~The Arcana: Julian Devorak NSFW: Don't Tempt Me~

He wants you to know, but he also doesn't want to hurt you.

Contains: Vampire, Blood Kink, Sexual Intercourse, Implied Hand Job, Blood Drinking, Emotions, Confessions, Crying, Kissing, Swearing Pet names (Love, Darling), Light Dub Con (Listener basically forcing Julian to drink from them)

Once again we're back at it again with my Russian Julian Voice! I hope that you all like it, and like this interpretation of Julian! I want to clarify that this is an AU (obviously lol) so the timing of certain events in congruence with the story are not canon. I always have fun writing vampire stuff (since they're my favorite monster) so I hope you all enjoy this as well! Also, with the light Dub Con thing, Julian really wants to drink from the listener, and the Listener wants him to as well, but he doesn't trust himself, so they sort of just, press his face to their neck during sex and try to convince him that way, and it works. Everything works out ok in the end and both parties do want it, I just wanted to warn in case that is triggering to some people!

This is the script where I actually shed tears on, and I'm sure you can tell where lol.

~Audio Transcript Below~

I know that…..you’ve been charged by Nadia to find out exactly what happened…..and things have happened and you’ve learned other things….so…..I would rather that you heard this from me than anywhere else……

*deep breath*

I was cursed. The day the count died, he cursed me with more than just the mark. Whatever happened that night, whatever I did.....whatever happened to me.....caused this.....

*breathes as he bares his fangs*

I am a vampire…..

*pause*

I wanted to tell you, because......*sighs* as someone I care about......you deserve to know.....

*pause*

Not many know.....Asra......Muriel perhaps...Lucio......

*swallows* I......am getting the distinct impression that.....you aren't reacting correctly to this......

*pause*

Just so that we're clear......I am a vampire.....a being cursed to drink the blood of the living to keep themselves alive. You know this, correct?

.....I.....I don't understand why you're still here......

*stammers* Well….Um….I suppose…..that was…..not…..something that I considered…..

That you care…..as well…..

*pause*

It’s…..not something I’m used to…...forgive me…..

*pause*

I…..well…..

It torments me....the need.....day and night. There is not a single moment where I do not yearn for the blood of other—of.....humans....

I can walk around in daylight, I can go inside a church, I can do almost anything that a human could do, except I am cursed to destroy the very people I live amongst, all for the sake of keeping my own miserable being alive. Do you know what kind of torment that is? To in almost all aspects be human, for all intents and purposes, but then to have this hunger, that at some points feels like it’s about to drive you to the very brinks of madness itself!

There is more to be done in the world. I am doing what I can to make things right, to.....help people......I can control myself most of the time. I do more good to humans alive at the current moment than I do dead so......unless that changes.....*deep sigh* I will remain here....

*softly* I am......also afraid.....of what Death might hold for someone like me......

*pause*

Yes......most of the time....I try to ration out my feedings as long as possible.....and.....I only take from bad people.....those who would not.....and should not be missed......

*pause*

W-What? No....*chuckles derisively* There are not people who would willing give themselves to a monster are you joking? Who would ever---

*pause*

I'm sorry? I think I misheard you.....

*pause*

What?! Y-You can’t be serious! After what I’ve told you, you…..you try to do something so reckless so—

I--I apologize it’s just…..I don’t think you understand…...the curse, the urge…..it calls to me, and….it is so destructive that….it tells me that I won’t ever be satisfied until I drain the very life out of the person I am drinking from….and I……

I couldn’t risk hurting you…….

*pause*

But…...I don’t trust myself…..

*kiss* Wait.....*kiss* Wait I.....*kiss*

*pleading* Please.....*kiss* I.....*kiss*

*almost sobs into the next kiss*

*soft moans and groans into kisses*

*whimpers as he pulls away, then whispers* Do you know what you do to me? How hard it is for me to be beside you? How.....I've dreaded telling you and your reaction and yet.....you are still here.....holding me.....kissing me like I'm not.......Like I'm not a monster.....

*kiss*

I don't understand......

*pause*

It’s……..very hard to believe…...when every time I try to do the right thing…..for the people whom I care bout…..everything goes wrong…..I don’t…...gods….I don’t deserve—*gasps into a kiss*

*moaning into kisses* P-Please….

