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Coddled

She misses being coddled. Babied. Handled with care. That hazy space where she can turn off all of the logistics and machinations of a Big Girl Brain. This month has been long, and only slightly forgiving. Everyone is edgy and she needs a soft place to land. “Come cuddle under the covers,” the invitation is like an embrace. She sinks into it, tumbles away from the world, finds everything she needs.

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Luxury

*Patreon flagged the photo used here as explicit (even though both women were wearing lingerie) - I’ve removed it to comply with their request. This often happens when I pair a non-explicit photo with explicit writing.

I always identified as a person who didn’t like receiving oral sex. It just didn’t do it for me. It takes long for me to orgasm, and I need to really relax… and it’s difficult to really relax if you’re anxious that the person going down on you...

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Double Feature

This weekend we had a movie night with the coven. Chocolate edibles, cherry pie, and so much squealing at the screen. We watched Love Lies Bleeding and Bottoms, a lesbian dirtbag double feature.

Beth, O, & Bee (with my toes) - October 2024


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the pace

I wrote this in 2018 for our second coven ‘zine which was called Queer Enough. I wanted to share it here because it’s one of the pieces I get the most feedback about as it floats around the internet all these years later. (The photo is of me & Piper.)

The first time I had sex with a woman, just her and I, I marvelled at the pace. Sex with men always felt pressing, driven by an intensity that climbed quickly. Sometimes I liked that energy, it made me feel wanted, desired...

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O+

This darling Ms.O is hosting a little coven birthday get-together for me tomorrow and I can’t wait. We’re gonna indulge in our favourite things and then cuddle up on the couch and watch dirtbag lesbian movies. 🥰

Just a reminder that there are TWO very playful and coven events coming up, and this feed will be FULL of brand new Slumber Party photos (and stories!) all through November and December. The best way to stay warm this holiday season is with gay girl fuckery. 😇

He...

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Four

Four in the bed and the little one said…

(Actually the little one was Kitten and she just purred.)

Polycule -2016

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Plaything (3)

Finer drippier details from a memorable scene. At one point I was asked to hold up an antique lantern up high in the air while I was decorated, my arm eventually trembling from the extended effort. My tired muscles were a contrast to the hot dripping wax sensation, a different kind of pain.

When they pressed the baby’s breath flowers into the dripping lines of wax the sensation heightened. The results were beautiful.

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Heart/Sole

He wanted to put my toes in his mouth. “You’ll like it,” he mused, “before long you’ll be begging me for it,” he teased. I rolled my eyes.

I answered his Why Not?’s and he satisfied each of them. My last Why Not was “but my feet are dirty!”

This was what happened next:

He scooped me up with ease and sat me on the kitchen counter. I pulled my skirt up as he placed my feet in the sink. He rolled up his sleeves without breaking eye contact. He teste...

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Birth Days

My friends; This weekend is thanksgiving, harvest time, my birthday, and this week was the 17th anniversary of the first time I gave birth. Which means my eldest creation is as old as I was when I started dating my ex-husband, a strange milestone to mark from this side of the experience. Time is liminal right now, I’m in so many timelines at once. Reflecting.

The universe held me so tight this week. I had to cancel Really Fun Plans with Really Lovely Friends because I’m still recov...

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Plaything (2)

Decor and decorum. My darling Piper Doll and Ms.Darker strip me down and decorate me with paraffin wax and baby’s breath. I’m on a riser in the middle of an elegant sex party full of stunning queer babes, soaking up the warmth of the moment.

February 2017 - NYC (photos by Casey Harker)

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Plaything (1)

There once was a brave bunny who went to a party in New York…

February 2017 - NYC (photo by Casey Harker)

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Ms.O on Vacation

Since I’m in over my head this month, Ms.O has been kind enough to offer a few guest posts!

Here she is on vacation, the perfect accessory for a catamaran, soaking up the ocean. O is a babe who works hard, and plays hard. (A good reminder for the rest of us to get in that play time.)

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Close

Her flannel shirt smells like her. It’s like every lesbian trope, woodsy and soft against my skin.

I woke up this morning and she’d already been awake, and walked the dog, and washed the car, and made sure to clean the inside of my windows where the dog presses her nose against the glass.

She brought me a warm cup of tea when I stirred, she’d wanted me to get as much sleep as I could. “You did good!” she patted my head and pulled the curtain open to let some daylight i...

