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[Early Access] Take Off S2 Ch.126 "Confession"

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[Early Access] Take Off S2 Ch.126 "Confession"

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Finally going back and reading me because my head feels a little more screwed on and I am *so* excited to see him finally sharing! And Nathan is so right with what he's saying here. Good for both of them!!

theStarfly

The way Nathan looked at Andrew and said “...is that it?” pierced me. Andrew pours out his insecurities like it is life or death, and Nathan’s response is so logical yet devastating at the same time. I think everyone has a different take on what a successful relationship looks like FOR THEM; multiple variations of the one and only ~love~. It seems that Nathan is very used to the “no-nonsense/upfront honesty is the best policy” perspective. And, Andrew carries the “fake it, and I’ll make it” perspective. Both being very stubborn. One day, their perspectives will ultimately align 🥺 I know they’ll overcome their issues in the end but damn, I just don't wanna ache rn fr 😭

remi

🥺

Yaoi Queen

So SO glad they’re finally talking. Nathan has a great point though. He recognizes that if things continue it will not be a healthy relationship. If you can’t be yourself in a relationship, and now that he knows Andrew is continually trying to appease him into staying, doing anything he can to make him want to be in a relationship with him. How can he go forward knowing that Nathan isn’t being himself and doesn’t trust that he cares for him? Moving forward, it would just be taking advantage of Andrew. He’s right, the lie doesn’t matter at this point, but the lack of trust and confidence in both of them

MatchaLemonade

The way Nathan immediately jumped in to protect Andrew when he noticed how scared he was!! 😭😭😭 Andrew looking like the definition of "freeze" response - making himself small, fidgeting/flinching, baby deer eyes on the floor while his heart's exploding 💔 Felt accurate for an anxious people pleaser reaction, especially in coercive/pressuring situations. And the overexplaining till he ran out of breath and could barely say the main thing....aaa! Nathan pleeease forgive and cherish this poor fool before he has a heart attack

Katerina N

Exactly like the spiraling his rant was giving was taking me out like breathe and listen to what you’re even saying rn

Eggncheesecroissant

No cuz why was i thinking the same. We’re ruined by their alternate reality future life

Eggncheesecroissant

I get his concerns but this is all stemming from him getting angry that Andrew wouldn’t put out…Where was all this concern for someone getting in their own head and making decisions by themselves when he was deciding BY HIMSELF what Andrew must be thinking and feeling? He assumed Andrew didn’t like him and got annoyed that he wouldn’t fuck. He’s calling out Andrew for poor communication when his communication and priorities have been far less than perfect 🫠 Nathan baby look in the mirror first, then circle back on this conversation. Y’all are both struggling BAD

Jazmin

Ugh makeup lmao. I can’t have them fight I love them

Zoe Barnard

I realize I’m not a good person. But I’m not a fan of the long haired guy and I want them to make up and finally have sex in his hotel room while he’s at the bar. 😭

WaxingMoon

Ehh, I don’t know how I feel about Nathan, I get the frustration with Andrew.. but he is clearly laying it all out there, showing signs of anxiety and overthinking.. can’t you understand at all? I mean Andrew is highly sexual and experienced… just bc you treat sex like it’s nothing doesn’t mean everyone is also like that… more compassion from him would def deescalate the situation.

Danielle Hynes

I just want to say that it's really healthy to have boundaries like Nathan is setting here. It is true that it is not his responsibility to make Andrew feel better about himself. Now if Andrew had been more upfront and open about his hesitancy and inexperience, I don't believe Nathan would have had a problem with that. He's blunt, but he's not cruel. But right now, all he knows is the cute sweet guy he met on the plane and liked a lot has been giving a lot of mixed signals, and now he has the legitimate concern that Andrew will be putting himself in uncomfortable situations because he thinks it's what Nathan wants. I'm rooting for these guys but I felt like Nathan needed some more defense here lol

Colorful Metaphor

🤣🤣🤣

Shortpockets

Exactly!!

Skylin’s Tv

NATHAN WTF HE LITERALLY IS TELLING U AND BEING HONEST WITH U AND THIS HOW U RESPOND TO HIM?? BRO I WILL SAY THIS AGAIN NATHAN DOESNT DESERVE ANDREW AT ALL This is the second time nathan is begging for him ( GREAT JOB AS USUAL AUTHORNIM)

