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Zenitsu makeup test and health talk

Added 2022-02-28 16:16:23 +0000 UTC

Hello my dear Patrons.

I wish I could tell you I've finally achieved that first Zenitsu photoshoot but I didn't.

I just could do a quick make-up test on a day my body was strong enough to stay a couple hours in function... I didn't even have the energy to put the kimono right . It's so not like me to leave things half-done but I would have nothing to show you otherwise .

I've been dealing with so much pain everyday that I don't know when I'll be able to install my background , fully dress and take pictures. .... Lately, every other day, I can't even walk , stand up, or eat. 😖

It's like everything is going back to how it was in 2016-2018 ..... But I don't even cry anymore. It's a reality . I'm disabled and I'll probably never heal.

I'll probably know better times but also the opposite , until the end. 🤷‍♀️

Being frustrated won't change a thing.

The good news is that I finally got a date for my new flat. First of April I'm out of here !😀

I really want to make that photoshoot before my place turns a mess. 😤

I'm going to work on the brow's makeup a little more. I tried to draw their shape like in the anime but I think I prefere a natural look. I'd like to do another test also with the lens but its putting too much strain on my body at the moment.

I really feel like I'm the shadow of who I was.

Sorry for these depressing last posts. I'm considering putting this Patreon on hold again since I'm struggling to achieve the smallest thing .
😔

Have a nice day.
++! Clef