Warning: Personal, Emotional Shit.

So.. i have finaly decided to post this, ive been back and forth on public anouncing this for awhile. And im not doing this for sympathy or anything. I just feel my fans and friends on the internet need an explanation.

And i am writing this on my phone so sorry for grammar and spelling.

So yes i kind of disappeared again..
The reason for this is due to things out of my control, and wanted to let everyone know what was going on.

So the past 3 years have been rather.. defeating??... for me.
It started with my divorce after 12 years... that was hell on me as it was, 3 kids involved and the woman i wanted to spend the rest of my life with was cheating on me.. that was pretty bad all on its own..

Then.. 10 months ago. My mother past away. From cancer, she fought for years but in the end lost. She wasnt really that old, she was 58. That one didnt hit me that bad. My sister, dad, and I had time to deal with that as it happened.. it hurt, but we knew it was coming..

After the divorce and with my moms fight with cancer, and my dads health issues i had moved in with them, neither of them were at retirment age and they needed help paying for bills and everything...

Even after my mom passed things were looking up, my dad was doing good, he was able to get bills figured out and was doing good. So i was looking at moving back out. And getting my life back on track, was focused on writing because thats what i want to do.

Then. The night that i finished kayla day 5 part 2 and got it posted..
My father had a heart attacked. I got him to the hospital but he didnt make it...
And thats where i have been.... thats whats going on..
Again not looking for sympathy. And honestly i am tired of the sympathy.. after awhile "sorry for your loss" loses all meaning.. i just wanted to let everyone know whats going on because i feel you all deserve somewhat of an explanation. And i am tired of hiding my shit from the world..

I am writing, but its something different, something a bit more emotional and personal. Something much much bigger and more meaningful to me and my life. People may not like it. But its something that i need to do, because it contains allot of truth and allot of what i feel people can relate to, its about love, loss, friendship, and regrets. And yes adult content.

Yes current stories are continuing. But they are just not where my heart is at the moment. After watching most my patreons leave after the past month i just felt like I owed everyone an explanation.. and i am coming back, but when i write right now. Its different.. so i am limiting kayla and chloe writing because i dont want to de rail both the stories while i confront my life and face my deamons..

So yeah, thats it. Thats whats going on. I am here. I am writing.. but jts different and private until i hit a certain point.