BB's dirty thoughts (is back!) 2 Jan

Hello, from the other side of the holidays!

So, I have a current obsession....

...obsession.

This is an old kink for me... the romantic male suffering for want of his love, the delirious predator, the persuant driven Mad by the the persue-ee.

It was re-ignited by the new Carmen Sandiego animated series, of all things... an otherwise innocent show that sort of robs Carmen of her magic, but is nonetheless an entertaining self-contained story, if you don't mind your Carmen being... fairly un-Carmeny. (She gets her bearings and becomes the cool, dryly witty, hyper-competent badass by season two, but you JUST could NEVER believe a late teens/early 20s could carry off that much confidence and have all the skills to be a super spy... it's completely unbelievable. Her character Reads like a fully grown woman. Carmen was always better as a 30-something femme fatale who held the world in the palm of her hand; it's part of her allure.)

Still, maybe this is a good thing- portraying young women as a perfectly competent, fully realized woman probably makes for great role models for younger women... but we're not here for social anthropology and teachable moments, we're here for erotica! So let's get to it.

Chase Devineaux isn't just a handsome, stubble-rocking, wild-haired hyperbolic, campily French interpol agent- he's also completely CARMEN OBSESSED.

Now, it's important I put some caveats here; this show is a light-hearted, entertaining animation geared at young teens. There's definitely not any sexualization in the content inherently (which I would also argue robs the show a little- older takes of Carmen might have also been just as innocent in content, and full of hilarious and stupid puns, but Carmen was always a stunning, mysterious Cindy Crawford kinda character- she never had to undress for her to have a sexual allure. The hotness was in her brain and mystery, but it was decidedly sexy. But I digress.)- in this iteration, even her hyper-competence has all the sexual allure ground out of it. And that's fine! It's perfectly fine for there to be young adult shows without us Needing to sexualize them. I'm an equal opportunity adult entertainer- some things deserve to have adult undertones or outright sexuality, some things don't need them. It's good to have it all; hard radicals on either end of the spectrum (pure anti-sex puritans or die-hard projection-y zealots that get Really Weird and Shitty when we'd like some goddamn diversity of content) really... miss the bigger picture. To put it kindly.

I say all of this because I want to draw attention to the fact that I am very aware that I'm projecting my own sexual desires onto a show that's asexual, and that's okay- this is something I do for my own entertainment, on my own personal time. It's okay for the show to be for younger folks. My enjoyment of something doesn't define my entire personality. It's perfectly fine to enjoy what you enjoy, but I wouldn't shove that in the face of someone who enjoyed it for what it was intended to be- a fun, rompy spy show geared towards historical education. The subtext here being... I don't think diehard fans need to do that, either.

BUT! I'm digressing again. Let's talk about my Thing.

It served to remind me of my VERY big love of zealous, hyper-sexual, hyper-emotional Obsession. You know, the can't-eat-can't-sleep-I-MUST-have-her kind. The fully realized femme fatale, knowing she's driving her pursuant mad, Never letting him fully claim her (even if she does occasionally indulge him, she's gone in the morning, serving to make the obsessive need only that much more intoxicating). And the Brooding! Oh, how a stubbly Frenchman (or any kind of sexy protagonist, really) can smoke and Brood and ACHE behind closed doors. A tight expression when in public, furious desire when faced with the object of his affections, tear-soaked sheets that no one will ever learn of. THAT kind of madness...

...it's unbearably sexy. Think about it! If desired that hard, that deeply, that longingly, what might HAPPEN when that massive amount of pent up sexual frustration is finally unleashed? How Roughly (with my rampant, hungry consent, mind) might a woman be shoved up against a wall, how deeply and thoroughly pillaged, her persuant unable to stop even if he wanted, possibly even tortured by his own bestial nature, wanting to be a doting lover and unable to help himself from being a crazed animal?

Passion is perhaps the oldest kink in the book, but for me, I don't see enough of it. My Absolute Favourite Kind of Smut in the WORLD is erotica where all participants are WILDLY about it, and I do mean wildly. Not the lady lying there passively making tiny squeaks and gasps that remind you of 9 year old girls, not the silent, nameless dick-haver plowing the ever loving jesus out of here and dispassionately unloading. No darlings, I want ORGASMS, I want madness, love, obsession, lust, zeal, for the love of cats, some fucking emotion!!! Soft and caring, furious and desperate, I have moods for it all... but passion. Some kind of Real, True passion, where the lovers bear their souls in the all too rare ritual of interpersonal human connection and true vulnerability.

But there's more than just passion in this one... obsession, in that consenting, kinky context, is passion driven by madness, is the dark side of the coin that is desperation. Does it surprise anyone that I so love to tease?

It is almost Entirely about seducing the predator out of my otherwise kind lover, about seeing what Madness I can drive my mate to. Out of their MIND, fully in their body and feelings, as raw and human and primordial as it comes.

It's cathartic. But it's also an incredible high, that sort of emotion. The frenzy, the mind-numbing pleasure of it, the feeling of having another NEED YOU.

Even better if he's mindlessly stuffing his cock up against your goddamn cervix and unable to help himself from unloading gob after gob of thick, creamy seed, that base need to impregnate robbing a brain of all sense.

And ahh, even better if he's apologetic after (despite the woman in question being MORE than happy to accommodate his ferality), making sure that she gets hers in turn... you know, if she hadn't already. Making her as intoxicated as he is, getting her Addicted to the feel of him, to his internal chemistry, to his gaze and love... multiple squirting orgasms for her, hormones making him DESPERATE to be inside her...

"You drive me INSANE." "Have to fucking fill you-" "You're MINE, goddamnit, please be mine..."

Big, big button for me.

PS! If anyone has a favourite smut artist and wants to make BB a happy camper, commission a big-boobs Carmen (20s? 30s?) X Devineaux (new series) with him all mad and desperate and predatory for her and her squirting her brains out in PIV orgasm, it would be a Blessing. <3