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Script: Coldtofu
Sequel to "Blowing Me in the Lecture Hall During Class"
Summary: We come back from the lecture hall to continue our fun in the dorm...
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We started watching Severance this past week. We're only on episode 6 right now but holy hell if it's not already becoming one of my favorite TV shows of all time. It's just got this really uncanny, melancholy feeling to it that's so strangely relatable in how it describes a feeling you can't quite put into words. If you don't know anything about it, and you're someone who absolutely hates your job because of how much you feel like you're being taken advantage of by the people around you, then all it'll take is just watching the opening sequence to get you interested.
It's another week where I don't really have much to share other than the usual feeling of wanting to catch up on all my silly projects. I created this channel in my server that's viewable to stream subscribers because I had this idea that if they can see me actually working on stuff and not just discarding them then it'll be enough to motivate me. I've always been the type of person to need to share updates about what I'm doing in order to hold myself accountable. It's strange because I'm usually really good at getting my tasks done just on my own -- it's only when there are so many different little tasks that I end up feeling paralyzed and end up doing nothing but sitting here.
But I guess there's also nothing wrong with just sitting here and not doing anything. I need to remind myself to slow down, after all.
I hope you're all taking care of yourselves. Thank you as always for being here.
As always, catch me on Twitch being goofy and annoying 'cause that's where most of my attention (outside of my 9-5 job) goes.
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2025-03-26 17:40:15 +0000 UTC
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Script: Coldtofu
Summary: I had a stressful day at work and need to unload...
Tags: [M4M] [MDom] [Daddy] [Fucktoy] [Listener Sub] [No Foreplay] [Oral] [Facefucking] [Deepthroat] [Swallowing Cum] [Light Bondage] [Missionary] [Rough] [Breeding]
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I think whether because of my reputation as someone who doesn't really take shit when it comes to booting bigots and weirdos from the little community I've made for myself online, or just because other people are too afraid to say anything because they don't want to feel like they're rocking the boat, I'm consistently put in a spot where people ask me to mediate between different things. I'm not saying this begrudgingly -- I'm actually very flattered whenever it comes down to this and people consistently see me as some kind of moral guidepost.
The context for this is to say that it's hard to reconcile that someone we've come to know and befriend for a while might actually be a completely different person when our back is turned. I don't like to give in to cynicism and make generalizations about how you should always be wary of trusting others because I think such broad statements like that are really corny and dumb. But it's always saddening to realize the depths that people are capable of going through in order to not be accountable for their actions, all the while putting on this happy facade that nothing bad is going on. This is just something I think about a lot because I've always wanted to be someone who makes an online community of like-minded people, and before I even became a streamer or anything like that I was always terrified of butting heads with people I just did not vibe with or thought were bad.
And then it turns out that like, the more you actually do stand up for the things you believe in, the more you actually attract the same kind of people through your energy. And it becomes less and less scary with each new interaction to say more clearly the things you believe in.
Which is all to say, like, please never be a coward when it comes to sticking up for the things you believe in, and always hold your friends accountable too. Life is way too short to be putting up with half-hearted friendships that you only entertain to distract yourself from the monotony of life, and people deserve better than those who just tolerate one another without getting to know one another as actual people.
Luv y'all.
As always, catch me on Twitch being goofy and annoying 'cause that's where most of my attention (outside of my 9-5 job) goes.
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2025-03-19 18:12:42 +0000 UTC
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Script: Coldtofu
Summary: You call me to vent about a bad date, and I reassure you that he doesn’t deserve someone as beautiful as you.
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As I'm typing this, my dang kitten is causing a ruckus by literally jumping all over the walls. I almost butt-clicked send on this post too early because she keeps jumping on my keyboard to bite my fingers.
We set our clocks forward an hour this past weekend here in the States 'cause of Daylight Savings and it's been strange getting up to go jogging when it's still pitch black outside. But it's also weirdly refreshing because it feels like you're all the more ready to take on the day because the world around you is still sleeping. I've also always attributed something mischievous about being awake too early, probably going back to when I was younger and I would sneak out of the house to meet up with friends. It's a fun feeling.
I don't really have anything I would like to talk about all that much this week. I've had a few instances this week where I've been informed of the shitty behavior of people I already knew were shitty, and so it's funny to me in a sad way to have all of that validated if only because in my dumb, naive heart I always like to believe that people will make any last-ditch effort to, I don't know, prove you wrong about how ignorant they are. Perhaps in the future I'll vent about it if certain things come to light, but they really don't involve me at all so it would just be idle gossip which I don't like doing unless it's at least instructive.
Anyway I have to go to my routine dental appointment now. The last two times I went I had no cavities, but the session before that was one where my dentist kept fucking up putting in my crown that I had to come back again and again and again for like 3 months. It was annoying as hell and they give me a clean bill of health again. I'm just blabbing at this point.
In any case, luv y'all. Thank you for being here as always. Take care of yourselves and happy jorkin'.
