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He did.

He loved every inch of my body. I was his for years and he’d still get weak when he caught a peek of my tummy or my shoulder. I would watch his face melt and his finger tips twitch. I was his temptress and his treasure. That’s a powerful feeling.

He loved my toes, had a pet name for the way they scrunched up when I was nervous. He worshipped the back of my knees. My ass was his altar, he prayed with his tongue buried inside of it while I squirmed. He loved my soft belly, my neck, m...

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From the back ✨

This was such a fun look. I posted this red velvet harness on Twitter, but here is the back of this cute set. It’s from the Satanic Sex Cult party we had a couple years back. Kitten did my hair. I keep trying to come up with vanilla outfits I can wear this with but alas, no luck yet. We’ll just have to have another seance I guess. 🔮




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What kind of content do you like to see?

Hiya cuties! I'm just hoping to get a little feedback from you on what kind of content you enjoy seeing here. Please check all that apply. Thank you!

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I sent these panties to a boy I liked.

I’d never done that before, it was a first. I liked wearing them through the day and thinking of him. It was the first time I’d had crushy feelings in a while. It didn’t work out, but it was nice to feel that spark for a minute. ✨

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Mood 🌸

My friend buys antique plates and adds her own flair to them. This one with pink anemones captured my heart. I’m just going to point at it when people are exhausting me. Check out her stuff at Wolf Dottir. 🐺

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Ahem 🌸

I posted this cute cock shot in 2016 on tumblr. It’s been censored even though they said nothing about female presenting dick. I wanted to post it here for posterity. ✨

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Rainbow t-shirt and little girl feels 🌈

This is my new favourite shirt. I can’t wait for Summer. For now I have to wear it with a daddy sweater to stay warm. This sweater was my ex’s. I miss wearing t-shirt’s outside. I miss having a daddy.

I was feeling so good today. The sun is shining, reflecting off of the snow and ice, there are little rainbows everywhere. My 70 year old yoga teacher was flitting around during class doing ballerina twirls and extolling our virtues in celebration of international women’s day. ...

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Pisces New Moon - are you crying yet?

I just got off the phone with my best friend Joie. We call it a “hanging from the cupboard door” moment. When you’re overcome with emotion and need someone to hold onto. “Fucking mercury retrograde Pisces new moon bullshit”, she said. Her boyfriend is going back to his wife. It hurts. She knew yesterday was also my anniversary with my ex. The anniversary of the best kiss I’ve ever had, so many years ago. Naturally it fell on such an astrologically intense day. We screamed into the...

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Spring Sapphic Slumber Party Season has begun...

The party isn’t until late April but I’m putting the finishing touches on the RSVP and starting to collect things we’ll need. Yesterday I did a big dollar store mission to get odds and ends for the loot bags and decor. And Elly contributed these glitter candles for the midnight ritual. We always do a spell or blessing of some sort, this time I’m thinking a spell to nix negativity. Or perhaps one for clarity? It always comes together as I collect things.

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Close to Piper

This is a shot that Guy New York took of Piper and I being lovebirds back in 2017. This whole set was removed from tumblr because even though there was no nudity there are two women touching each other. AND THAT MIGHT BE SEX. Heh heh. Easy to be snarky from way over here. 

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#behind the scenes

This is a random shot that never saw the light of day from our pre-party preparation at the very first Sapphic Slumber Party. 

Riding a bouncy horsie from the '80's, as you do to calm hostess nerves. 

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Throwback to cute bunny bums in my bed.

Here's a shot from 2015 when my little bunny friend came to visit from half way across the world. I still love that freckle on her butt, even if it's been a few years since I've seen it. (Our feet are cuddling!)

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Winter sunlight 🌤

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Elly’s Playboy Interview 🌹

How cool is this? Elly was interviewed for Playboy. I’m so excited for her! (That’s me, Ms.O, Elly and Betty in the painting above.)

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Pouty baby has had enough winter ❄️

(And I agree.)

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Bunny Butt on Vacation 🌴

Hi gang, here is the preview for my Vacation Album! (The full version is up now for anyone who pledges at that tier.) Since I can't charge different tiers for paid content, and I posted 2 free-of-charge albums this month (NYC and Bathroom Bullies) I'm making this post the paid content for this billing cycle. (Penpal packages will be sent out this weekend for those of you who are signed up!) I'll be sending out a little survey later this week, posting some private photos and sharing some new s...

