your clothes? Make the wet spot already that much worse? Or would you open them? Get yourself out in the open just enough so that you can finally use your hands? I bet you’d be so far gone, leaning to get a closer look at yourself in the mirror.….eager and easy and stupid while you look at your cum covered face, your hand furiously working in between your legs.…not even caring that anyone could come in and see you….see you furiously masturbating while you stare at yourself….oblivious to anything but the pleasure….

But the idea of that gets you off, doesn’t it? The idea of being so stupid in pleasure that you don’t notice someone walking in, someone seeing you be so goddamn embarrassing...…maybe they’d walk in just as you reach up to wipe off some of my cum with your finger…..but instead of washing it off…..you use your tongue to lick it off, replaying this very moment over and over in your head as you touch yourself to orgasm……you’d be so loud too I bet….wouldn’t be able to help it…..maybe you wouldn’t even care…..maybe you’d want someone to come looking……maybe then, they’ll fuck you while you’re still covered in another man’s cum--because you’re that much of a dumb humiliation slut--

-chuckles through a moaning growl-

That’s it---yes---cum like the eager whore you are---fuck…..can’t even help it…..came humping my shoe because of a little dirty talk……

groans

Fuck……look at me…..

-panting-

Let’s make that fantasy a reality, shall we?

-groans-

Ah fuck….take it…..f-fuck

-harsh moaning-

That’s right…..take my seed all over your fucking face…..

-panting-

-panting slows-

Good…..very good…...you may have a future here yet……

All pretty and stupid with cum all over your face…..

-pause-

-hums- 

Well.....it looks as though you've made a mess of my shoe.....

-pause-

Clean it up......

-clicks tongue- ah-ah!

With your tongue.......

-chuckles darkly- You are a maid....after all......

~August 2024 Bloopers~

Is it truly a blooper reel without me losing my mind for multiple reasons?

~August 2024 AMA~

Hello everyone, a new month has come which means it's time for another AMA post! In case you're new and don't know, at the beginning of each month, I give you all--my Patrons--the opportunity to ask me any question (or questions) that are on your mind, and at the end of the month I will release a recording of me answering them all! Don't worry too much if you think it's a question I might have answered before, I don't mind answering them again, because I understand that not everyone has listened to all 58 of the AMAs that I've done before lol.

Anyways, go ahead and leave any questions you'd like answered in the comments below! 💚

~July 2024 AMA~

No everyone your eyes do not deceive you, this is the AMA for July. I apologize that it's late, but I'm happy I got it finished regardless. My office and recording booth are literally sweatboxes and life just keeps being hard, but I'm gonna keep on trucking! Thank you all as always for your questions! 💚 

~Sims 4: Rags to Riches Speedbuild~

Everything I touch the Sims must inevitably destroy, apparently

~July 2024 Bloopers~

Behind the scenes and bloopers really make me see that the ADHD is strong and sometimes it's me going slowly insane in between the actual acting parts.🤣

~Tired SFW~

A lot of us are tired, and sometimes you just need to do something to get through it.

Contains: Comfort, Advice, Talks Of Mental Health and Burnout

One of the hardest things for me (especially within the past year or so) is the fear that what I make isn't going to be good enough, because my mental health hasn't been great, which my brain tries to convince me means that what I make now will never be as good as what I made before the burnout and that nothing will ever be that good again, so I get paralyzed, but I just wanted to make something, so I decided to make an audio to talk through my feelings, and also to potentially help at least one person out there who may feel similarly to how I do.

~Audio Transcript Below~

I'm tired......you're probably tired too.....

We're all tired.....through a combination of things--most of which we do not have control over--we have all just become....tired...

Sure, it's deeper than that.....it's more terrifying and soul rending than that.....but it just easier to tell people that you're tired rather than you're falling apart.....that you don't feel like the person that you once were.....that you fear that nothing is going to allow you to go back to where you were.....where you want to be......

A fall from grace it what it feels like.......but then again I've always had a flair for dramatics......

-pause-

If you just work harder, try harder, plan better, then things will work out.....just a little bit more......it always feels like you have to give just a little bit more......

But you can't pour from an empty cup......I've learned that the hard way.......but you can't help but look back at what you used to be able to do, how you used to be......

And now.....when days are blending to weeks to months to years and you feel no more progression than when you first started to try 'fixing' yourself.....you can't help but feel like you've lost.....as if there was a game to win in the first place......

It's ....phenomenal really....that the brain and the body can be so smart and so infuriatingly stupid at the same time......

And that's not self deprecation that's......well.....it's trauma....and burn out and.......well....like I said.....an entire well of other things that would be more tiring to explain. So it's just easier to say, "tired".

A part of your mind constantly screams at you that if you don't do something.....if you don't create something......that you're going to be forgotten.....and you're going to be left behind......and well....you won't be able to pick yourself back up again......

It's frustrating......especially because the body is smarter than the brain usually in these situations......even though the brain is part of the body, wouldn't you know it?

It always amazes me that if you don't stop, if you don't rest......intentionally rest......that the body has this wonderful ability to make the stupid stop.......

It happened to me.......I thought it had happened before but this......this is far different than anything I've felt before.......

I've been working on myself......therapy....medication......but it almost feel like you're getting worse instead of better......and that's the thing.......it feels that way because you're starting from square one.

What I was doing before.....The amount I was working on and creating and doing? It was too much, even if I was having a good time doing it.......enjoyment doesn't negate that what I was doing was unhealthy......and now......I'm relearning how to do it all over again.....except this time I'm trying to make myself and my mental health the priority.....and it might seem obvious....but it wasn't to me for a long time.....that if I don't make myself the priority.....then who will? And if I work myself to the literal bone.....there won't be any of me left to keep going....

-pause-

I've been afraid.....that this isn't going to work out.....that I can't create anymore and that the things I do create aren't any good....aren't up to mine or.....anyone else's standards.....it almost feels like I've lost that spark....

And I hate that for me.....and well.....I didn't mean for this to be about me but.....-s igh-

I don't want anyone else to feel what I feel right now......and I am in the.....incredibly privileged position to do what I do.....but I'm not letting anybody down taking care of myself as much as I can......people still want to see me succeed.......

And.....I want that for you too.....whoever you are out there listening to this.....I want you to succeed......but you won't if you don't let yourself rest.....if you don't try to heal.......and I know---trust me I know--that it's easier said than done.....but it's worth trying.....however small those steps are or however long it takes.....

It's said that burnout can take a very long time to recover from......and the more severe.....the longer it could take......and really the only way that you can navigate it....is to be kind to yourself....to take your time.....especially when it comes to creation.....

No....not everything is going to be perfect......but that's only because perfect doesn't exist......done is better than perfect.....

Artists and entertainers and the like are always our own harshest critics......we see or hear things that no one else would know if we didn't point it out......

We're paralyzed by the fear of being or doing wrong, or it not turning out the way we'd hoped......when in reality......perfection just prevents us from doing anything......

I guess that's why I made this.....because I don't want to lose the things that I love doing simply because I'm afraid.....

There's something that I saw recently that really resonated with me.....

I'm a worrier at heart.......trauma and anxiety abounds in this brain of mine....so I worry about pretty much everything......

But I saw....that those who worry about a bad outcome always suffer.......even if it ends up well.....