As always, catch me on Twitch being goofy and annoying 'cause that's where most of my attention (outside of my 9-5 job) goes.
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Overlords: Elvellia | Riosjude
Supremes: Adriel Reinsley | Faith is Tired | Josh Bautista | nova !! | Sleepy Seaweed | Vade Vafurous
2025-03-12 14:28:33 +0000 UTC
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Summary: I bought a new toy. Let's see how long it takes for me to cum while using it without stroking myself.
Tags: [M4A] ["Ramblefap"] [Masturbation] [Using a Toy] [Vibrating Cock Ring] [Moaning] [Masturbator] [No Talking] [Impromptu] [Real Orgasm] [Whimpering] [Wanting to Cum]
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So I'm like the type of guy -- and I'm almost positive once again that I've talked about this before because I'm always in my head about how I'm "performing" -- that gets super excited about all the things I could be working on that I only end up feeling paralyzed and I end up not doing much, or feeling like I'm not doing much. You ever get that?
I'm not trying to sound completely self-pitying, because I am doing stuff. It's just never to a degree where I feel like I'm getting enough done, ya' know? I don't think this feeling ever goes away, no matter how well I think I might be "performing." And I promise you I'm doing fine overall. I'm not depressed or sad or spending so much time in self-doubt that I'm completely motionless. I am completely fine. It's just been especially sharp of a feeling that's been coming and going this past week, I guess, because I feel so stymied by the fact that it's already March and I feel like I still have nothing to show for all the big projects I've been working on. There's just not enough time in the day.
There's this general idea that people impose on me that I'm spreading myself too thin with everything that I'm juggling. I actually disagree on the basis that I'm actually at a comfortable level now where I'm not feeling burned out or overly-tired. But I do agree in the aspect that I feel like there's just so many things I want to be doing that it's better to shelve certain things and focus on one thing at a time. I think I'm just impatient. Especially considering my age (and this isn't a self-deprecating jab at myself for being old or anything), but I'm also at a point now where I feel so sure of myself and how I want to express myself creatively that it gives me this extra boost to want to do stuff. Only to feel like I don't have enough hours in the day past my day job.
I ranted about this in my Discord but these feelings are probably amplified by me recently looking up an old writer friend of mine. He and I had a really bad falling out after he just randomly got upset with me over something that I thought was genuinely silly, and I haven't spoken to him since. To be honest, I had always felt sort of bad for the guy because he's someone who's always wanted to do this one big thing in his life, but he's never been able to find his voice, and so he just ends up talking about the things he wants to do more than actually doing anything if that makes sense.
This is getting kind of overly-long and rambly so I'll save the rest for another time if I feel like it. Overall I'm well, just very very busy. I hope you're all having fun and taking care of yourselves. Happy jorkin'. (Also if you're in any way interested, I started doing a monthly book club in my Discord server as well. For the months of March and April, we're reading 'A Little Life,' and we're devoting two months to it because it's a long-ass book. Check the #book-club channel for more info. I provide copies.)
As always, catch me on Twitch being goofy and annoying 'cause that's where most of my attention (outside of my 9-5 job) goes.
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Overlords: Elvellia | Riosjude
Supremes: Adriel Reinsley | Faith is Tired | Josh Bautista | nova !! | Sleepy Seaweed | Vade Vafurous
2025-03-05 16:34:31 +0000 UTC
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Script: Coldtofu
Summary: I call you, a professional, to lose my virginity. And you’re so much better than I could’ve imagined.
Tags: [M4F] [Virgin Speaker] [Nervous] [Dork] [Stripping] [Nipple Play] [Fingering] [Pre-cum] [Praise] [Guiding Speaker] [Slow to Fast] [Kissing] [Surprise Kiss] [Breaking Her Rule] [Cuddling]
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This was one of those audios where I didn't even have to act all that much because I'm just naturally very unsure of myself, and that was easy to channel into this voiceover.
I've been having more frequently these thoughts of being really overwhelmed with not enough time in the day to do the things that I want. It doesn't help that I'm naturally one of those people who gets very excited at the idea of starting a new project, and so the list of things I want to do only continues to grow. But for now I like to blame how much my work was delayed because of the sickness I had throughout most of January and February. I'm trying my best to catch up while also making sure to not do so much that I get burned out, and it's always tricky to balance all of that.
In any case, I've been thinking of writing more on Substack -- whether stuff about the real-world or my thoughts of some stuff I watched or books I've read. I realize whenever I set down to write these every week that I have so much I just want to talk about with you guys as well, and I feel like it would be beneficial to have an outlet aside from essentially venting to you guys here who are just around to jerk off to audios.
So look out for more of my writing, whether it's creative writing or what have you. I really want to make this the year where I don't make excuses and actually output myself into creating something that people can see and talk about.
In the meantime I hope you're all well, and I appreciate you all being here.
As always, catch me on Twitch being goofy and annoying 'cause that's where most of my attention (outside of my 9-5 job) goes.