Skylin’s Tv

This was a little too real for me💀 what happened to FICTION

Tice Spire

See, while I find Nathan a bit too harsh on Andrew, I understand what he’s talking about. Now, I’m not that experienced since I have a form of demisexuality, but I tell people this: when you're in a relationship, if you have little trust in your partner for no reason other than anxiety, I know it sucks, but that’s something you will need to work through. Otherwise, the relationship will fall apart. But that’s only half of trust. When you have so much built-up anxiety that you don’t trust yourself in situations where trust in both your partner and yourself is equally important, things can crumble. In these situations, trust must be upheld for the relationship to survive. If you don’t work it out, it will fall apart. A simple conversation is a good start. Speak with your partner and lay everything on the table. If they’re not willing to help you through whatever situation you find yourself in, a lot of the time, that person may not be the one for you. That means they don’t see you and themselves as equals in the relationship’s mentality. Sometimes, this realization is a good thing; other times, it’s bad. But at the core of it all, communication is key

Brian0902

Nathan is being too harsh imo on someone with clear anxiety but I understand his concerns

Bluebunny1000

Ugh I totally relate Andrew. My gf has way more experience then I do and I definitely get stage fright. She's a bit more sympathetic then nathan but we've had a similar convo to this one for sure.

Chelsea Iosua

I kinda understand where nathan is coming from but it’s low key a very selfish and cowardly take. Not very compassionate. The old, your insecurities make me uncomfortable and it’s a lot of pressure to navigate your issues. Which is valid, but insecure people deserve to find partners who are willing to work through their issues with them with empathy not judgement. And the idea that he didn’t want to have sex with him at all is so extreme, like he just has anxiety as a perfectionist, whether that comes as a disorder or not. Telling him he doesn’t know what he wants is reductionist and rude and rubbed me the wrong way. I really think he could have handled this better. Of course Andrew could have as well this entire time, but i’ve already been saying that lol.

Eggncheesecroissant

I think they are both 100% valid and I personally didn’t think Nathan was being rude. I am happy that they are communicating and letting it all out there. I can’t wait for the next chapter.

Ugh1ife

Wait so will the threesom not be happening anymore?

calisto nguyen

I mean I’m so freaking happy for the communication but I’m also so sad right now😭

Olivia

Imma... just go hide...

sekacecir

Yeeeeesh Nathan is kinda being a dick… like he has good points but how are you going to cultivate that insecurity in him?! He just confessed to why is was being weird and instead of being empathetic he made his own assumptions based on how he felt?! Tbh tho this is prob realistic lmfoa

Fattwaffles

This is so confusing, I have such mixed feelings 😫 it's great that it's all out and I'm proud of Andrew for finally speaking up (even if forced) but I also totally get Nathan, he's got a point, it's not cool to be on the other side of that. I don't know how I feel, I just love this story so much, everything is so well written ❤️ 😭

Nadia Coutinho

This hurts but also feels so good ❤️‍🔥

ohgoshiloveit

It’s hard to tell if Nathan really truly cares about Andrew

kristina barr

Both side are so complicated. You have Andrew who is scared out of his mind because he’s a virgin and he doesn’t want to feel like a disappointment to his partner from lack of experience but yet he put so much effort behind the scenes. The scenes that Nathan doesn’t know about. Then you have Nathan who thought this would be a one time thing but when Andrew pulled away he like it because no else show the restraint that Andrew had. It only goes so far for Nathan.

kristina barr

Finally, their start talking… but still I feel angsty

Tryagain

Lots of truths are truthing this chapter. I do hope they can both take a break and figure themselves out some more before diving back into a relationship. Deep breaths, they will get there eventually.

Maisan

I get what Nathan is saying here that Andrew putting him on a pedestal will be bad on the relationship. But why is he making Andrew’s fears seem like they’re nothing. They aren’t insignificant. And I don’t know if I’m remembering the past chapters right but excluding the library date, I’m not remembering Nathan putting so much effort into their relationship that Andrew was ignoring him. Andrew is in his head most of the time but he’s been the one initiating for the most part. If I recall the beginning of season 2, Nathan said something to his golden retriever looking friend that rubbed me the wrong way; Something along the lines of him not wasting time on their relationship if their sexual compatibility isn’t good. It’s somehow unfair that he says that and turns around and makes it seem like Andrew’s fear of not being good enough sexually is insignificant. The more I think about it, the more I hate it. If Andrew had given into sex the first night, he would’ve judged him based on that. Hopefully their relationship gets better but I don’t want them to have sex yet, especially when Andrew is taking all the blame and when he is also in a position that puts pressure on him and Nathan with this messed up power balance.

