I made a playlist of my influences for the 2nd Grand Scream single!! Listen to it on YouTube here! (Let me know in the comments if the hyperlink doesn't work for some reason).
Also, I realized after I made both playlists that I forgot to add "I'm Gonna Tell My Therapist On You" by Pinkshift!! Brilliant song, please go check it out!!
Back when I first wrote Akathisia, there was a line I had created that didn't make it into the final song. It was initially about a singular person, though I took the line out to make the full song more about my own inner experience.
The line was:
"I'm asking for warmth from the moon
When I ask for affection from you."
While writing this line, I was thinking about a book I had been read as a child called "To The Moon And Back", and how I felt "left alone on the moon" i...
2026-01-14 03:47:27 +0000 UTC View PostFirstly - enjoy this silly short recording! This is an adlib that will be a bit buried in a song with a rather busy ending. Wyatt had set up the mic, asked me to improvise a spoken part, and pressed record, and this is what I came up with in the moment. I was thinking a lot about wedding attire so I made a fake Macy's commercial for a tuxedo sale.
I can't believe Akathisia has almost 3k streams on a single platform only about a day after its release! This is so exciting and I feel so re...
2026-01-09 03:18:25 +0000 UTC View Post
Wyatt and I just recorded additional backing vocals for one of the non-single songs on The Grand Scream. This adlib was among the silly things we added in at the end of the session, and will play during the outro of the song!
2026-01-07 04:47:07 +0000 UTC View Post
shown above: words on a book I photographed to create the next single's cover artwork.
I spent today doing a few different things, including chatting with Distrokid support about the pre-orders for Apple and Amazon (they said we can expect these to happen in a few days), cropping and sewing one of my sweaters, submitting another song for release, and listening with Wyatt to new mixes and writing mix notes together.
The 2nd single is one I'm really proud of - it's a huge and intens...
2026-01-02 05:35:48 +0000 UTC View Post
I initially took these to be part of the single cover, though I ended up cutting out the heart and using it in the single cover instead - I thought it seemed more symbolically legible.
These were taken in my room with an older digital camera while my old phone was struggling due to bizarre storage issues. I had to offload these onto my laptop and then Google Drive.
The blazer was hand-embellished with white eyelet/lace! The dress underneath is thrifted vintage wedding lingerie. I...
2025-12-31 23:14:09 +0000 UTC View PostHi! Sorry I didn't get to post last night, I'll post later today!!
2025-12-31 16:54:10 +0000 UTC View PostHi! Tonight I'm telling the story of how Akathisia came to life (and was named)! As a note, Apple and Amazon preorders will begin on Jan. 1st, so I'll update either my linktree or the current presave page and blast it out to everyone once they begin. I am going to try to see if there's a way to add the preorder links onto the current presave page once the preorders launch.
The night Akathisia was written, I had come home from a production session for Surgery and was exhausted and a litt...
2025-12-27 02:39:15 +0000 UTC View PostHi everyone!! I've been spending time with family and I'll be posting tomorrow instead of today! Thanks and happy holidays (:
2025-12-26 02:42:50 +0000 UTC View PostI decided to create a photo/digital collage for this single, just as I have done for past singles as well as the Surgery album cover!
The first thing I thought about were the aesthetics of the song and how that might translate into a design and color scheme. I chose the color red as the main color because I view the song as being very bright and passionate. Red was also my favorite color a...
2025-12-24 05:12:55 +0000 UTC View Post
It will be out on all platforms, for some reason Distrokid only gave me the Spotify presave link for now!!
2025-12-22 22:19:54 +0000 UTC View Post
You heard me!!!!!! The name of the first single from The Grand Scream, the single cover art, and release date are being unveiled on Monday!!
2025-12-19 20:52:58 +0000 UTC View Post
One time at a party, I met a woman I think I was meant to meet. As we talked, she dropped so much profound wisdom that was in perfect alignment with things I needed to hear. One of the many things she said to me was, "That's life - the forgetting, remembering, forgetting, and remembering again. It's the remembering that matters."
I've gone through so many seasons in my life where I felt I had lost or forgotten how to embody important parts of who I am, and slowly returned to them.
This song is so close to my heart that it might as well BE my heart. I hope you all will enjoy it as much as I do. I am unveiling which song it is in the near future!!
2025-12-16 23:19:35 +0000 UTC View Post
I thought I would post these here before I post them anywhere else! These were taken by my friend Justin (@twisterfang on IG).
2025-12-16 19:04:33 +0000 UTC View PostMy sister and her fiancee gave me a 35mm camera for my birthday back in May! Here are some pics I took with it (and some pics others took of me at the time)! There are more but they're of people in my life and I want to get their permission before I post their portraits.
Just wanted to give a little summary of what my past few weeks have been like!