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Overlords: Elvellia | Riosjude
Supremes: Adriel Reinsley | Faith is Tired | Josh Bautista | nova !! | Sleepy Seaweed | Vade Vafurous
2025-02-26 16:20:54 +0000 UTC
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Script: Coldtofu
Summary: We fucked around while drunk last night, and decide to continue the fun in the lecture hall.
Tags: [M4M] [Bros] [Risky Sex] [Public] [During Class] [Hungover] [College] [JO] [Oral] [Deepthroat] [Facefucking] [Cumming in Mouth] [Oral Creampie] [To Be Continued]
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Holy crap, glory upon glories, my voice is feeling so much better. I legit woke up this morning without any congestion for once. I can finally get back to working on all those projects I had stalled for weeks because my voice was just gone.
I kind of feel like I had something important to talk about today but my mind is kind of numb, and not in a bad way. I was anticipating a shitload of work today but I already got the bulk of it done and so I'm going to try to get back into the rhythm of writing as much as I used to.
I hope you're all taking care of yourselves and staying safe. Thank you all for being here.
As always, catch me on Twitch being goofy 'cause that's where most of my attention (outside of my 9-5 job) goes.
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Overlords: Elvellia | Riosjude | Brandon
Supremes: Adriel Reinsley | Faith is Tired | Koni | nova !! | Sleepy Seaweed | Vade Vafurous
2025-02-19 18:24:48 +0000 UTC
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Summary: You're on a Valentine's Day date with your boyfriend at a carnival, and when you spot a photobooth, you decide to test your luck...
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Happy early Valentine's Day! Whether you have a date this year or not, I hope you're at a point in your life where you're not defining too much the "progress" of your life on things like strict accomplishments like having a relationship or what have you. I'm at that age where I've been drowning out for years now those kinds of people who make comparisons about what I've made of my life compared to those around me (specifically in the realm of things like marriage and getting older), as if life is about accruing a checklist of such conventional accomplishments instead of cherishing the moments you make with those people.
In all seriousness I've never been a fan of the habit of people to go about in pity for themselves about how single they are, because it presupposes the idea that people are "supposed" to be in relationships, as if to be single means you're less than. There is so much going on the world for all of us to stress out about that I can't imagine what it's like to have to navigate dating on top of that. So keep that in mind if you're ever feeling down about not being able to find anyone. It's the most hackneyed advice in the world but there's so much to learn by just being able to sit with your own loneliness for a while, because it's only then that you truly realize how much you want to connect with someone and what your own values are.
I'm still battling that throat bug I have -- it's likely just me dealing with the cold and fluctuating weather, but it's just super annoying because I've never had it linger for this long. I'm hoping it's not bronchitis or anything like that, but either way I feel fine otherwise. I hope you're all hanging in there. Have a good jorkin'. Luv y'all.
As always, catch me on Twitch being goofy 'cause that's where most of my attention (outside of my 9-5 job) goes.
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Overlords: Elvellia | Riosjude | Brandon
Supremes: Adriel Reinsley | Faith is Tired | Josh Bautista | Koni | Nani | nova !! | Sleepy Seaweed | Vade Vafurous
2025-02-12 17:57:38 +0000 UTC
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Summary: I'm jerking off with lots of lube and one of my favorite toys. What else is there to say?
Tags: [M4A] ["Ramblefap"] [Masturbation] [Still Sick] [Moaning] [Masturbator] [No Talking] [Impromptu] [Real Orgasm]
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So that weird throat bug I've been bringing up for the past two weeks keeps coming and going, and I wasn't feeling up to recording a full scripted audio in case it made everything fucky. But I've been downing so much throat coat tea with honey these past few days out of paranoia so I should be fine by next week.
Currently I'm writing this with my kitten Cheebs on my lap. She's a little stinker who loves getting into trouble but for some reason she's adopted this really shy demeanor around me lately where she seems to wait until I make eye contact before jumping on me, as if to ask for permission. It's the cutest thing.
I have nothing really big to update you all on. It's a new month -- I'm trying to keep busy instead of... doom-scrolling about the state of the world. I hope you're all doing well, and I appreciate you being here with me as always.
ALSO, ARE YOU BEING MORE ACTIVE LIKE I TOLD YOU TO???
Anyway, luv y'all.
As always, catch me on Twitch being goofy 'cause that's where most of my attention (outside of my 9-5 job) goes.
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Overlords: Elvellia | Riosjude | Brandon
Supremes: Adriel Reinsley | Faith is Tired | Josh Bautista | Koni | Nani | Sleep Seaweed | Vade Vafurous
2025-02-05 16:51:38 +0000 UTC
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Script: Coldtofu
Sequel to "Straight Roommate Breeds Your Hole"
Summary: You mess with my sleep and decide you need to be punished...
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It's week three officially of me sticking with my workout plan of waking up a little earlier than usual to get a good jog in before I start my day. And it's almost like I'm a completely different person now -- I feel more energetic, I feel more willing to do my tasks throughout the day. This isn't me trying to be some kind of corny self-help coach but I really do want to plant more ideas in the minds of the people reading to just generally be more active and remember to take care of yourselves, because your future self will most definitely thank you for it.