*pause*

I don’t….I don’t know….I just…..

*kiss*

Y-You…...you trust me enough for that?

I-I…….

*swallows*

Alright…...yes…..*kiss*

Y-Your bed?

*shudders a breath* Alright *kiss*

*Fade Out*

*Fade In*

A-are you sur--*kiss*

Y-yes….I’m...I’m sorry…..I’m still having a hard time thinking that this is real…..that I’m not going to wake up any moment now, cold and alone and…..

*clears throat*

I…..yes…...I have dreamed about this…….many a time….

*tries to summon his charm* You are quite irresistable…...I don’t think you even know how much…..

*clears throat* I…..yes…..

On the bed? *swallows* with my clothes off?

I---Yes….

*clothes rustling*

*breathes* gods you are…..magnificent….

*shudders a gasp*

Ah-haa…….t-thank you……

Y-you…...s-soo suddenly?

*chokes a little* Y-You prepared???

*laughs weakly*

Y-You….you thought that…...t-this was what I wanted to talk to you about?

*kiss*

Y-You are…….*chuckles* unbelievable…….

*moans softly* Y-Yes…...yes I want this…..p-please…..

*pause*

*shuddering breath* 

gods…..you’re so…….warm….

*moans* You feel like…...a Heaven that I’ve only dreamed of…..ever since…..

*kiss* I’m sorry…...I will try to talk of happier things…..It’s just…….

I never thought that this was a possibility…...it’s hard to believe that this is not a dream of some sort…...something to torture me with when I open my eyes…..

*pause*

*kiss* Yes…..please…...anything…..anything to prove that you are here with me, that this is not a cruel figment of my imagination….

*harsher kisses and moans*

Oh…..oh…...oh gods…...y-you…..*kisses* You’re so…...You feel-----*through a choked sob* So good!

*panting and moans*

F-faster…..p-please……*kisses*

*panting moans through kisses*

Y-Yes…..please…..please…..oh gods!

W-What? What are you doing? *is pressed to skin*

*gasps in horror and pulls away* Y-you!  

*is pulled to skin again*

*moans* Please......please don't do this to me любовь [lyubov'(Love)]

*practically sobbing* Please…..I don’t want to hurt you…..I don’t know how I could go on if I did…..

*moans into skin*

*deep inhale through the nose, ending in a gaspy breath* Oh……

Forgive me…..by the gods….forgive me for my weakness……

*sharp harsh breath*

*moans against the skin*

*faster wet noises*

*moaning and panting against skin, light growls*

*gasps as he pulls away* g-gods….you taste……*licks lips and swallows* Intoxicating……

I-I don’t think I--*is pressed against skin again*

*moans* D-Damn you……

*moans and groans, panting and wet noises*

*moans as he pulls away*

P-Please…...please come любовь (lyubov': Love) I want to…..I want to feel it…..I want to….I want to see it.

Please……*groans* P-please!

*moaning and panting*

Y-yes…...yes--yes--yes--yes!

*gasps as he’s pulled to skin yet again*

*faster panting*

*Growls as he climaxes*

*harsh panting through nose*

*exhales as he pulls away*

*soft panting*

A-Are…..are you alright? I….I didn’t take too much blood did I? H-here….lay down and …..

*kiss*

Ah…..yes….I see……

Oh! Forgive me…...those kisses must not have tasted good at all and---

Liked it?!

…..Y-You did?

*coughs a laugh weakly* I mean…..y-yes….I do have the ability to make it feel…..not terrible…..

*bed shifting*

Having someone who is compliant and feeling pleasure from it…..is a lot easier to um….manage….than someone who is in pain and panicking….also the uh--*cough*--the blood tastes….different…...better…..

*softly, but with feeling* You tasted like everything I dreamed and more…..

*soft kiss*

*sighs* I do not wish to fall asleep on you дорогой (dorogoy: Darling)....but I…...gods I haven’t felt this….pleasant…..this relaxed….this…...sated…...in…..*sighs sleepily* In so long…..

*lazy kiss* 

*softly* Promise me you’ll be here when I wake up? So I know this really wasn’t all a dream?

*almost asleep* Thank you…….I love you…..

So much…...