It goes like this: If you worry about something bad happening or it not turning out your way and it actually does end up going well....you suffered for nothing.....and if you worry and it does turn out poorly......you've suffered twice......

That's not to say that not worrying at all is the way to go....just.....dwelling on it is.....I have a hard time dwelling on things.....cyclical thinking......but sometimes you just gotta put a stick in the spokes of your overthinking wheel and stop it dead in it's tracks.

I don't want to suffer unnecessarily anymore.....and sure....I might not ever get back to where I was....but it's an unrealistic ideal anyways....because I got there in an unhealthy way.....I wanna do it better......even if it means that I'm not as 'successful'.....

Yeah, I'm scared......but....the time is gonna pass anyways.....so I might as well do it scared.....

This, what you're listening to is by no means perfect......but it's real....and it's done.....and it's out in the world.....and I'm happy to have put it there.....especially if it means that at least one person benefits from it.....however that may be.....

Music: Ethereal Landscapes by Universefield

Via the Free Music Archive (CC BY-SA 4.0)

July 2024 AMA

Hey everyone! So sorry I completely didn't notice that I hadn't made an AMA post for this month!

A quick rundown for those who don't know what an AMA is:

If you have any questions you'd like answered from me (it can be pretty much anything, just be respectful), you can place them in the comments down below, and at the end of the month I will record an audio where I answer all of them!

Don't worry too much about asking questions that might have already been asked before, I don't mind answering them again! You can also ask more than one! (but please like, no more than like four or five lol)

Thanks so much everyone and I look forward to your questions! 💚

Addendum to the Previous Post!

As I went to make some changes to the tier lists as I explained in my last post, I actually found out that Patreon has recently implemented the ability for creators to change prices of our tiers when there are members who are still a part of that tier! This is how it should work for those on the $7 Tier (soon to be $3 tier):

Once I've changed the price, you will get an email letting you know about the changes:

"Hello [Member name],

The price of your recurring subscription to [Tier Name] from [Creator Name] was recently changed to [$Y new price]. Just like any independent business, creators may adjust prices to account for increased costs or other changed circumstances.

What this means for you

Your upcoming renewal on [Member’s Next Charge Date] will be at the previous price of [$X old price]. Your renewals starting on [Member’s Subsequent Next Charge Date] will be at the new price of [$Y new price], unless you cancel before that date here. Otherwise, your monthly subscription will continue renewing automatically and you’ll be notified in advance of any further price changes.
You can review the benefits included with your membership here.

Thank you for subscribing to [Creator Name] and supporting their creativity on Patreon!

Patreon"

For existing members on that tier, the price change will take effect one month (31 days) after the day I change the price (July 31st). That means monthly members will have one more monthly renewal at the old price before the new price takes effect.

• For example, if you change your price on September 3, and your existing member's renewal is on September 5, they still pay the old price on September 5th (since it’s within the 31-day Price Lock Period), and on October 5, they'll pay the new updated price

Since this is the only way that I can now change prices, if you are on the $7 tier and would like to avoid the extra charge, you will unfortunately have to cancel your subscription and then re-sign up at the new $3 price, as for new Patrons they will immediately get the new price.

I apologize for all of this behind the scene nonsense and jargon. If you have any questions, please don't hesitate to ask, and thanks again for understanding!

Ch-Ch-Ch Changes~

Ok, don't panic, the title is that because I was trying to be different and clever instead of always having something that says, "Update" lol.

I've gotten quite a few new Patrons in the past month, and I just wanted to also let you all know that I've come to a more concrete decision of what I want to do when it comes to my Patreon for the foreseeable future.

Long story short, still working on burnout and creativity and being kind to myself and allowing myself to rest, and I'm going to be changing the tiers a bit again to better reflect what I want to try to do moving forward. Sorry for the short notice, but these changes are going to be happening starting July 1st PST:

• $1 Tier: Little to no changes will be made to this tier. You will still get access to high quality downloads of all of my publicly released audios, as well as access to the AMA (ask me anything) where you can ask me a question (or two) and at the end of the month I will make an audio of me answering them all!

• $3 Tier: This is what the $7 tier is going to become! I want to simplify options for everyone, without the cost being too incredibly expensive. This is a tier where you would like to support me slightly more than the $1 tier, but here is where I will be putting other things I've created that aren't audios, outside of bloopers. There is no set amount of what I will be posting or when during the month, but it's a place to help me with my creativity so I'm still creating things if I get burnt out/have a hard time with Executive Dysfunction

• $20 Tier: This is going to become the "audio" tier. I know in the past I've promised 2 SFW and 2 NSFW audios each month, but for the foreseeable future that's going to be changed. My goal is to at least create 3 audios per month here. I will be working on the backlog of audios I have and hopefully working through them and releasing them here along with new audios.

Other Changes:

• I know for the longest time (since the creation of this Patreon really) I've had polls that allow Patrons to vote on themes as well as characters, and again, for the foreseeable future, those polls were no longer be in effect. This is to help lift the weight off of my burn out and Executive Dysfunction when it comes to feeling like I need to stay within the boundaries of those parameters, if that makes sense.

• Because the tiers need to be changed before the new month turns over again, and because there's only one way to change the price of a tier (you can only do it if there is no one subscribed to that tier, which is stupid imho) what I'm going to have to do is remove the $7 tier entirely and create the new $3 tier. What that means if you're on the $7 tier currently: You will be removed as a Patron, and once the new $3 tier is set up, you will have to re-sign up to one of the Tiers. I apologize profusely if you are a new Patron within the last week or so, but this is literally the only way that I can do it according to Patreon. I'm going to be doing this Tonight, Sunday June 30th so that it can go into effect tomorrow morning (July 1st for me).

• This also means I'm going to have to change the tags for all SFW audios. This is going to take some time, but I will also be keeping all the current SFW audios available for $3 and above, and any future SFW audios are going to be posted on the new $20 Tier unless they are a public audio.

I genuinely greatly appreciate you all, and I can't thank you enough for sticking with me as I navigate how Patreon is going to work from now on. I also want to say thank you to the new Patrons for joining and also for their patience going forward! All of this is being done so that I can continue creating audios and things for you all to enjoy and not burn myself out, and also so that I can continue doing this for as long as I can! I'm really trying to remember that a lot (if not most/all) are here because they enjoy me and the things that I create, and I don't have to worry so much about making my stuff seem "worth it".

I'm excited for what the future holds, and I hope that you all enjoy what comes next!💚💚

~Daddy X Listener SFW: Get Up and Go~

I know it's hard to get up Sweetheart, but Daddy will encourage you.

Contains: Daddy Character, Implied Age-Play, Non Sexualized Age-Play, Non Sexual Praise, Established Relationship, Encouragement, Advice, Comfort, Petnames (Angel, Little One, Sweetheart)

An old commission for my Daddy character to help and encourage you to get up and face the day. Whether you’re actually heading off to school or not, I think that the words of encouragement work for anyone, so I hope you all enjoy!

~Audio Transcript Below~

Daddy:-multiple kisses-

-sings- It’s time to get up, it’s time to get goin', gonna see a friend of mine~

-chuckles-

Hello my sweet little Angel. Good Morning. There's that lovely little face, and that lovely little smile.

-pause-

And how are you feeling this morning?