As a leftist, I'm aware of this joke about leftist spaces online where, whenever someone talks about encouraging others to work out, there are always a million other people dogpiling on that person about how it's unfair to expect that because we're all constrained under capitalism. But I'm a believer in the idea that there will always be excuses not to do something you want to do, especially if you know in the back of your mind that it'll make you healthier. We're all depressed and sick, after all. But it's important all the more then for us to boost one another up.
So, after jerking off or doing whatever it is you do around here, I really do encourage you all to please try your best to get moving more. The En of three weeks ago could not even conceive of the En of today where I don't feel like I've been this focused since I was in my late teens. I'm still overwhelmed with work and stressed out, don't get me wrong, but it's not tempered with a feeling like I know how to handle everything when it comes. And I hope that for all of you as well.
Anyway, luv y'all. Happy jorkin'.
As always, catch me on Twitch being goofy 'cause that's where most of my attention (outside of my 9-5 job) goes.
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Overlords: Elvellia | Riosjude | Brandon
Supremes: Adriel Reinsley | Faith is Tired | Josh Bautista | Koni | Nani | Sleepy Seaweed | Vade Vafurous
2025-01-29 18:20:28 +0000 UTC
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Summary: I have the flu, but that's not going to stop me from cumming.
Tags: ["Ramblefap"] [Masturbation] [Sick] [Moaning] [Automatic Masturbator] [No Talking] [Impromptu] [Real Orgasm]
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You know what's interesting about having lost my voice and just obsessively playing Balatro over the last two days to give myself a rest as the congestion becomes too much is that it puts into focus a lot of the things I was running around in circles about to get done. I had to pause two creative projects I've been working on because both of them either require me to talk at length or put my brain to use and I was incapable of doing either.
And for the first time in my life, I didn't panic or freak out that I was "losing time." I didn't feel sorry for myself that it was something I needed to work through and possibly burn myself out on. I think back to the mood I had a few years ago with this Patreon where I felt like I really needed to give it my all, only to find that I was happy with the pace I was doing things now and that I didn't want to overextend myself for no reason, and it makes me feel like I've come a long way.
Because of the way the world is, there will always be some feeling like we're not "doing enough." I can only hope that you can work through that feeling and realize how much it's bullshit. Until then, I'm gonna go back to playing Balatro and giving my voice a rest. Luv y'all.
As always, catch me on Twitch being goofy 'cause that's where most of my attention (outside of my 9-5 job) goes.
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Overlords: Elvellia | Riosjude | Brandon
Supremes: Adriel Reinsley | Faith is Tired | Josh Bautista | Koni | Nani | Sleepy Seaweed | Vade Vafurous
2025-01-22 16:52:18 +0000 UTC
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Script: Coldtofu
Summary: You come home after a long day, and I do everything to take care of you...
Tags: [M4F] [Boyfriend] [Comforting] [Body Praise] [Positive Affirmation] [Cuddling] [Stroking Hair] [Kissing] [L-Bombs] [Heavy Oral] [Clit Stimulation] [Listener Multiple Orgasm]
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How are you doing? I spent the better part of this week actually being productive and feeling pretty good about myself. It's week two of me actually sticking with my plan of waking up earlier than usual to go for a jog, and it's been doing wonders for my mental health surprisingly enough.
I've asked this before but is anyone here learning another language? I'm actively trying to brush up on all the Korean and Japanese I've forgotten from my youth, and now I've decided to heap on Mandarin onto the pile because apparently I'm not busy enough. I always find myself fantasizing about having more pen pals and friends whose primary language isn't English just so I can surround myself more with other languages. In another life I would have studied and taught linguistics like Amy Adams' character in Arrival. There's just something so fun about understanding how languages have adapted across time and cultures.
I don't really have any big updates other than to say that I apologize if I seem a little extra grouchy lately -- it's really not that I'm actually in a bad mood, there's just a lot happening in the world and too much that I want to do that I get impatient with myself. I hope you're all hanging in there and doing well. I appreciate you all as always for being here.
As always, catch me on Twitch being goofy 'cause that's where most of my attention (outside of my 9-5 job) goes.
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Overlords: Elvellia | Riosjude | Brandon
Supremes: Adriel Reinsley | Faith is Tired | Josh Bautista | Koni | Nani | Sleepy Seaweed | Vade Vafurous
2025-01-15 18:45:41 +0000 UTC
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Script: Coldtofu
Sequel to "Straight Roommate Punishes You With His Cock"
Summary: Your hot jock college roommate uses you as a fleshlight...
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Seems like a lot of people are sick this week so please remember to take care of yourselves and get plenty of rest! Drink water, don't overwork yourself, etc! I hope you're all staying safe overall.