Blob

this is so well written that it's honestly painful to read

Bryophyta

OH MANNNN THIS HURT SO BAD

Ares

This chapter is amazing and realistic. This entire chapter is why I've been enjoying the long, emotional and painful ride to get to this point. I think people have forgotten that Nathan and Andrew are just DATING. They were not an established couple. They met in a meet-cute way on a plane, developed interest in each other, fooled around a bit, and are casually dating and getting to know each other. Andrew lied about his experiences with sex to impress Nathan, someone he was slowly getting attached and somewhat obsessed with because he LACKS relationship experience. He has never been in a relationship, so he doesn't know how to properly communicate and express himself. Nathan, while cold and blunt, has experience and is more wise on that, even if it has made him guarded and lofty. I think everything Nathan is stating is the truth and something Andrew needs to hear, even if it hurts. Andrew has to think about himself instead of trying to cater/impress Nathan to LIKE him, not realizing that Nathan already genuinely did. But the fact that he lied to Nathan this entire time instead of being honest and upfront is valid enough reason for Nathan to be cautious and distant. Think about it: if Andrew lied about this, what else could he be lying about? I get both sides (having been on both ends in my life-time at least once), but if this kept up, it just would've gotten toxic, and I think Nathan taking a step back and pointing out the issues is a healthy and mature way to handle this situation, especially now that Andrew is clearly panicking and freaking out. He's seeing the damage it's causing. Either way, I appreciate you, Jui, for the story and the long chapter. I'm going to keep enjoying this ride, because I love just how real and honest this entire story is. I'm a fan for life at this point.

Ash

I’m kinda mad ahahaha nathan is so mature so he know what he wants and how he want it, but Andrew! Ugh Andrew 😭😭😭

Mariel Castro

JUIIIIIII YOU’VE WORKED SO HARD ON THIS PLOT BUILD UP AND IT WAS TOTALLY WORTH IT! This chapter was just 🫀🫨🤯😳😭😱🫣😮‍💨 so many feelings damn

Boop

okay finally and also i love how this played out thank you jui 😭

lou

OOF. Very, VERY well done author. So far, we've been wrapped up in Andrew's head right along with him but now we get to see how that affects Nathan and their relationship.

WickedWitchoftheMidwest

PLSS

bob

Honestly, kinda get what Nathan’s saying. Is it harsh, Yes. But if you got into relationships without self kindness it’s honestly tough. Cause there’s only so much a partner can say but if you don’t believe it it’s honestly worthless which can be exhausting for the partner. Do I wish it was sunshine and rainbows yeah but honestly this is reality and Jui just does such a good job at creating realistic drama that doesn’t just get all wrapped up in a bow but actually worked through!

Erin Scott

I love how realistic your characters are, Jiu. Yes, Andrew is pitiful and lovable, but as much as Nathan feels that, he is correct about it not being his burden to shoulder. Andrew can’t continue to view Nathan as this high tier figure when they’re supposed to be equal and honest to each other. It’s not all sunshine and rainbows, and you’re depicting the relationship so well with these real life feelings and issues that we face when we fall in love. We all know Andrew and Nathan will end up together, it’s just a manner of time and learning 😌

Amy Nguyen

I think it’s more of both of them getting hurt. If they continue, knowing how each other felt, Andrew being insecure and feeling out of Nathan’s league, nathan knowing this certain effect he have on andrew, both will just go in circles babying Andrew and Nathan will be cautious on himself on what will be his effect to andrew every time they do something. This will just end up with them losing both their identity coz now they just cautious of not hurting each other. sometimes, talks are not always pleasant, you have to put it out there raw to know its impact

L K

I like this. Coz its not one sided about Andrew. Nathan was really mature to put it out like that. It aint always rainbows and awww thats cute when you confess the petty reasons why you lie.

L K

Poor guy…

Danyell Jones

As much as it stings, everything being out in the open is so much better for the two of them 😌 I cant wait for the next episode

Himitsu

Ahhhh baby boy is trying!! 😭😭 I love this series so much. Thank you!!!!! 🥹🥰

Victoria

This could go two ways a f I can't wait fir the next ep

Robert Harris

Well that hurt 😭 but hopefully this talk was a much needed start for them to communicate better

Jo

Oof a big step forward was finally made

Gah

Andrew 😭 poor baby boi but this conversation needed to happen so desperately and so much sooner! Sure some things Nathan said was harsh but it was true and the truth hurts and hopefully with them talking this out rn they can come out stronger for this and now a better understanding for each other and how their brains tick 🥺 I love the bois and hope this pain will be healed quickly and together

VioletDash

WOOF😭

Quinn

It was hurtful to read but we can really feel how their mind works. Even if I would have loved Nate being all "it's ok I like you let's bang" this growing is much better and important. And also for Andrew to realize that he's the only one who can get himself to feel better about himself. I love them so much! Thank you for how you build your story ❤️

Charliie Kreitzer

This is a start. Again we can see the maturity difference a few years make. Andrew needs to take a breath and really listen to what Nathan is saying. There at the end, he was still in panic mode. Nathan was still acting like a petulant child with some of his statements. There were kinder ways he could have said that Andrew needs to care for himself first and not take his worth from Nathan’s actions. A lot of what Nathan said is being interpreted by Andrew as Nathan doesn’t want to put in the effort to have a relationship with him. As usual, Nathan’s statements revolve around the individual’s wants and needs, again showing his lack of experience with more than casual sex. “… and it’s not my role to make you feel secure”. But isn’t that part of a healthy relationship? And leaving Andrew hanging after he asks if Nathan really doesn’t like him anymore is just cruel. Can’t wait for the rest of the conversation. Jui, I was sure Andrew was gonna pass out from lack of oxygen with that stream of confessions. Bravo! 🎉

Shortpockets

Ouch my feelings, but it all needed to be said.