Today, I went for a haircut (pictured in the photo with the turquoise blazer and pins). I braved the cold and oddly worsening road rage of strangers and found myself in a colorful little hair studio getting my hair done by a really friendly and skilled queer stylist.
I think I felt some of my spark return today after making the trek and feeling the culture shock of someone else knowing the niche queer s...
2025-12-12 05:07:30 +0000 UTC View Post
Hi everyone! My head is spinning over here as I close in on announcing the first single (it's scheduled to be released in only a few weeks from now!) As I did with my first album and its singles, I've decided to use a collage approach to the Grand Scream album and single covers. You're looking at some of the photographs I took to create the cover for the 2nd single!!
2025-12-10 05:22:29 +0000 UTC View Post
Crochet is something I do to both express myself with what I make and to ease anxiety. Here are some things I've made recently!!
They say that if you don't make time for rest, your body (or mind) will schedule that time for you. I pushed my mind especially really hard this summer and decided to enroll in an IOP recently. I have been doing pretty well and have been crocheting to pass the time (and to have something to fidget with).
The first six pictures are of a bag I've been maki...
2025-12-05 03:33:05 +0000 UTC View PostAs I prepare to release music, I'm thinking about and feeling everything there is too think and feel.
When I started to write these songs, there was a lot of anger. I felt I was in several overlapping situations that there was no way out of. A lot of things felt bizarre and unfair and deeply wounding, and my internal dysregulation was being mirrored in and manifesting in my external world.
I don't talk much about it anymore, but I have a biologically based mood disorder called PM...
2025-12-03 05:26:22 +0000 UTC View Post
This is the 2nd song from Surgery that I will be talking about on here! I'll be talking about the song's influences as well as the writing process! Thanks for your support and patience - I was with family on Thursday and had appointments on Friday.
You could say there was a prompting event for Champagne, though the narrative of the actual song is very fictional and not reflective of any real-life events. At the time I was feeling jealous because my crush was hanging out with someone els...
2025-11-29 20:38:51 +0000 UTC View PostThanks for waiting as I had family obligations yesterday and appointments for most of today! I'll be talking more about another song from Surgery tomorrow and possibly other stuff too! See you then.
2025-11-29 03:03:03 +0000 UTC View Post
HI, it was suggested that I try to make behind-the-songs posts about the writing process and lyrics, so I thought I'd do that today! I've linked a song from an artist who heavily inspired By The Willow Tree!
I wrote By The Willow Tree years ago about the death of my first real long-term relationship with my high school sweetheart. I knew what was happening, maybe before he did. Our life paths split into two completely different directions in our earlier adulthood, and I think we became ...
2025-11-25 17:57:33 +0000 UTC View Post
I think I'm going to use the space on the dress to write info about something that is upcoming. I took these in my living room next to where i usually play the piano!!
2025-11-21 04:46:56 +0000 UTC View Post
These are only a few of many pictures I took today for a specific purpose!! I can't show one of the two full outfits today but thought I'd give you a sneak peek!!
I've been putting my all into every day and I'm going to continue to do so!! <3
2025-11-19 05:44:56 +0000 UTC View PostHi there!! I'm still figuring out what types of content I'll be posting since there is not much I can journal about now that the album has been completed - if you have any ideas feel free to drop them in the comments!! I may pivot back to visual art while giving behind the scenes tours of things I've been planning once those things are announced. Let me know if there's anything in particular you want to see on my Patreon!
Anyway this is a quick tour of my favorite jewelry!! My style is ...
2025-11-16 03:43:10 +0000 UTC View PostI'm listening to a classical piano CD right now as I write this and also burning a pretty candle with rose petals in it. Just thought you all should know.
Anyway! I attended a craft swap with my friend the other day. These are some of my spoils! After getting a ticket for contributing items, I was given a bag to fill with what I could use.
My friend pretty quickly spotted the heart en...
2025-11-15 07:48:09 +0000 UTC View PostI know I didn't get to post yesterday but I'm going to be posting as soon as I recover from the past few days! Thanks for your support and understanding!
2025-11-12 20:58:47 +0000 UTC View PostAll of the DIYs I've been working on are for a short-form video shoot. I met the videographer through a dear friend, and she was so professional and fun to work with! Also present was one of her friends who helped to give me super fun and creative acting directions.
I stayed up late the night before and woke up early day-of to finish the two clothing DIYs I had been working on, and also finish blocking timestamps. I'm super proud of them and can't wait to share them with you!
We m...
2025-11-07 05:28:16 +0000 UTC View PostAs you all know I've been getting to the task of trying to create some visual magic for The Grand Scream. The crafting process has been arduous but worth it!!
I decided to make a vintage-style clothing item for an upcoming social media shoot. Initially I was going to use black stretchy velvet, but after I found that my local fabric store did not have it (and real velvet was too thick for what I needed and also $20/yard), I got creative and chose something different that I ended up likin...
2025-11-05 04:18:40 +0000 UTC View Post