I've been waking up earlier in the day to go jogging and then working out like I used to way before COVID was even a thing, and it feels like it's lengthened my days. I get to noon and feel like I've already done everything I've needed to do. It's a weird feeling that I haven't been familiar with for a long time. I would suggest that if you have the energy for it, you should definitely try to wake up a little earlier than usual, doing something you would usually do in your free time otherwise (like working out or some kind of hobby of yours), and then properly starting your day.
I think this will be the year I really focus on building myself up. Last year was a year I would say where I was mostly feeling a little lost with where I want to go with my passions -- I even woke up this morning and the first thing I thought was "wow, 2024 really did go by too quickly," which signals to me a lot of regret about stuff I didn't do. But not this year. I hope you can all look forward to it.
Thank you so much for being here.
As always, catch me on Twitch being goofy 'cause that's where most of my attention (outside of my 9-5 job) goes.
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Overlords: Elvellia | Riosjude
Supremes: Adriel Reinsley | Josh Bautista | Koni | Nani | Sleepy Seaweed | Vade Vafurous
2025-01-08 16:50:42 +0000 UTC
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Summary: I'm so busy that the only time I have an opportunity to cum is during a work meeting. I hope they don't notice...
[You'll have to excuse the very impromptu nature of this audio: it was my birthday yesterday and so I've been even busier than usual and this was the only time I had to cum.]
Tags: ["Ramblefap"] [Masturbation] [Subdued] [Moaning] [No Talking] [Impromptu] [Background Chatter] [At Work] [Real Orgasm]
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As I mention above, it was my birthday yesterday, and so my attention and energies have been admittedly pretty split this week. This is an actual audio of me only feeling like I had the time to record something (ie: masturbating while moaning into a microphone) during an actual work meeting which you can hear going on in the background. I wasn't trying to do anything super devious with this. I was more just wanting to tell you all that as I reflect on everything I've accomplished the past year, I can't help but sometimes feel like I've taken on more than I can handle because there's seriously so much I want to do. There are so many things I want to create and not enough time in the day.
I love making content and I think that when I actually apply myself I can make something really meaningful that other people can connect with. But I'm definitely going to treat the following year as one of me reminding myself that it's not the end of the world if I didn't achieve XYZ by a certain artificial timeframe that only makes sense to my anxieties and fears.
I hope the year ahead for all of you is a similar one in that you're able to not put too much of yourself in things that you've only invented in your head as your goals out of some vague fear that you're not doing enough. It's not a matter of "doing enough" -- it's a matter of making sure you and your loved ones are tended to with the energy you are afforded. And I hope you can hold that spirit throughout the year.
Thank you all for being here, and Happy New Year.
As always, catch me on Twitch being goofy 'cause that's where most of my attention (outside of my 9-5 job) goes.
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Overlords: Riosjude | Elvellia
Supremes: Adriel Reinsley | Faith is Tired | Josh Bautista | Koni | Nani | Sleepy Seaweed | Vade Vafurous
2025-01-01 17:00:13 +0000 UTC
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Script: Coldtofu
Summary: Flirting with my boss isn’t the best idea, but I just can’t help it…
Tags: [M4F] [Boss x Employee] [Office Romance] [Holiday Party] [Flirting] [Cheating] [Sneaking Off] [Kissing] [Nipple Play] [Affectionate] [Condom] [Fucking on the Copier] [Gentle]
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As I reflect on everything I've accomplished this past year, with this being one of the last audios I'll be producing before 2025, I'm reminded of how much every single moment where I've felt like I was running up against a brick wall was another opportunity for me to grow and adapt.
Without getting too down on myself, it hasn't been an easy year. I almost lost my job, forcing me to take on more responsibilities to prove to my bosses that I'm still a useful little employee. Because of this my productivity has really suffered. I feel as if I've mentally been putting too much of myself in my day job, which is an awful, sapping feeling because I like the idea of being able to disconnect from work in order to put my energy into my true passions: connecting with other people through my writing. There have also been some general annoyances in my content creation career with me just not feeling as connected with other creators because we have such little in common.
But it's also been a fantastic year for me in really feeling like I've gotten to know myself better and become closer to the people who matter to me in my life. Whenever I get too down on myself, I think back to little moments where people have made attempts to connect with me and help me realize my many gifts. I don't ever want to become too jaded to the undeniable fact that I am very blessed to have the life that I have, and to be where I am.
In short, I really appreciate you all being here. Truly and sincerely. And I hope after all the jorkin' (or whatever you choose to do with my audios) that you're able to take some time for yourself and reflect on all of your gifts as well.
Thank you all. And happy holidays.
As always, catch me on Twitch being goofy 'cause that's where most of my attention (outside of my 9-5 job) goes.
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Special Thanks
Overlords: Elvellia | Riosjude | Samín
Supremes: Adriel Reinsley | Faith is Tired | Josh Bautista | Koni | Nani | Sleepy Seaweed | Vade Vafurous
2024-12-25 17:00:09 +0000 UTC
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I just posted this audio to the Discord. Be sure to join!