-pause-

I know, I know, the last thing my Little One wants to do it to get up from your snuggly little nest and go out into the world and be a big grown up, but Daddy’s here to help you.

You are so incredibly smart Angel, that I know that you’re going to do great with your lessons today. I’ve seen it with my own eyes, and I know, that you’re brilliant.

Come on then, stand on up, stretch high to the sky, get the blood pumping through you, and wake up. The world is calling you, and you should head that call.

You can do it today, I know that you can. You’ve got so many smarts and so much potential in you, that I know that you can take the day, and make it your own.

And, if even after all my encouragements, and you trying your best, that you find that your day isn’t going the way that you want it to or the way that you planned it, just remember…-kiss- I’ll be here, waiting for you when you come home. I’ll have arms wide open, ready to give you as many hugs and kisses and anything else that you might need, my precious little thing.

I know that you think that it’s not worth it to even get out of bed, but it really is. Even if you do end up having not such a great day, or forbid, even a terrible day, it will be one more day with me, and one more day on Planet Earth. We’re alive, you and I, and we’re here, together, and you’re going to go out there and live your life and do amazing in your lessons, and grow closer and closer to your goal. Today is a learning experience, whether or not that learning really comes from your classes. It might sound cliche, but humans really do learn something new every day, and maybe it might not be of some mega cosmic importance, these things that we learn, but they’re still important, because they help us evolve, help us become…..more well rounded and….better people. That’s what you’re going out there to do.

-kiss-

You’re so brave, and I believe in you.

-pause-

It’s alright to be scared. Did you know, that bravery and courage does not mean a lack of fear. It’s doing things in spite of that fear, that truly marks someone as brave or courageous. Like I said, even if the day doesn’t turn out how you’d like, you’ll never know unless you try, and the fact that you have the strength and the will and the means to go and be and exist in this great world of ours is incredible. I believe in you, I will say that as many times as it takes for you to believe it yourself. You are an incredible person, and I just know, that you’re going to do great things today. If you take it one step at a time, you will be amazed at how many steps you’ve traveled by the end. So go out there, and do great things. I have every faith in you that you will. And when the time comes for you to come back here and be with me, I will hold you and cuddle you, or whatever you want, and you can tell me all about it, good or bad.

I look forward to it Sweetheart.

So go. And remember, Daddy loves you, and he believes in you.

~Detroit Become Human: RK900 X M!Listener NSFW: Own You~

Nines is jealous, and he's not afraid to show it

Contains: Jealousy, Dom! Nines, Trans Masc Listener, Possessive Degradation (use of slut, whore, bitch, stupid, dumb, toy and pet), Feminine words used for Genitals (pussy, clit/clitty, cunt, lips,), Praise Kink, Daddy Kink, Rough/Hard Sex, Pussy Spanking, Edging, Orgasm Control, Petnames (Good Boy, Baby Boy, Little Boy, Sweet Pea), Safeword (Mentioned not used), Light Aftercare

Another commission! It was fun this time to use my Connor voice but a little deeper and meaner, and to play around with this idea! Yes, this was made with a transmasc listener in mind, but I hope you all enjoy regardless! Also, please be sure to read the content warnings and the script below, since there are some heavier kinks here!

 (Also I know it's Connor in the thumbnail please leave me be I didn't want to draw different thumbnail art lol)

~Audio Transcript Below~

Connor: Yes, I think that will work if you try it. Anyways, I need to get back to Lieutenant Anderson, good luck Detective!

-pause-

Nines: -lowly- Would you care to elaborate on what that was about?

-pause-

Mmmhm......

-pause-

A casual conversation.....so you say.......

-pause-

Detective, would it be disruptive if I were to ask for you to accompany me to the evidence room? I have a case that I wish to discuss with you, and I believe you will understand more if you see the evidence with your own eyes.

-pause-

After you.......

-quiet walking-

-door shuts-

Detective......

-door audibly locks-

There is no case......then again....I suppose I shouldn't have expected more from you......another reminder perhaps.....

-pause-

From my perspective, it seems as though you need a reminder as to who you belong to, Detective......or should I say......my stupid little slut?

-long pause-

Yes I'm doing this here.......I believe it is important that you don't go another minute without that reminder.

-pause-

You may be annoyed with my Detective......but you seem to have forgotten, as you always do....that I can hear your heartbeat......hear how much it's elevated already......and I can see the heat traveling to your cheeks........you may think you can hide behind your words.....but your body shows me everything.....

I bet you're even starting to get wet.

-pause-

'How do I figure?'

Well....-soft scoff- You're a dumb whore for me that way, Detective......

-pause-

So why don't you stop trying to put up this pathetic little front that you aren't absolutely addicted to the way I treat you.....and be a good little boy.....and undress for me.....

-long pause-

Either you say the safeword, or you undress.....there are no other options......

-pause-

-hums- Good boy.......

-pause-

Keep your eyes on mine.....I want to see everything.......

You belong to me.....so it only makes sense that I want to see every aspect of your reactions to me treating you like a pet, a plaything.......

-pause-

So....undress.......

-shuffling-

Good boy......

Now.....hoist yourself up onto the table there........and spread your legs.....

I want to see my pussy......

-pause-

-Chuckles softly- Of course you're into this.......

You're my good pet......my good plaything......following orders......

Once you get into the right mindset, you go all doe-eyed and stupid for me......because you're my little slut.....and sluts don't have to do any thinking do they?

All they have to do....is listen to their betters, yes?

-pause- And that's right.....do as they're told......

My good boy......

Now you sit there while I take you in.....keep your legs spread....

-slow, careful walking-

-soft chuckle- I can see from here how much you're trembling.....how desperate you already are for me to start touching you.......I can see you getting more aroused.....I can practically taste your arousal in the air.....

Your pussy is going to start dripping at this rate.......

-walking stops-

-small smack-

I didn't say you could touch me, did I?

-pause-

-sighs softly-

I suppose I'll have to restrain your hands, since you're too cock dumb to remember. It's a good thing I'm a patient Android, and I'm willing to correct you when you're wrong. Aren't I nice for doing that?

-shuffling-

-lowly- I'm going to take your hands, and press them behind your back. I'm going to arch your body towards me......and then, I'm going to start gently.....rubbing your cunt.....starting with your fat little clit here.......

-hums- That's right.......

And I'm going to rub this slutty cunt, make it sopping wet......

I'll bring you so close to orgasm.....and when you're close.....I'm going to spank it, as another reminder. 

Your pussy is always so fucking naughty, isn't it? Practically dripping wet and I've hardly even done anything.

-pause-

-lowly- But if you cum without my permission, you won't be allowed to cum again until I say that you can.....and it will be an awfully long time, my little whore....I can guarantee that......

-wet noises-

That's it.....squirm in my grasp....pant and whine and moan and try not to act like this is making your mind drift away and your cunt soaking......

You better not cum.......and if you're about to, you better tell me......

Understand?

-hums- Good slut......

-faster wet noises-

Close aren't you? 

I can feel it in your heartbeat.....I can hear it in your breath.......ride that edge.....ride it......

Spanking now.....

-light slaps-

You hold it.......I know you like a little pain with your pleasure, so you better not cum from me spanking your horny cunt......you hear how wet it is, even as I spank it?