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Beachy Bunny 🦎☀️🌴🌺

I haven't seen a beach in YEARS, and it's been ice storms and blizzards at home for weeks. I was thrilled to get the chance to go outside without 17 layers on. Taking photos to share with you definitely helped keep me sane while my husband's extended family was being their spoiled-brat/conservative selves and making me consider taking up drinking. Instead I smoked a lot of crappy home-grown bush weed, sat at the kids table and sang love songs to the moon. A+ coping skills. 

Also I'...

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V is for vacation

Me at the beginning of the week: There’s no way I could possibly smoke all of this weed.

Me right now: Oh wow. I did it.

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Slow time.

(This was sent out on my Tiny Letter, but I know they get lost in junk mail, and some of you might not be subscribed to it. To tell you the truth I’m not sure I like tiny letter, I don’t know why but emailing pics and smut to people just feels.... weird. Like on tumblr or Patreon you choose to come and take a look at my bullshit, sending it to someone’s email feels so invasive in a strange way I can’t articulate. I also don’t like that when you send a tiny letter you can’t edi...

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Important Update: Clitoria!

I just saw a Clitoria flower for the first time in real life and I’m so excited! Before now I’ve only seen this positively-vaginal flower on the internet. Look at those sweet clits! We were on an excursion with my husband’s entire extended family when I spotted it, which means I’m officially the weird aunt who is super into clit flowers and stops to take many photos. 🌸👌

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Tropical time-out ☀️

At home there’s a wicked ice storm, but here it’s sunny and warm. I’ve been counting geckos and sussing out sneaky places to take some shots on the beach for you. Stay tuned. 🏝


P.S. There’s supposed to be a beautiful full moon tonight, wherever you are step outside and take a look. ✨

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Smut, audio and orgasms.

Just a reminder that I have a soundcloud page featuring clips from our parties. These were all recorded during Hysterical Literature performances, where folks volunteer to read smut for the crowd while hidden out of sight under the table Kitten is getting them off with a hitachi.

I’m hoping to add a few more this year. :)

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Just a peek from the couch ♥️

I’m eating cookies and watching Russian Doll again. But I’m wearing holiday-appropriate panties at least.

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Also see through ✨

I got this nude sheer “bathing suit cover” (from fucking Forever21 of all places) and I’m inspired to base my entire LOOK for the next slumber party on this piece alone. It’s floor length and open (better pics coming next time I try it on) and I don’t know where one could possibly wear such a thing, other than a sex party? Diaphanous see-through clothing forever!!!

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Happy Valentine’s Day ♥️

What can I say, I’m a romantic. (This is for my husband.)

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Honesty.

“If you know cigarettes can kill you then why do you smoke?” He’s the king of excuses, I was only 9 but I was already bracing for him to rationalize his choices. I was armed with rebuttals I had learned from the Public Health nurse at school. “Because I’m stupid.” he replied. I had no come-back for that one.

I could whinge about the artistry involved with evading further questions, he has a knack for wrapping up these kinds of conversations in record time. He is so good at ...

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See through ✨

I hate having to have a title for every selfie. It won’t let me post without one. I sit here with the app open like oooooohkay official title for my butt.... and leave the app open because nothing comes to mind.

I did a brave thing today, and I have that terrified-yet-hopeful feeling that it will all work out. Here’s hoping.

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Why don't you do right?

I posted this clip on my blog years ago, but thought it would be nice to share it here too. This is me singing one of my favourites, my husband on guitar, singing Kansas Joe McCoy's 'Do Right'. This song was originally called "Weed Smoker's Dream", which I love. I've always had that Jessica Rabbit lounge singer fantasy... 

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On Being A Free Lunch

You’re leaving me cold. You’re taking all of my honey, I’m left with the bitterness. I wonder why you can’t taste it. Your mouth is so full of me, I want to be your last supper, I want to fill you up.

You’re gone as soon as you’re satisfied, you push away from my table, you leave the dishes for someone else to clean up.

I sit with these hunger pangs, I ache for just a taste, a text, a sign. I need to be nourished. I can’t live on your memory, I can’t love an appari...

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Tulips are a coping skill 🌷

I posted the bonus bathroom-bullying album for full-access supporters today, editing the photos my friends sent me was a lovely way to start my Monday. Sharing them with you was the icing on the cake.

Speaking of cake, it’s been an emotional week, and I’ve been trying my best to soak up all of the good things. Like cake. And tulips.

I’ve decided to start posting some of my prose here too. I like this intimate space, and I need somewhere to put the little things I’m writin...

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