Script: Coldtofu
Summary: Your hot jock college roommate catches you sniffing his underwear...
(art by nayoshi_(r-744))
Masterlist of all audios
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En's Weekly Thoughts:
I'm having one of those weird days where I feel like I'm not doing enough even though I'm literally busy at all hours of the day. It's tough for me to ever get over the feeling like I haven't done enough because it just always feels like there's more to do, you know? And I'm not necessarily even talking about work-work as in my day job, but just in general: trying to take care of myself, feeling like I'm doing enough with my side projects to get to a point where I can actually show you all what I've been working on.
It's tough, and I'm going to admit for once that I'm really struggling instead of trying to be all brave about it.
I feel like a big grouch lately because of this mood so I'm going to spend some time offline after I get my usual tasks out of the way. I hope you're all hanging in there.
As always, catch me on Twitch being goofy 'cause that's where most of my attention (outside of my 9-5 job) goes.
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Special Thanks
Overlords: Elvellia | Riosjude | Samín
Supremes: Adriel Reinsley | Faith is Tired | Josh Bautista | Nani | Ryan | Sleepy Seaweed | Vade Vafurous
2024-12-18 20:01:49 +0000 UTC
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Summary: I'm sick with a fever and I'm overworked. But that doesn't mean I can't jerk off.
Tags: [M4A] [Ramblefap] [Masturbation] [Moaning] [Minimal Talking] [Impromptu] [Countdown] [Real Orgasm]
art by 490sigoto
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En's Weekly Thoughts:
I finally went ahead recently and finished making a masterlist of all the audios I've ever made since I started doing this a little over two years ago (HUGE shoutout to my dear friend Honey for helping me put it together, as well as Jessy for creating an initial draft).
I know I mention a whole lot how I'm super busy all the time but I never truly feel it as keenly as when I'm a little bit under the weather. I can't think as clearly as I normally do, I can't move around with as much effortlessness. I've always been someone who prides himself on keeping my mind busy whether with my hobbies or my projects that I hope to share with the world, and it really sucks to feel even temporarily that I'm being slowed down by something I have no control over.
But I'm also trying not to work too hard for its own sake and understand that being sick is an opportunity for me to slow down and listen to my body. We got a slight boost in new subscribers here and I just want you all to know, whether you read these or not -- I like to have a little weekly rant to remind you all to take care of yourselves and realize that real life is not determined by the content you consume here on the Internet, whether it's for the purposes of jerking off or what have you. Spend some time with people you care about, read books, and explore your own interests.
Bit of a scattered rant this week but I mostly just wanted to welcome the newcomers. Hope you're all doing well.
(Also this is random but if you've read this far, I have a bit of a request: you know those shitpost-y ASMR videos you see on YouTube where it's like "florida boyfriend gets eaten by a crocodile etc"? If you have any silly scenarios that you think I could pull off, please comment them down below.)
As always, catch me on Twitch being goofy 'cause that's where most of my attention (outside of my 9-5 job) goes.
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Special Thanks
Overlords: Elvellia | Riosjude
Supremes: Adriel Reinsley | Faith-Is-Tired | Josh Bautista | Nani | Ryan | Sleepy Seaweed | Vade Vafurous
2024-12-11 15:44:54 +0000 UTC
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Script: Coldtofu
Summary: You keep telling me about the dates you’re going on, and it’s making me jealous…
Tags: [M4F] [Friends to Lovers] [Jealous] [Possessive] [MDom] [Plenty of Kissing] [Brief Cunnilingus] [Missionary] [Affectionate] [Aftercare]
(art by horsetail_mama)
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En's Weekly Thoughts:
I've always been someone who's greatly appreciated it when my friends look to me as a sort of role model. I've always taken great pride in the whole idea that I'm living by example with how much some of my friends look to me for guidance when it comes to making important decisions, especially about other people in their lives or their own values.
I think me taking pride in it specifically stems from the fact that I feel like I was raised by my parents with a certain hateful and selfish attitude about the world. My parents are first-generation immigrants and so all they really cared about in terms of instilling values in me was making money, having a family -- all the typical nuclear family bullshit that I find stifling. I don't necessarily begrudge them for this but I'm obviously my own person and I would like to live my life the way I want to. And I think there was definitely a part of me that wanted to still live up to these ideals when I was younger. It was disconnecting from all of this in my late teens and 20s that I started to feel like I started living for myself, but also started becoming incredibly depressed about how the world doesn't cater to those kinds of whims to want to be free.
This is really to say that it's taken forever to get to where I am now in terms of development, and I'm still someone who's learning. I stress community and mutual aid more than making it big as a content creator, and I've always approached everything I do this way. In my view, you should always be wary of people who are too focused on numbers and growth more than anything else, because it speaks to a very unchecked view that bigger numbers are inherently a good thing or that it equals more validation. It's so empty and pointless in the end to focus on that stuff.
I just really wanted to rant very vaguely about some stuff happening my life. Hope this suffices. Luv y'all. Thank you all for your support.