-slaps stop-

Oh.....such a good boy.....you held it for so long.....

Take a moment to breathe......because we're going to do it again......

-chuckles- That's right.....and you're going to let me, aren't you?

And why is that?

That's right.......because this? This is all mine......

-fast wet noises-

I don't want you to get too far from the edge, Little Boy.....how else will I be able to see how much you need me to treat you like a plaything? 

Did you know that the closer to orgasm you are, the more shameless you get? You couldn't care about anything else in the world, other than me fondling this cunt and reminding you that I own you......

That's right.....more.....more.....thrust your hips into my hand because you just can't stand it.....you need it.....this dripping little whore pussy needs to cum.......

-spank- Naughty pussy!

-spank- You don't get to cum until I tell you. Your orgasm -spank- just like everything else -spank- belongs to me.

-quick spanks-

-hums into a kiss-

Good boy.....my perfect slut held it back.......

-hums-

I just love rubbing your slick across you.....even with light touches you can just hear how wet you are.......

Hm? What's that?

-pause-

Daddy? Well.......

I suppose Daddy will have to keep showing you, won't he? Since you begged so nicely.....

-shuffling- Lay back on the table.....put your arms above your head. 

-pause-

-chuckles- Oh no.....I don't get fully naked for toys.....my cock is all I'm going to need......

Daddy is going to pin you down and wreck you.......

-groans-

Oh.....feel how slick you are as I rub my cock between your lips....over your plump clitty....

You keep looking into my eyes. I want the image of me above you, owning your little whore cunt, coming deep inside you and marking you as mine, burned into the inside of your eyelids. So that every time you close your eyes you remember how much I own you.

-hums-

-quick thrusts-

-wet noises-

Stupid sloppy bitch cunt......you honestly get off so hard on me treating you like a little plaything, don't you Baby Boy? Like nothing more than a wanton whore who loved getting his pussy absolutely wrecked. You love belonging to me, you love this, don't you? Tell Daddy how much you love this.

-panting and moaning-

Oh....that's right....Good boy.....Good boy......Oh......your cunt feels so good.....squeezing around my cock like you want to milk the cum right out of me......

-groans-

Beg me.....beg me to cum inside you then send you right back to work where all of the other Androids....where Connor can smell me on you and recognize that you are mine!

-moaning and panting-

That's right, beg for Daddy's cum in your cunt!

-panting-

Watch me, watch me as I mark you as mine, as I cum deep inside this hot little pussy that belongs to me

-harsh groaning and panting-

Beg me......beg me to own you.....give yourself over to me.....give me everything......hold nothing back.....moan.....scream.....let everyone in the station know what I'm doing to you....and how much you love it.

-Moaning and groaning-

Who owns this pussy...? Who owns this cunt....? Tell me.....tell Daddy what you are.......

-pause-

-harsh groan-

That's right, his little pet slut......his little cock and cum obsessed whore.....and don't you fucking forget it!

-panting-

That's right....I'm close......you've been such a good little slut for me......so when you feel me fill you with my cum.....I want you to orgasm.....and not a moment before.....you understand?

-Growls- Yes~!

-Harsh crescendoing pants-

Yes.....yes......yes.....! Going to--going to cum in you.....going to breed you.....going to fill you with so much cum so deep inside you.....that it will never cum all the way out.....I'm going to mark you inside so that you always know what you are.....and who you belong to......

Fuck--Fuck--!

-Growls harshly-

C-cum!

-under his breath, through gritted teeth- Mine, mine, mine~!

-harsh panting-

-panting slows-

-pause-

Well....as much as I hate to admit......Connor and I are not that dissimilar......

-soft kiss-

You.....truly belong to me?

-huffs into another soft kiss-

Allow me to clean you up and help you with your clothes.....it's the....least that I can do after you gave yourself to me.....

-soft shuffling-

You want me to hold you?

Yes....of course, Detective.......

-shuffling-

Like this?

-pause- 

-soft sigh-

-mutters- Thank you.....Sweet Pea.......

~Marvel: Loki X Listener SFW: More Than Anything~

Again. He's done it again. Tricked you into loving, into mourning.....and yet.....

Contains: Reunions, Confessions, Apologies, Kissing, Petnames (Darling, My Dear)

Another lovely commission from the past! I really liked making this one because Loki getting to make bad jokes but also come to the listener with hat in hand after his shenanigans is a fun dynamic! This audio takes place after Infinity War and the shit that goes down with him afterwards, it isn't explicitly stated, just to help you visualize the vague timeline that I have for certain audios lol. I hope you all enjoy!

~Audio Transcript Below~

Loki: By Odin's ravens.....

-pause-

Hello, Darling.....

Even after all this time....I didn't think seeing you again would....invoke such a.....strong reaction in me......

I thought that I had distanced myself enough from the situation to—

-slap-

-hisses in pain-

Ah!

-soft panting-

Well....I suppose I did deserve that, didn't I?

To be perfectly honest,Darling…..I'm rather surprised you didn't do worse....

-slap-

-grunts-

Alright, yes.....I deserved that as well.....

-pause-

Oh….but even so wreathed in anger you look—

-gasps into a kiss-

-pulls away panting-

Well....I can't exactly say that I was expecting that........

-pause-

It is me……I am real……no tricks……I swear……

-long pause-

I.....I know, my Dear.....it has been.....quite a long time for you.....

-pause-

The rumors of my death......as has been the case before......have been greatly exaggerated.....

-long pause-

-hushed-

Forgive me......humor wasn't quite the right way to respond to that......

A clever trick......my most clever trick, if I'm to be honest....

-long pause-

Are you truly interested in the details, my Dear? 

-pause-

I know....I know you never thought you'd see me again.....

For all intents and purposes.....I was intent to keep it that way......

-pause-

I had to be sure....that Thanos was going to be stopped....permanently......everything had to go according to plan……you know as well as I that there was only one chance to be rid of him for good…….

If I had revealed myself too soon......well.....things would not have worked out the way that they have.....

-pause-

-soft huff-

Oh…..how I forget sometimes that you....are mortal.....

Almost six years is truly a long time for you.....isn't it?

-pause-

No.....I didn't come here to beg for forgiveness.......I've already told myself that I don't deserve that.....

Whatever my reasonings are......it wasn't fair to us.....

Wasn't fair to you......

I've come to.....apologize.....

But I suppose in true form I'm not here to apologize for the way I went about it.....

I'm here to apologize for what it did to you. 

It wasn’t something that I took into much consideration at the time.....

And I honestly didn't think you would be there to witness it.....

-shaky sigh-

No......I suppose one would become intimately familiar with that sound in one's nightmares......

And I know that it offers you no comfort to know that it needed to be as real as possible…..

So.....I apologize.....for changing you.....and not for the better.....

-long pause-

I swear that this isn’t a dream, my Dear......I don't believe even your mind would be that cruel.....

-pause-

-sighs-

You're right......I don't know how cruel it's been......

-long pause-

Truth be told, Darling......I've been.....watching you for......a few months......

I thought that perhaps I could...check on you.....see that you've moved on without me.....and I could do so as well.....give myself reassurance that what I did was the right thing to do……

But no......

I couldn't leave you as you are.......

I couldn't go on allowing you to believe that I was truly gone.....

-pause-

-chuckles wryly-

I suppose my moniker of a liar remains true then......

