She is waiting for you... Make contact with the 5 elements every day in some meaningful way. Lead with love, even when it's difficult... Especially when it's difficult. Stay grounded, know your power and the root of it. Have faith in your choices and do not be afraid to admit when you are wrong, then relearn. There is no shame in being wrong, only in denying it. Be brave. You will find her. She is waiting for you.