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Change 🌱

Today is brought to you by the song “I Can Change” by Lake Street Dive.

Joie comes home soon, so this is my last time staying at her lovely empty room with a view. I’ve packed up all my stuff and tucked little presents for her everywhere to discover when she gets home. I planted cheerful flowers on her balcony and sat in the sun for a while.

I’m waiting for a surgeon to call, I’ll be coll...

Balloon Pops (and other surprise kinks)

These are screenshots from one of my favourite coven videos.

At the last party we threw before the pandemic we went down the rabbit hole of accidental kinks and ended up trying to pop balloons between our bodies and howling with laughter.

The 2 minute video of this discovery is like candy to my senses right now, our costumes, our closeness, our giggles, the music, the touching, the cheering, our mouths open wide. All the things I miss. My beautiful babes.

Here is Mars on ...

Thanks 🙏

A quick note of appreciation to you all for your support, especially during the pandemic.

Your patronage is a big piece of the puzzle in how I can support my family independently as my marital and financial situation changes.

I can’t tell you how much that means to me.

Conversations about starting small events with our coven this summer have begun, we still need to wait for it to be safe, but once it is please know that not only will we be eager to get our hands on each...

Happy Pride Month

In hopes that next year we can celebrate Pride together again.

Here’s me, Kitten and Ms.O at Pride 2017.

The infamous Horse Dress I’m wearing was an item I found at the first Sapphic Slumber Party. We do a clothing swap as part of the festivities and this dress fit me like it was custom tailored. It’s so weird and cute. I love it. Such a good find. And it obviously carries all of the good juju from the coven. (I wore it on my first date with Max!)

I miss going out ...

In the eye of the hurricane...

...it is quiet.

My entire life hangs in the balance of a few numbers and calculations. And all I can do is wait.

An exercise in mindfulness.

An exercise in patience.

An exercise in trusting the world to bring what is meant for me.

Easier said than done (breathe, vape, journal, reach out, walk the dog, breathe, vape, repeat) but I get closer every minute.

Take selfies while she’s working the night shift, I can’t sleep anyway.

At least it’s...

From the Vault

These are some of my favourite Instax from my personal collection.

Me and Scout at the very first Sapphic Slumber Party in 2017.

Above: The spliff-filled Beyoncé’s Lemonade fuelled moment that solidified our mutual Too Muchness. You can see it on her face, kindred spirit behaviour.

Below: Scouts first ever spanking. In a room full of babes we draped her across Ms.O and Kitten’s laps and I smirked and warmed her cheeks up with some playful smacks. I could feel her wet...

🌲🔥

This is one of my favourite self portraits.

My (almost ex) husband and I, camping on the north shore of Lake Superior, full moon in the sky, joint in hand, guitar by the fireside.

It was a good night. I set up the timer on my camera and took one shot. And this was it.

There’s been a lot of hard feelings back and forth between us this past year, but I have to say, our poly skills have really helped us through the divorce and mediation process. Our lawyer is awed by our c...

Our Patron Saint of Getting It Done

Ms. O and a chainsaw everyone.

You’re welcome.

Hope you’re bringing this energy into today’s full moon eclipse.

I have a little story to tell you from this weekend as soon as I have a minute to catch my breath.

For now please draw strength from O’s strength.

🙌✨💙

Rope Night @ O’s

Throwback for your Sunday night. 🖤

Gloria, Heart, O, Elly & Betty (Summer 2017)

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I’m keeping my head up and my heart hopeful.

Tomorrow is a special day, after a really tough week.

This weekend has a few surprises, and a photoshoot too... (you guys will get the goods don’t worry!)

I hope you’re hanging in there too.

💛

Windows

I’m knee deep in paperwork and Serious Adult Things, and my mind can’t help but wander to more magical times.

Elly once told me to picture the hard parts as the scenes in a movie montage of your life that you just gotta get through. These hard days aren’t always glamorous or impressive, but when you put all those small moments together with a kickass soundtrack you see how much progress you’ve made.

So I’m thinking of this part as the Montage Era. I’m doing all the ...

Can you see?

Today was the day.

Today was a day.

I got a new mattress last week but it didn’t feel right until last night when Max was beside me and I curled up against her. Companionship is something I miss so much since my marriage ended.

She was on my home grind with me today and she excelled. One kiddo was complaining about their hair so she called her mobile barber who does house calls, just like that, they got haircuts together in my livingroom before virtual school started. Pr...

I kept the fire going.

This winter he went to our cabin alone. We do this sometimes. It’s one of the perks of having a cabin in the woods far away.

This winter he went to our cabin alone when the weather was -35 C. It’s usually cold in the winter but that’s dangerously cold. Our cabin is off the grid, no electricity, no running water, but it’s insulated and there’s a big beautiful wood stove that does the job if you keep her fed.

I’m a light sleeper, chronic pain and Mama Bear ears I guess...

7 Things

1. Here are some candlelit photos of my ass. 🍑

2. I’ve been having some writing-related-anxiety, this feeling where I hesitate to put anything down in words. I can’t commit or find the nerve to say it out loud. It happens sometimes when I’m in the middle of something. The words usually flow once I’ve had some space from it. It’s frustrating.

3. This is an update for anyone who remembers the po...

In Bloom

Kitten, Bee, Madeleine, Peach, Ms. O and Cee will have all had their first shot by tomorrow. And more of the babes are getting theirs every day. Mine is scheduled for Monday!

It’s still a little while away, but the potential for babe brigade parties to return is starting to be REAL.

Let me tell you we shit talk often about all the great things we’re going to do. No holds barred kinky gayness. Spectacular vulgarity. I’ve decided this for sure; the first coven event we have ...

Longing

There is hope in longing for something wonderful.

Elly, Kitten, O, Joie, Heart - July 2017

Happy Mama’s Day

I had tea in bed alone this morning, and then made pancakes with the kids when they woke up. They made me a very cool whale-related card (we’ve been watching the new documentary series about whales together) and we hung out together, the first day in a while where nobody had work or school.

I’ve been thinking about my own mama, and how she taught me how to love. I’ve been thinking about how the mama’s I know in my life have a strength that I admire. Tenacity, relentlessness, to...

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Kitten-paw appreciation post 🐱

2017

Today.

We had our first mediation session today. Just an intro to get to know the process and what to expect. I was anxious all day even though I knew nothing would be decided. My kiddo and I took a spontaneous hike in the ravine to burn off the jitters, he was anxious about a stern talk looming with his teacher. We both needed the escape. Good coping skills.

It’s a big step just starting the process, getting the ball rolling, the inevitable end is we are no longer married.

The lawye...

Babe Brigade

Look at these pretty maids all in a row. (And again with Kitten working those cute paws. My heart!)

I used the self-timer so I could be in some of these ones, and it snapped a few accidental shots too, like the one below.

I wanted to share this cute little behind the scenes pic of me fixing little details in the middle of shooting. Turquoise hair and fussy hands.

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