I wanted you back as much as you wanted me back.....

-slap-

-weak sigh-

I don't suppose I am intimately aware of how much you did......I....apologize for the assumption.

-pause-

Apologies are all I have now.....

I don't believe I can offer anything else that you would be interested in.

-pause-

I still don't expect you to forgive me......not after.....everything......

-hushed- But I cannot lie to myself any more than you when I say that there is a part of me that ardently hopes you will.....

And though that part is small......well.....hope makes fools of many.....

-pause-

And heroes of others......

-long pause-

No.....aside from those who were in on the plan.....you are the only one who I've told......

-pause-

No one you know, I assure you......

You needed to be the first one.....it could be no one else, Darling.....

-chuckles wryly-

I don't believe I have the right to call you that anymore, do I?

By Odin.....this all seemed....quite easier in my head.....

-pause-

No....you rejected me outright.....and I simply.....left......

That was the way that made the most sense……the easiest……but we’ve never done anything easily have we?

-pause-

-huffs softly-

If my life has taught me anything.....it’s that I'm particularly talented at leaving.....

And for the most part.....I believe it's cost me far more than it's gained me......

-long pause-

Of course.....of course I still love you......

I never stopped....how could I?

You are....the most magnificent......-huffs a sigh-

I could spend hours expounding on your greatness with pretty words.....however I believe that.....it's not what you want to hear.....

It’s not what you need to hear…..

I love you.......I love you more than I have ever loved another being.....on this world or any other......and my selfishness and secrecy and....tendency to lie and to take matters into my own hands without.....conferring with the people it could affect the most......

-harsh sigh-

My worst traits, truly.....spelled out in the way that I treated you.....

From the bottom of my heart....I am sorry.....

And to be entirely truthful......I do hope that you can find it in your heart to forgive a foolish god such as I.......

-hushed-

And I hope that includes......taking me back.....

-pause-

-chuckles wryly- I am selfish.....that has not changed….and I cannot argue it either.....

-long pause-

You never stopped loving me?

-shaky inhale and exhale-

That is......

-huffs a laugh- My famous silver tongue cannot form the adequate words to tell you just how it makes me feel.....

I daresay it almost makes me love you more......

That even through all of my faults, my conniving, my.....everything.....you never stopped loving me......

From you? It means the world......

More than the world......it means more than all of the nine realms put together.....

That you hold that love with me in your heart.....and held it there even when all hope seemed lost?

-pause-

You truly are one of the strongest beings I have ever had the fortune to meet......

It's a miracle that we exist together at this same point in time.....that we got to meet one another......got to know one another.......

And fall in love.....

-pause-

-chuckles softly- Yes, and be in love....

Because we still are.....aren't we?

-pause-

I understand.....love and forgiveness are two entirely different things.....and I don't expect you for one moment to give me an answer on whether or not you grant me said forgiveness.......I don't want you to rush into it either......after all this time that's one of the last things I want.....

And if we......must start from square one again.....so that you can rebuild your trust in me......then I accept that......

I accept everything that you could possibly wish or not wish of me.......

But know that whatever you decide.....it will not stop me from loving you......

That I'm afraid....is set in stone.....

-pause-

From what I've gathered.....much of the life on Midgard have had many instances where they've had to start anew in recent years......would it not make sense for you and I to.....do the same?

-pause-

Your fountain of willingness to go along with my madness is another thing I adore about you......

We're a dangerous pair you and I......

I believe we'll continue to be so....however this pair shall end up.....

-pause-

Thank you.....

-pause-

For loving me.....for having just enough trust in me to try again.....

I cannot tell you how much it means to me.....

-pause-

And if I may be selfish one more time?

-chuckles-

At least one more time in these moments……

-pause-

May I have one more kiss? I have desperately missed the feel of your lips against my own.....

-soft kiss-

-pause-

I love you too....

To the ends of every realm and back…..

-long pause-

-chuckles- I suppose the time has indeed come for me to reveal myself to the others again.....

Oh, by Odin's beard......I can only imagine what Thor is going to do this time.....

-sighs- Let's just say that he has been....well....he's been through this more than once......

I expect he might actually try to kill me outright this time.....

-pause-

A joke.......again...perhaps not a very well timed joke.....but the fact that you would try to stop him from doing so at the cost of your own life?

-chuckles-

What did I possibly do to deserve you?

-pause-

And if I have to spend the rest of your life proving that I do......I will do it......

Because you are worth it.....to me.....

You are worth more than everything.......

🏳️‍🌈~Happy June 1st and Happy Pride!~🏳️‍🌈

First of all, Happy Pride Month everyone! As a local card carrying Queer person, I hope all of you have a good one whether you are a member of the alphabet mafia or not!

I'm back from my trip and I had a wonderful time, and while I do think that the trip has helped my mental health, it's very obvious to all of you that I'm still struggling, and I don't want to leave my supporters in the lurch anymore.

It's no surprise that this model of doing Patreon (that's stayed relatively the same for the most part) is no longer viable to me. My therapist agreed that I am—and have been—severely burnt out, and so I've made some decisions about what I'm going to do to not only set myself up for success, but also keep making audios and other things for you.

I often forget that—even after all this time—a large handful of my supporters are truly here to support me. They do enjoy the things that I put out, but the bottom line is that it's me that's kind of the selling point? My skills, my personality, the things I create; there are a large group of you that will support me no matter what I do, and that's been really hard for me to accept? It's bad imposter syndrome I think, and a mixture of other things, but the bottom line is that I need to make some decisions and some changes that benefit me, so that I can keep up with this for years to come.

Now please don't panic! I know that sounds like I'm going to pop off into the ether again, but from the help of friends and other concerned community members, we have come up with a plan that I am far more confident in than I have been in the past. I want to kind of break it down for you and explain some of the reasoning behind these decisions so you all know what to expect in the future. I've always tried to do my best to be honest on here, because you all deserve it.

Starting off, I want to reassure you that I will not be leaving you without any new audios this month. I will be taking old commissions that I haven't shared before and posting them. I need to realize that some content is better than no content at all.

✨If you would like to kind of skip over my explanations and reasoning, scroll down to the divider down below and get the TL;DR.✨

One of the biggest struggles I've been having is with creativity and freedom and fear. With burnout, it's a struggle to do anything creative, less alone be constrained to a box by outside forces. It's why I've been so behind with audios. From the beginning I've wanted my Patrons to have a 'say' in what's being created. When I first started out, I wanted my Patreon to seem "worth it" for the price, so I implemented the theme polls as well as the character polls. Nearly 5 years later and these mostly innocuous decisions have become rather crippling. So for the foreseeable future, I will be removing those from my creative process. Being allowed to make any kind of audio I want being any character I want I believe will help me so I don't feel pressured to make something specific.

In congruence with that, I have found that I do feel constrained by only making audios of characters that are from previously established media. I know I've done a few "non character" audios in the past, but I find myself yearning a lot more for creative freedom, and so I've also decided that while I will still be making audios of the characters that you know and love me for, I am also going to shift and allow myself to create more audios where there is no specific character that I'm portraying. More of a "boyfriend" or "partner" audio than anything, including NSFW. Again, I feel that this will give me more freedom of creative expression and give me more room to help with the burnout.