As always, catch me on Twitch being goofy 'cause that's where most of my attention (outside of my 9-5 job) goes.
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Special Thanks
Overlords: Elvellia | Riosjude
Supremes: Adriel Reinsley | Alastor Trinh | Josh Bautista | Nani | Sleepy Seaweed | Vade Vafurous
2024-12-04 20:24:39 +0000 UTC
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I just posted this audio to the Discord. Be sure to join!
Script: Coldtofu
Summary: You take your time in breaking me...
(art by @mizcored)
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En's Weekly Thoughts:
I've for the past few months been in this weird funk in almost a creative sense where I'm working on things -- I'm working on a lot of things -- but it's still taking some time for me to get them to completion, and I'm both feeling very gratified in working on it and knowing it's going to be really fun and cool, and feeling really impatient with wanting to get it out there already.
In any case, I don't think I really have much to say this week if only because I've been dealing with a lot in my personal life, as well as helping out my friends a whole lot with some stuff that they're dealing with.
I hope you're all able to find some time today to spend with your loved ones. Take care, all.
As always, catch me on Twitch being goofy 'cause that's where most of my attention (outside of my 9-5 job) goes.
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Special Thanks
Overlords: Elvellia | Riosjude
Supremes: Adriel Reinsley | Alastor Trinh | Josh Bautista | Nani | Sleepy Seaweed | Vade Vafurous
2024-11-27 19:16:42 +0000 UTC
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Summary: I was horny after working out. So I decided to cum before heading back to work.
Tags: [M4A] [Ramblefap] [Masturbation] [Moaning] [No Talking] [Impromptu] [Real Orgasm]
(art by haiki (tegesu))
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En's Weekly Thoughts:
I've been feeling not like myself for the past week or so. It's really not in a way where I feel depressed or upset or anything. I just don't feel like I'm laughing in the way that I used to, thinking in the way that I used to. For some reason I feel like just a changed person, and it's not anything that makes me worried so much has got me thinking about what it is that separates me right now from how I usually am. I promise I'm not saying any of this to make anybody worry, because I really feel "fine" overall. I'm not burned out or particularly sad. I'm just blank.
The main thing that sticks out to me is that I feel like my way of thinking has drastically slowed down. There's usually a real quickness with which I feel myself reacting to things. Lately I feel like it takes me an extra second to process what I'm seeing and hearing. Granted there are things going on in my real life with regard to my family that I'm sure are having this effect on me, but it's strange that that doesn't come to the forefront of my mind when I think about what's troubling me.
I wonder if I'm really just overworking myself or something. In any case, I don't really have anything to talk about other than to remind myself and you all to take breaks and come up for air in the form of hanging out with friends and eating properly and drinking some water and all that good, corny shit. I appreciate you all being here, as lately it really feels like I'm just creatively faltering and that I'm only barely things out. I'm sure this feeling will pass but I just hate having it to begin with.
Luv y'all. Take care of yourselves and one another.
As always, catch me on Twitch being goofy 'cause that's where most of my attention (outside of my 9-5 job) goes.
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Special Thanks
Overlords: Elvellia | Riosjude
Supremes: Adriel Reinsley | Alastor Trinh | Josh Bautista | Nani | Sleepy Seaweed | Vade Vafurous
2024-11-20 18:55:00 +0000 UTC
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Script: Coldtofu
Summary: Close your eyes, and let me show you just how beautiful you are...
Tags: [M4F] [Boyfriend] [Insecure Listener] [Slight MDom] [Body Praise] [Heavy Body Worship] [Comforting] [Praise Kink] [Good Girl] [Kissing] [Cunnilingus] [Clit Stimulation] [Listener Orgasm] [Loving]
(art by nonoyama)
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En's Weekly Thoughts:
So, is anyone here learning another language (assuming your first language is also English like me)? Not to be a shill but I'm currently using Pimsleur audio lessons to brush up on my Korean, as well as to eventually learn Arabic, Brazilian Portuguese, Mandarin, Russian, and Thai. If you are learning another language but aren't using Pimsleur, what resources do you use?
I think in another life I would have liked to have studied linguistics. I read books here and there about why languages form the way that they do, but to have an actual academic background is something I oftentimes fantasize about. I think there's a part of me that really regrets not taking my higher education more seriously, but at the same time, can you really blame me? Forgetting the fact that it's expensive as hell for very little payoff, the world is literally on fire right now and I feel like there are more important things to worry about for me personally than pursuing a doctorate.
I say this a lot to myself, seemingly out of nowhere. I really would have liked to have gone a more direct academic route sometimes. It's crazy the disparity between the passions that reflect my interior life (just wanting to learn new things and share my discoveries) vs. what I put out there (being a really loud and annoying Vtuber as well as gross-out videos on YouTube about cooking with my own jizz). I don't think I'll ever be able to reconcile that with how often I bring it up. But it's fun to think about and fantasize.