Havyn

This hurt my feelings 😭 But I’m glad they are finally talking and hopefully this will help them over the hurdle

chelsea

I don't think the way Andrew is trying to handle this at the end is particularly healthy or the best way to go about this. He's ignoring that Nathan said he doesn't know if he wants to continue being intimate or not. He's probably also pushing his own boundaries just to do what he thinks Nathan might want, proving Nathan's point that Andrew puts him before his own wants and needs. I really hope they work this out properly and healthily 🤞

RatBoio49

I think Nathan is just scared of getting himself hurt, so he's blocking off his own emotions, which comes across as lacking empathy

RatBoio49

Honestly as much as it hurts, they are finally talking for real. It's not the perfect surroundings or atmosphere etc. but it is a start. They are sharing their opinions, points of view, feelings.... It's like a big step in that whole mess they created. Of course it is still painful and messy but at least they are finally sharing. And especially Andrew who finally told Nathan his "Secret". And I really hope Andrew does take Nathan's words about being kind to himself to heart. And the expressions are so good. Starting with Nathan's expression while telling Xu-An off, over their different expressions while discussing, showing off every little bit of emotion. For me it feels a bit like Nathan is trying to keep his emotions / expressions more in check, while Andrew wears them openly. I really love the way you show it so well. Although Andrew's face gets more and more desperate, anxious with each passing panel... At the end of each chapter my heart is broken. (Sorry if I don't make much sense, it's super late here haha) Thank you Jui and your Team for the amazing chapter and work💜💜 Looking forward for what's to come 💜

Kiki

I...okay. well...LET HIM PROVE IT! BET HE WILL BE A CHANGED MAN! NOT SCARED OF IT!

Nish

Ouch my feelings!!!!!

Hydrasteeth

Hmm. Not what I expected at all. I can't seem to wrap my head around HOW this is all playing out like it's Andrew's "fault" and why Nathan is practically threatening him with a break-up. I understand the need to point out Andrew's irrational fear of inadequacy and the toxicity it might bring into any relationship. What I don't understand is the lack of empathy here... Anyways I'm sure it'll be resolved soon. Thanks for the new chapter.

catdog

This scene still hurt a bit to read, but, I'm honestly proud of Nathan for how he handled himself here (and impressed by how Jui writes her characters). It would have been easy for the chapter to have been a simpler outcome, Andrew confesses he's a virgin, Nathan gives me a hard time for being so nervous and now telling him earlier, they hook up on the artist's couch leaving him at the bar alone. End scene. Instead we get to see the deeper emotional toll that these continued lies and avoidances had on both of them (and their relationship). It's nice to see a character genuinely questioning if they are capable of being a healthy match or not (even if it hurts to see it as a reader).

ashpea

Pulled out the big boy words, very happy for them 🥳

Gab✌🏼

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh! *DIES* cmon boys you got this..

EnlightenedSkye

I’m not emotionally stable to handle anything but fluff right now

remi

I'm so happy it's finally out there and hopefully our boys can work through it! 😢

Lee118j

That was a anxiety induced conversation that needed to happen I agree Andrew turn this into a way bigger thing than it had to be created more problems that the actual lie don't even matter at this point I just hope they can work this out over time 💔😭

Tamika

I don’t want to wait for the next chapter! I need them to be happy

LiMin Artz-Iffland

AGH AGH AGH IM ABOUT TO READ! PLEASE PLEASE SAY IT

Nish

If they would have talked about all this sooner, we wouldn't be in this mess. 😮‍💨 I don't want them to have doubts about each other.

Kat V

🫠🫠🫠💕

Nini

Yessss! Finally!

Z

Anxiety is through the roof. I just want to skip to them being happy 😭😭😭

Maddi Willis

😰🫣😖😰

Girl Soma

Nathan’s response is so pleasantly painful. Like his take on Andrew’s behavior is literally so real and I actually agree that Andrew has been creating a really emotionally dangerous dynamic between them. I love that we’re not just glossing over the behavior here. BUT Jui you’re making me sad now. Bring back my happy boys 🥹💔

Ash

The amount of anxiety I have…. My heart hurts right now for both of

Ngan thach

Ah I’m so excited they are finally communicating, I love this

brik

The communication is so great but also 😰😰😰 the anxiety is still high. I really hope they can work through this.

_jlau


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