I also want to allow myself to make audios that are varying in length. Again, from the beginning I've been constantly struck with the idea that I need to make my Patreon "worth it" for Patrons, so the more time has gone on, the more complex and long some of the audios have become, especially the NSFW ones. I know you all appreciate the effort, but at the trajectory I was going, it wasn't going to end well. I want to be able to create audios of varying length, with different scenarios, and not feel guilty doing it.

Going off of that, I also miss making different types of audios for you all. I know that a while back I removed my let's plays and my audio book readings from my Patreon, just because they were taking up so much of my time and people weren't as invested, and once again, I was putting "rules" on myself to make them long so again, my Patreon seemed worth it (see some of the stupid things my brain makes up lol).

So what does that mean for you all, the Patrons? Well, it's not happening this month, but I will start making efforts of changing my Patreon tiers and what they entail, as well as making a wider variety of content. The vision that I've come up with—with help of course—is turning more towards multi-media instead of just audios. The audios will still be there and will be more of the main focus, however.

I want to be able to have other avenues of creation and share them when I'm struggling with audio creation, because again, some content is better than nothing. This has led to the decision of doing some changes—that once again wont be implemented immediately—in the tiers once again. Less extreme specificity, and more relaxed.

✨This is how I would like to break it down:✨

          $1—Mostly the same: Access to high quality downloads of archived audios as well as the AMA and access to the Discord server.

          $3—New: This tier I want to have as a "I would like to support you with a little more than a dollar" tier, where I would give access to the multi-media style content that I would like to create. This tier however will not have strict rules as to what or when I am posting, but this is for those Patrons who want to support me, but do not want to/cannot afford the higher tier. As an idea of possible multimedia content in the future include but aren't limited to:

                    🟡 Easy 30 sec to 1 min audios that are like wake up alarms or
                             encouragements/advice.

                    🟡 Speedpaint videos, possibly sometimes a speedpaint of thumbnail art for Patreon

                    🟡 Shorter Let's Play Episodes: Think Animal Crossing, Stardew Valley, The Sims.
                             Perhaps even bigger/longer games if/when I am up to it.

                    🟡 Poem Readings

                    🟡 Some of my Photography if there are those interested

                    🟡 Fiction writing, fanfic or otherwise

I don't want to call this tier necessarily "filler", but I want it to be more of the place for me to be able to still create if I'm struggling creating one certain type of media. You'll also still get access to everything the $1 tier has.

         $20—Mostly the same: I will be getting rid of the $7 SFW tier, and will just be combining them and the NSFW audios as well as the bloopers to make an "audio" tier. I will also be removing the very strict "two of SFW and two of NSFW" structure of the past because again, it was made when I was trying to make everything seem "worth it". I want to try for at least three audios a month, where at least one is NSFW. Those on this tier will also have all of the access of the previous tiers. 

I know this is a lot of change, and again, I want to strongly reiterate that it's not all happening immediately, and I cannot thank you all enough for your continued support as I figure myself and the trajectory of this Patreon out. You truly have made me realize that a lot of you support me because you like me and what I create, and you've actually given me the bravery and confidence to even make these changes in the first place.

And I know that there are those of you who are here for certain benefits and certain characters, and if these changes are making you second guess being a Patron of mine, I fully understand. I just want you guys to know that I'm not going to forget about you regardless. A lot is happening and changing and it's probably going to take some time to get things figured out, but I always want to remind people that they are under no obligation to support me no matter how long or how short you have been, and that I still am so thankful for your support.

The backlog of audios that I have will continue to be worked on, but I don't want to make any more empty promises when it comes to when they're coming out. The scripts are already all written, so I think it will be a waste to not finish them, but I again, I'm not going to promise when they'll be released. Thank you for understanding.

I also will be finishing outstanding commissions I have first and foremost, so those of you who are waiting on a commission I have not forgot about you, and once again I apologize for the waits some of you have had.

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✨TL;DR for those who don't want to read my novel lol: ✨

Changes are happening, but they're all in the spirit of being able to make more content for you all, not less, and also allow me more creative freedom so that I do not become even more burnt out. If you do not want to stay due to the changes, there is no obligation, and once again thank you to all of those who have continually kept me afloat with your support.

I want to get back to interacting with you all more again. I can't promise anything huge, but burnout has an unfortunate side effect of withdrawing socially, and I would like to get out of that and remember how much Patrons and fans really do like me and not just the things I put out.

You have all been amazing, and it's because of you that I get to do this as my job, and I seriously cannot thank you all enough. Mental health and work/life balance is a continuous struggle for a neurodivergent person like myself, and I'm trying to get better at the idea of change and evolution. Thank you for letting me do this, and I am feeling more confident in this than I have in a long while.

Once again I hope you all have a Happy Pride Month, and please be kind to yourselves! 💚

~DC: Jason Todd X Listener NSFW : Breaking Down~

Sometimes tough guys need to be taken down a peg to be taken out of their head, and Jason is no exception.

Contains: Bottom! Jason, Grinding, Handjob, Blowjob, Dirty Talk, Begging, Brat Taming, Body Worship, Rope Bondage (tying wrists), Orgasm Control, Edging, Fingering, Petnames (Babe, Baby)

Hi! I'm alive I promise! Things have been difficult for me to say the least, but I wanted you all to have an audio from me to let you know that I am still working on things and that I am ok! There are gonna be a post explaining what's going on tomorrow, but for now, please enjoy this commission! From my audios, you probably guess that I'm more of a Marvel than a DC fan, but I do love the Batfam, and this commission was very fun! It's fun to play cocky boys who get knocked down a peg! I hope you all enjoy and as always thank you for the support!

~Audio Transcript Below~



Jason: I swear to God, if I get one more gun in my face today I'm actually gonna lose it........

-pause-

Hey Babe........ -soft kiss-

Naw, it's no big deal......just......tired......lots of dumbass criminals tonight.....

You know, it'd be one thing if they were actually clever.....but this? -scoffs- Lotta assholes who think they have power just because they've got a gun in their hand.......

-pause-

I'm different, I don't use my guns to shoot innocent people.......

Anyways….enough about my bullshit......how was your day?

-pause-

You've been waiting for me to get back.....why?

-pause-

-sighs-

Look, Babe.....you know that normally at any given time I would love to take you for a ride, but I might have to take a raincheck on that.....I'm really fucking tired.......

-pause-

I’m sorry, what?

-pause-

Oh, you think you can take me for a ride?

You can't even lift me, Sweetheart, how do you think you're gonna do anything?

-pause-

Oooh.....mysterious......well....I'd like to see you try......

-sharp gasp-

-thump into wall-

Arm lock into a wall......you're just taking advantage of the fact that I'm tired......if I hadn't been out most of the night that wouldn't have worked.......

-chuckles-

Maybe I just want you to think you can keep me here, build up a false sense of confidence and then show you who's really in charge........

-Sarcastic- Hmmm….I think if I try real hard……. I can drum up the energy now.......

-gasps softly and swears-

Ah....Babe.....now that just ain't fair.......

-groans- Of course I'm getting hard.......I'd be crazy not to.........

Just--oh fuck--just because you claim I think with my dick doesn't mean that it's actually true......

-panting-

-grunts-

-pushes listener into the wall-

See....now what're you gonna do?

-hisses-

Ah~

F-fuck.......

