oculus
new york city — shot on 35mm film
2024-07-23 17:12:37 +0000 UTC View Post
sonderlust posts
perfect
I hate when people tell me I’m perfect
It makes me cringe
I hate when things are said that are so strikingly untrue and meant to be a compliment
Falsities aren’t a compliment
It bothered me the first time you said it
I didn’t understand you like I do now
I pushed back and you seemed amused
You love to watch my dissent
The times after that I started to hear it differently
Looking back it’s actually one of the t...
pain can be relieving
Starving for something more
Than how it’s been before
Come and lay down with me
I’m sorry it’s on the floor
I’m told I’m not hard to love
But I’m hard to like sometimes
I wonder what they’d really think
If aware of the depth of my crimes
Beauty can be deceiving
A life worth living is one worth grieving
Give me more than I’m open to receiving
I promise I won’t stop you from leaving
shades
I don’t really like the me I am when I’m with you
I think you feel the same
It’s weird to love someone so much but not like the intersection where we collide
It feels tragic
Like a movie with no clear ending
A beautiful work of art in the attic collecting dust
I’ve passed the age where things are black and white
Shades of grey surround my every cell
Way more than 50
It’s just something I have to live wi...
milkshake 20 (alex wann remix)
Nothing new or lyrically groundbreaking lmao but this is the best mix I’ve heard of this song and it goes hard
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Milkshake 20 (Alex Wann Remix) — Kelis, Alex Wann
Single, 2023
2024-07-09 16:57:16 +0000 UTC View Postchapstick
The world is ending and I can’t find my chapstick
A lifetime of swimming upstream has made me too tired to look for it
My lips will just stay chapped
Nothing surprises me anymore
I hate that about myself
I can’t stay mad because I understand
It makes me seem weak
But a lifetime of thrashing upstream has made me strong
In all the wrong ways
Let’s play a game
You give me your worst
I’ll find the beauty
D...
2024-07-08 18:03:42 +0000 UTC View Postsilence & secrets
My favorite band of the past year, all of their stuff is incredible.
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Silence & Secrets – WhoMadeWho
UUUU, 2022
https://open.spotify.com/track/6wQMLsbcaGAxr3A6FdvQZo?si=3udITXdrQYa-1oA4BiO7Rg&context=spotify%3Aalbum%3A7hPLIz9XcsRngTp4xZWbDU
Please don't close your e...
answers
Why does reality not really phase me
It absolutely does but it doesn’t
In a way I feel unbreakable
Held by a false sense of protection
Like a glass figurine in a glass case
Maybe this is what happens when someone is shattered over and over
Breaking becomes breathing
Answers become asking
Everything becomes subjective
I don’t know anything
But I know you
And I don’t know how
And I don...
a bit of the old ultraviolence
I’ll never sleep again
And if I must
I’ll sleep with my eyes open
Hire the prop designers from A Clockwork Orange
Have them create one just for me
My lids have lost their privileges
Taken rest away from the rest of me
Stolen the blackness and quiet
Replaced it with images I shouldn’t be interested in
Active imagination can turn on you
Actively imagining can turn you on
All limitation forcefully...
sun king
Sun King – LAUREL
DOGVIOLET, 2018
https://open.spotify.com/track/2EvOCt1Crgp7tQeuuRxzIg?si=ApjLZJABRKy_c46B7RKP8g&context=spotify%3Aalbum%3A6CIanwE77USA9tyvHJ5TZF
He has bedroom eyes, they're just like mine
And when we walk the streets
I see people wondering
If we're true or troub...
silence
I don’t know how to have silence on the phone with anyone
Except you
It’s weird because it doesn’t feel weird
I usually don’t like empty spaces in conversation
I feel the need to fill them
Make the other person feel comfortable
Talking even if I’m not saying anything
But the silence between us is heavy
It holds weight
It doesn’t feel empty because it’s not
I want to say I want you
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genesis
she solstice on my soul till we kiss
torturous bliss
I will enforce this
forever sounds clever
fade into abyss
beyond time and space
I’m talking genesis
2024-06-20 19:10:12 +0000 UTC View Postbehind the scenes
thanks for rocking with me while I was away and not as active :)
2024-06-17 23:32:24 +0000 UTC View Postungodly fruit
I have no emotional connection to this song but I’ve been vibing to it when it comes on the playlist. Enjoy :)
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Ungodly Fruit — Wax Tailor
Tales of the Forgotten Melodies, 2005
https://open.spotify.com/track/0Ny30hfcHPaVkCBH4lsKhf?si=KEjLL7CFSAKmy0YHc90lUQ&con...
sight
“Are we in love?”
I ask a question I know the answer to
I want you to say it
Because there was a time
When it came pouring out your mouth
You think saying it out loud will somehow make it more real than it already is
You are better at hiding things from yourself than I am
But your tactics don’t work on me
You put your hands over my eyes
But I can still make out the shapes through the small gaps in your fingers
I ...
reverence
I spent all my money on film
Money I don’t have
Maybe because I want someone to see the world through my eyes
Anyone
Maybe because documenting life in the most beautiful way I know how
Is the only way I feel I’m showing my respect
My reverence
It still doesn’t feel like enough
I don’t think it ever will
the greatest
My favorite track from the new Billie album. The entire album is amazing but this one hits/hurts, could have come straight from my mouth. Beautiful and powerful song.
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The Greatest — Billie Eilish
Hit Me Hard and Soft, 2024
https://open.spotify.com/track/6TGd66r0nlPaYm3KI...