sadness - moonlit water

this is another song that's going to be on "old songs 2013". I started recording this may 22 2013, and sometime in autumn I probably finished most of the rest. before just recently (july 2022) that I finished the song for release, all that was left was bass and some vocals. the first verse was already tracked but I retracked the vocals because back in 2013 I was not good at singing. there were also vocals tracked at the very end for the chorus but they were also really bad so I retracked them. other than that everything was recorded within 2013

"I condemn my cindered arms to carry me onwards, to soar the greys and hold with that calling voice, which spoke to my mourning heart
I look at my broken flesh from a past's loss and grief
to never fade but wish, that she will tame the linings
a mountainous plane, not much
I crawl to ground, pass through trees
I remember my name and face, somberian
down pale empty streets
to the scent of water
the sound of ocean
the flight of gulls

I walk along rocks and sand
bare in ripped fabric
the wind through trees and my delicate push of memories
the sea of despair crashes into sand and leaves insense
the smoke of deceased feathers
a bird left astray

upto swing
she was waiting for me
in utter silence we share a glance
and I kiss her lips
never felt more in my life

as rise is given to hearts with moon
we love, undeath and pure
we love, alone
we love, so end"

these lyircs were written in one of my school notebooks but I don't remember if I wrote them while at school. I'm prettyh sure I remember writing them in my room specifically for the song (sometime september or october 2013). you can definiteyl hear the AFI influence (sing the sorrow) which is obviously one of my favorite bands ever. I could talk a lot about the song but it's kind of personal and I'm really sleepy right now I slept nothing last night. but it's basically abouta perfect magical moment, magical night and an encounter, where I used to live in westport CT and in 2010