-panting-

You......are a little shit........

-half chuckles-

You're rubbing your knee on my dick, of course I'm gonna enjoy it........

-pause-

Take my pants off?

-lowly-

And what are you gonna do if I don't?

-clicks tongue- Ah ah ah, I'm onto your tricks now. You got me in an armlock once, it's not gonna happen agai—

Hey!

You......You~

-panting-

You doing everything yourself doesn't sound that much like making me submit to you........

-pause-

-chuckles wryly- What can I say?Ask anyone……I've always been a brat.......

Oh~ fuck........that feels.......damn Babe.......

-soft panting-

You......fuck, you can go faster than that......

-pause-

What?

-groans- You're an ass.........

N-no.......just you rubbing my dick slowly isn't enough to break me down.......

-lowly-

You're gonna have to try a lot harder than that.......

-soft panting and moaning-

Again....you're doing it all yourself.....if you really think you're in control here, you're outta your mind.......

-hisses- Ah~ F-fuck, don't squeeze like that!

-panting-

Sorry....fuck.....ouch..........

-pause-

-sighs- That was shitty of me, yeah....sorry.......

-soft grunt-

-thump into wall-

Well....look at you.....taking advantage of the situation......maybe you know more than I thought you did.......

-pause-

Hm? Take the rest of my clothes off?

Oh....I see....you're trying to make me feel vulnerable by being fully clothed while I'm fully naked.......

Well seeing as I don't want to, I don't know how you're gonna accomplish that......

-pause-

You'll give me a blowjob if I do?

That seems......suspiciously too easy.......plus I don't really see what you get outta the deal.......

It's no big deal for me to be naked in front of you.......

-pause-

Fine.......

-shuffling-

There......all naked......now it's time to hold up your end of the bargain.......

-pause-

-moans softly- What're you doing?

T-touching my chest like that.........

-panting-

S-sure.....you like my body.....that's not a surprise.......this doesn't seem like a blowjob though.......

-hisses-

Ah, don't pinch~

-growls softly-

Shut up, I do not like it…….

-pause-

Fine.....have it your way.....whatever.....better end in a blowjob........

-soft panting-

Yeah well......fighting crime and working out does wonders for the physique so it's not really a—-shuddering moan- Oh, f-fuck.....that.....that's not fair......

You know the grooves of my hips are......sensitive........

F-fuck......

-panting moans-

Yeah, I'm dripping......you're teasing me like crazy, what the hell do you expect, I'm not a saint here........

-swears-

Oh fuck, Babe....that's it......fuck.....

-panting and moaning-

God you've got a sweet mouth........

-groans- Ah.....why'd you stop?

-pause-

You want me to keep my hands to myself?

Why should I?

-groans- That wasn't part of the deal!

-panting-

Fine.....whatever........

-pause-

You don't trust me? Hey, where are you going?

-panting-

Rope? What’re you doing?

-pause-

Give you my hands?

-pause-

You really think that tying my wrists is gonna be enough to stop me, you know who practically raised me, right?

-shudders softly-

Right ok....won't mention him again.......ok.......

-panting-

Just.....get back to the blowjob already......

-hisses- God, fuck, pinching again......

-panting-

Just....go on.....you've got me tied up and naked just......blow me already.......

-hisses softly-

-quietly- Please.......

-moans-

Oh.....Babe.....fuck......

-panting and moaning-

More.......little--fuck--little faster....c'mon........

-panting-

Fuck you, I'm not saying it again.......

-swears sharply-

Ok, alright, fine! Please suck my cock harder, Jesus fucking Christ it's like pulling teeth with you—-hisses-

Ah----ok....ok! I'm sorry......f-fuck! Let go of my balls and just.........-exhales sharply- Please suck my cock........

-exhales- F-fuck........

-panting-

Oh Babe.......just like that......just like that......

-moaning and panting-

Mmmm......r-rubbing my hip....you're not---swallows---you're not playing fair........

-panting-

God.....the way you're lookin' up at me......like you wanna eat me alive.......

-shuddering moan-

-soft keening moans-

Your mouth is so good......f-fuck.......

F-faster? -clears throat- I mean......c'mon......you promised me a blowjob......

-whines- Ah....f-fuck........

-panting-

Don't know what you expected....I've never been good at watching my mouth........

-swallows-

You're just gonna wait? 

-head thunks on wall- Fuck......

-panting-

Alright......ok....just.......-exhales- If you would kindly suck my cock harder I would greatly appreciate it........

-groans- Shut up........

-sharp moan- Oh shit.....yes.....that's it........f-fuck......

-panting and moaning-

Ah....you.....fuck.....you know my cock too well.......shit......I know you're---you're just keeping it this pace cause you know it's good......but it's not enough to make me come.....

-whines-

F-fuck.....Babe.......

-panting-

More......

-softly- P-please.....

-groans sharply-

Yes~! Oh Babe yes....that's it......oh fuck.....fuck~

-keening moans-

Y-your hand.....along with it.....oh~

Fuck....fuck.....fuck.....

-whines softly-

C'mon, Babe....I......oh fuck I'm close.....fuck.......

-pants and moans-

Oh--Oh.....gonna....gonna come............

-keening moans-

-groans-

Fuck.....fuck~!

Why'd you?

-whines softly-

I......I........

-swallows roughly-

P-please.....please let me come, Baby........

-pause-

I....I'll be good.....just......please......

-panting moans-

Oh fuck, oh fuck!

-whining moans-

J-just....your finger tip? I.....ok....just.....inside......inside me......p-please.......

-sharp inhale-

Oh....f-fuck....fuck!

-panting and keening moans-

Close.....close!

-half under his breath- Please....please....let me come.....so close....almost there.....please, please, please, please~

-gasps- Oh fuck, oh~

-keening moan-

Oh, Baby~

-groans- C-coming~

F-fuck~ Y-you're mouth.....oh......f-fuck.......

-harsh panting-

-panting slows-

-pause-

Ugh.....shut up........

Untie me?

-sighs- Because I know you like the idea that I can't break out of it and need to ask for help so just untie me already?

-shuffling-

-sighs-

Thanks, Babe...........

-pause-

You know, for all of it......

I feel.....a lot better.......

-groans-

Ugh, please don't be so happy about it, alright? You're lucky I was tired........

-kiss-

-half fond- You're insufferable......

Reminder for May!

Hey everyone new and old! Just reminder that I will be out of the US for about the first half of May, and once I'm back I'll be using the remaining days to get caught up on past Patreon rewards! I appreciate you all and hope you have a good May!

~March 2024 AMA~

Thank you so much for your questions as well as your understanding about my mental health and just life in general running me through a constant rinse cycle with little to no relief lately. I'm doing my best to do things for my mental health while still trying to work and it's hard! But I'm still determined to do it, just gotta work through that fear. I appreciate you all!

~Funeral Blues—By W. H. Auden~

Sometimes you just need to get certain things out and do them for yourself, and this is one of those things:


~Audio Transcript Below~


Stop all the clocks, cut off the telephone,
Prevent the dog from barking with a juicy bone,
Silence the pianos and with muffled drum
Bring out the coffin, let the mourners come.

Let aeroplanes circle moaning overhead
Scribbling on the sky the message 'He is Dead'.
Put crepe bows round the white necks of the public doves,
Let the traffic policemen wear black cotton gloves.

