Road Dog Diaries, Robbies New Shop

Yesterday started out simple enough. It was a beautiful day, not too hot not too cold.

The day started out with A crew meeting to discuss some of the current events in our lives and how we best support everybody. My choice was to take social media off of my phone and focus specifically on Patreon Again. This will help me to focus on the task at hand during the day and to post and check my social media once a day and that’s it.

I already feel a huge weight lifted off of my shoulders with this action alone.

It was a beautiful day filming with the brothers, Mike and Robbie, I always love my time with them. Mike and I have a tradition of sending songs to one another in the mornings when we work together. These songs prepare us for our day and help us to bond and focus on something positive before we hit set.

This is the beautiful song Mike sent me this morning. It really made me cry. My connection with Mike is definitely a deep one rooted in sibling style love, protection and intention.

https://music.apple.com/us/album/faith-in-you/284531468?i=284531474

I have an early morning call time so this is going to be a short road dog diaries for you today but I just wanted to pass along a little bit of the love that I felt this morning from my big brother and the super cute photo of me and Robbie yesterday morning hamming it up during a five minute break. I’m thankful for my boys, my crew, realizing that everybody is so delicate and human yet so strong in love. We don’t love people because they’re perfect, we love people because our pieces fit with their pieces, our baggage matches their baggage, because we are able to fill in the gaps in their life and they are able to fill in the gaps in our life. We don’t love people because they’re perfect, we love people because we love people. It’s important that we don’t expect perfection from those we love because it’s impossible for them to deliver that as humans. We love people knowing that we are going to get hurt if we end up loving them a long time, eventually they’re going to make a mistake and hurt us at some time, at that time, we weigh out the choice whether it is worth it to continue to love that person up close or whether it’s better to love that person from a distance. In my relationship with Mike and Robbie it is my daily choice to continue to love them up close because it is their daily choice to continue to do better and be more intentional and try harder. I greatly respect that. I don’t expect anybody to be perfect in their thought or deeds but I expect them to be honest with me and to be intentional in their growth. And those are the reasons why I stick so close to these two boys. They are imperfect as hell! Just like me. But they are intentional in their growth and they are protective of our relationship, our bond. I’m honored to come to work and be with them even on the days when one of us fucks up or causes confusion and stress. I’m continually surprised at their level of advocacy towards myself and members of the crew. We all have a long way to go. We have a lot of growing to do before we reach the grave but we’re here for it, we’re willing to do it and we are learning every day. That is all I can ask. That is all that is asked of me.