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The Haunting

These photos I took at my ex-in-laws house years ago capture something I couldn’t put into words, but sometimes someone else finds the way to say it perfectly:



I’m reading “All Fours” by Miranda July and I’m really loving it. It’s erotic and disarmingly honest and strange; the perfect distraction during these days. (Anna gifted me the book, so thoughtful.)

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✂️

People who say scissoring isn’t real don’t know ANYTHING. And that’s all I have to say about that.

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Pep Talk

Friends, tomorrow starts a process that is out of my hands, that can influence my life greatly. Once it’s over I’ll be able to speak more freely about it (and ooooooh will I speak freely) but I could really use some positive energy and good thoughts if you have a few to send my way.

In the meantime time I will remind myself that I am the fierce woman above in the orgy dress who took this selfie at 4:17am after a dream night with friends and lovers. I am aligned with love and freedo...

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Come Back to Bed

It’s rainy anyway, there’s nothing more to do.

There’s a chill with the window cracked open, but my skin is warm. And soft.

Leave our phones in the other room, nobody needs us for anything.

What a simple pleasure, when you slip back into bed.

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Sailor Song

“Kiss me on the mouth and love me like a sailor, and when you get a taste, can you tell me what's my flavor?” -Sailor Song by Gigi Perez.

(Another song that’s been in my head all week.)

Heart & O - Red Wine Supernova

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Cooling Off

What a helpful friend Betty is! Joie was on the balcony rubbing her poor pink ass (after Rose beat her with the kitchen implements) and Betty offered to use her chilled wine glass to cool her off. Sweet relief is a thoughtful friend.

Joie & Betty - Red Wine Supernova

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“So baby let’s get freaky”

I love watching Ms.O be mean with the flogger. Her smile says it all.

(Bonus points to Rose’s feet up, lounging and watching Beth’s pretty face. )

Ms.O & Beth -Red Wine Supernova

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Strip Night (4)

I’m a voyeur at heart, we all know this. Watching the stunning dancer kneel in front of Alexx to unbuckle her belt made me swallow hard. She pulled it off of her real slow and wrapped it around her own wrists, then she presented the end of the belt to Alexx. A gorgeous and willing captive. Anyone ever fall in love with a stripper while watching her make out with your friend?

(Much thanks to the event coordinator for sharing these photos with us. 🔥)

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Fall Slumber Party

If any sapphic patrons are interested in joining us for the Fall Sapphic Slumber Party please send me a message for more information. There are a couple spaces left. 🖤

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Songs and Success

The anemone is one of my favourite flowers and I GREW ONE MYSELF. (Please clap.)

She is perfect and I love her.

Someone sweet said they liked when I made music posts so here are 6 songs I can’t get outta my head this week:

Important Group Chat Decisions

Mid-day during the week and Anna hits the coven group chat with “Sex toy shopping and I’m undecided. If you were a pretty little dolly which one of these three would you prefer?”

Three cute and colourful dildos were presented.

We all picked a clear winner, the glow in the dark hearts. (Photo above.)

Glitter and confetti were good options too, but we know what we like:

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Rhymes With City

The new girl Ms.O has been talking to came over later that night and pointed to the window of an office building, and said “that’s where my desk is!”

O and I exchanged quick glances.

Ms.O & Heart - Red Wine Supernova

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Red Wine Supernova

It’s been a running joke that one day we’d do Hysterical Literature (reading out loud while someone uses a hitachi on you) except with singing instead of reading, and it finally happened.

First Madeleine dared us to dare her to sing the entirety of Red Wine Supernova, by Chappell Roan, while she tried to orgasm. We said “yeah okay do it” and then we all brought pillows onto the floor in front of the couch and sat there awaiting her lovely performance.

Madeleine is a show...

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🪄🐇

“I heard you like magic…

I've got a wand and a rabbit!”

Heart & Ms.O - Red Wine Supernova

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Self(ie) Portrait

My horoscope this month said “freedom and expansion can be yours, be patient, a breakthrough is coming,” and god am I ready for a breakthrough.

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Silly Exorcism

Look at that cute pink bum.

Madeleine was telling one of her many ghost stories at the time and the more ridiculous the tale became the harder I came down with the paddle, shaking my head when the story escalated to shape-shifting demons. (Madeleine swears the whole thing is true.)

Heart & Madeleine - Red Wine Supernova

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Endless Summer

My babes, here’s what’s coming up this month:

-more entries for the Queer Strip Night series 👀

-all of the fun party prep for the Sapphic Slumber Party this fall ✨

-the intensely hot hitachi kereoke scene that went down at our Red Wine Supernova night… 🔥

And more!

(Including a cute little giveaway.)

Stay tuned.

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