He was my North, my South, my East and West,
My working week and my Sunday rest,
My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song;
I thought that love would last forever: I was wrong.

The stars are not wanted now; put out every one,
Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun,
Pour away the ocean and sweep up the wood;
For nothing now can ever come to any good.


Music: Smoldering by Kai Engel

~April & May 2024 Update~

Hey everyone! I'm fairly certain everyone has seen that I've been having a hard time keeping up with things when it comes to rewards on here, and while I've done my best to try to give myself grace and get things figured out, I don't want to continue to stress myself out and stack more and more things onto my plate while not providing for my Patrons, so I've come to some decisions that I hope you all agree with!

For the months of April and May this year, instead of providing new content, I will be using these months to catch up with the audios that I owe my Patrons, as well as outstanding commissions.

Why two entire months? Well, because for the month of May, I will be out of the country for the first half of it, and I don't want to stress myself out even further trying to prepare things in advance, or hurry up after I get back and stress myself out that way if that makes sense!

The good news is, there will be audios being posted, but they are technically not "new" if that makes sense. I want to be able to get caught up, because it's one of the biggest things that's been stressing me out, and I want to get back to a place where working and doing audios is genuinely as stress free as possible for me again. I know I've been talking a lot about my mental health in the past year or so, and I am still having struggles. I'm still figuring it out and still having good and bad days, because mental health isn't linear, and when you're also in massive burnout, it makes it even harder.

I've also decided that I need to quit my day job, as it's been contributing to my burnout. This will also give me more time to be able to catch up in a way that's not going to massively contribute to my burnout.

I want to be kind to myself but also fair to you all, so I hope you all understand and that we can move forward with more realistic and kind expectations! I say it a lot, but I do appreciate so many of you and your support!

~The Arcana: Muriel X Listener SFW: Tools~ {Patreon Exclusive}

Anxiety is tough, but at least you have someone like Muriel who understands what you're going through

Contains: Comfort, Advice, Anxiety Aid, Pet name (Snowdrop)

Hahaaha, anxiety, something that plagues a lot of us, including me! This audio I really wanted to like, drive home that for the most part, anxiety happens for a reason, and instead of pushing it away, you need to at least ask yourself, 'why?' even if you don't know the answer. I hope that this audio helps if this is something that you've been struggling with!

~Audio Transcript Below~

Muriel:*sighs*

The thing with anxiety that I have learned.....is that for the most part.....there is a reason why the anxiety is happening.....

It may seem superfluous, and it may seem cruel.....but at the end of the day, there is something within you that is bothering you....whether you are conscious of it or not......

And while it may feel better to ignore that or shoo it away.....or to claim that there is nothing wrong and try to move forward.......instead of pushing it away.......what you're doing is pushing it down.....and there will come a time where the mind will refuse to let you push it down anymore.....

*pause*

Unfortunately it is a delicate balance.....between allowing yourself to feel the anxiety, to dwell on it long enough to be able to pinpoint what exactly is causing the distress in the first place.....and drowning in it.....

It is important to ask yourself 'why am I feeling this way?'

pause

And it's also important to realize that not knowing why.....is alright.....it's.....more than alright even......acknowledging that you don't know, and trying your best not to obsess over it too deeply.....

*pause*

But knowingly shutting it out......will eventually lead to you shutting down......

*pause*

The mind has an incredible ability to override everything when it decides it's time to do so......

And it's never at a convenient time......

Because there isn't a convenient time.....

Allowing yourself these moments of self reflection can help alleviate the stress of anxiety.......

*pause*

That's why I said, 'can', and not 'does'......

It's not fool-proof....this method.....in fact it's riddled with holes......but that's why it's not the only technique to use.....

*pause*

Think of it this way, Snowdrop......a carpenter uses many tools to build a home.....because there is no such thing as one tool that can do the entire job......

*pause*

The fortunate thing is that there are many tools that can help anxiety as well......

The unfortunate thing.....is that you yourself have to find out which ones work the best for you.....

And a lot of.....navigating and recovering from the things that trauma and anxiety have wrought.....is to work little by little with these tools.......

*pause*

Well of course you're not going to be good at it in the beginning......would you know how to use every single carpenter's tool with proficiency if I were to set them before you now?

*pause*

Exactly......learning how to use these metaphorical 'tools' to navigate the stresses of our minds takes time and it takes practice and....experimentation....to find what tools work.....and what combinations help even more......

*pause*

It sounds like hard work because it is hard work......and there are days where it can seem helpless......

But those are the times where you must give yourself.....grace.....because after all.....you are only human.....

And despite what others might say......everyone could benefit from these metaphorical tools.....from self reflection and healing......because they too are only human......

You are not any worse or any less worthy of respect, comfort, grace than any other simply because you are visibly or invisibly struggling......

At least....I won't judge you for it....

*pause*

I've been where you are....I know how it feels.....and I know how much having support from the people who matter helps......

*pause*

I will be here for you......in whatever capacity you want or need......as much as I am able.....

*pause*

Of course.....no one deserves to struggle alone.....

March 2024 SFW Poll Round 2

It rarely happens but sometimes it does! We have a tie for second place this month! So for the next couple of days this poll will be up to decide the winner!

Vote away, polls will close this Friday!

~March 2024 Bloopers~

I really am just a little guy talking to myself in a booth lol

~March 2024 NSFW Poll~

Voting has begun!!

A real quick lowdown on how this works in case you don't know: Go ahead and vote down below on which character you would like to hear NSFW audios from this month. While it is multiple choice, only the top two characters with the most votes will win!

Voting will end Monday March 4th @ 11:59pm PST!

~March 2024 SFW Poll~

Voting has begun!!

A real quick lowdown on how this works in case you don't know: Go ahead and vote down below on which character you would like to hear SFW audios from this month. While it is multiple choice, only the top two characters with the most votes will win!

Voting will end Monday March 4th @ 11:59pm PST!

~March 2024 AMA~

For those who are new and/or might now know, AMA stands for "Ask Me Anything", and essentially this is how it works:  Down below in the comments, you can ask me a question (or a few), and at the end of the month, I will record myself answering them, and release an audio for you all to be able to enjoy!

I know sometimes people worry about asking something that's been answered before, but please don't be! I'm more than ok answering something again! So go ahead and leave your questions down below!

~March 2024 Theme: Mental Health March~

I don't know why, but after last month deciding that we have no theme I feel like I set you all up to believe that I was gonna have a poll this month about what the theme for March was going to be, but alas--

I decided (definitely not because I've been struggling with it a lot on my own don't look at me) that we should do another month surrounding mental health and have some audios that are specifically made to help navigate through The Horrors™️.

And for those of you who may be a bit worried or skeptical about NSFW content being able to help your mental health, well I'm here to say that sex and kink can actually help with stress relief and mental health! New experiences can produce endorphins that can increase mood, and also exploration of different sexual dynamics can help relieve stress! Also, there are those who have reported being able to regain a sense of control through BDSM play and similar activities after experiencing trauma.

So buckle down, we're getting explorative, comforted, and might be doing some dives into mental health subjects this month, and I encourage you all to come along!

We'll still be doing the polls to choose the characters you want to hear from this month, so don't forget to check those out!





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