Anyway, nothing really to rant about specifically this week. I appreciate you all being here, and I hope you're able to get some rest and jerk off or whatever you do. Luv y'all.
As always, catch me on Twitch being goofy 'cause that's where most of my attention (outside of my 9-5 job) goes.
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Special Thanks
Overlords: Elvellia | Riosjude
Supremes: Adriel Reinsley | Alastor Trinh | Josh Bautista | Nani | Nexus | Sleepy Seaweed | Vade Vafurous
2024-11-13 19:13:16 +0000 UTC
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Script: Coldtofu
Summary: The lights go out and you come looking for company in the dark...
Tags: [M4M] [Neighbours] [Daddy] [Good Boy [MDom] [Flirting] [Kissing] [Nipple Play] [Missionary] [Big Cock] [Breeding] [Soft Aftercare]
(art by reallycorking)
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En's Weekly Thoughts:
I'm honestly just a little bummed out today. There was a part of me that was bracing for impact so that I could expect this kind of eventuality, but I'm still a little bummed out nonetheless. I hope you all understand.
In other news I scheduled an interview with the dude who wrote all those books where he cooked with his own cum, again. You can give me questions to ask him here.
I'm sorry for being a little bleh today. I feel like that's reflected in my output of work, but I'm going to follow my own advice to just take it easy and not drive myself crazy and relax. I'll see you guys again next week. Happy jorkin', and take care of yourselves.
As always, catch me on Twitch being goofy 'cause that's where most of my attention (outside of my 9-5 job) goes.
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Special Thanks
Overlords: Elvellia | Riosjude
Supremes: Alastor Trinh | Josh Bautista | Nani | Nexus | Sleepy Seaweed | Vade Vafurous
2024-11-06 20:13:18 +0000 UTC
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Summary: I was cleaning my room and found an old toy I hadn't used in a while...
Tags: [M4A] [Ramblefap] [Masturbation] [Moaning] [No Talking] [Impromptu] [Real Orgasm]
(art by celeryman)
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En's Weekly Thoughts:
Someone asked me on stream yesterday for some advice on how to grow as a streamer, and I'm always very happy to oblige any requests when it comes to people who are new to this stuff asking for tips. My main piece of advice for any kind of content creation is to go in with your eyes completely open. And this doesn't necessarily have to do anything with "growth" per se, as I think it's hard to contrive that kind of thing outside of doing the usual things of heavily networking and making content elsewhere.
The main thing I always say to people is to not forsake the kind of person you are because you think it'll help you grow in a certain way and make you more money, because that's not going to be sustainable and you'll just grow embittered and reluctant to make more content. Don't become someone you're not just to satisfy this undercurrent of an urge in believing that you're going to suddenly grow tenfold as a content creator just because you do something you're not usually comfortable doing.
I know most of you don't care about this because most of you are not fellow content creators, but this kind of applies to just life in general. Without generalizing too much or sounding too much like a doomer, I think times are extremely tough right now, and more people than ever are rightfully on edge. I was kind of spurred by a conversation I was having last night with a friend to really think about some other friends of mine who are growing alongside me in this streamer space, and it really feels like just life in general is making them lash out at things that, from my vantage point, seem very petty and small. And it makes me worry a little that they're not taking the time to really assess what's going on in their own lives and just think everyone else is out to get them.
I know that all sounds incredibly vague and like I'm dancing around a certain point. Maybe I'll actually talk about it more directly next week when I feel like I've thought about it some more. But for now, I need to go to a routine dental appointment and get back to work.
Luv ya'll. Take care of yourselves.
As always, catch me on Twitch being goofy 'cause that's where most of my attention (outside of my 9-5 job) goes.
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Special Thanks
Overlords: Elvellia | Riosjude
Supremes: Adriel Reinsley | Alastor Trinh | Josh Bautista | Nani | Nexus | Sleepy Seaweed | Vade Vafurous
2024-10-30 15:14:10 +0000 UTC
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I just posted this audio to the Discord. Be sure to join!
Script: Coldtofu
Summary: I catch you at a sex club, and decide to give you what you came for...
(art by ratatatat74)
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En's Weekly Thoughts:
I'm sitting in a work meeting literally right now with this picture of a giant boner above me as I pretend to pay attention to what my bosses and coworkers are saying. Anyway, how are you all doing? I've been on vacation for the past week and I felt super refreshed to want to work on stuff when I got back.
I have this idea in my head that, since I'm primarily known for being the gross-out guy on YouTube as well as that very loud and annoying Vtuber on Twitch, that I kind of want to develop this reputation where people can expect a different side of me wherever I go. I'm sure it's mostly just an ego thing of wanting other people to ultimately recognize me for my hard work, but I also just think I'm a little tired of being pigeon-holed into either of those two categories I mentioned above.
Do you think there's anything inherently wrong with me trying to achieve recognition in that kind of aspect? I'm always trying to round out everything I say in terms of all the ills in the world as being indicative of a greater problem of the sick capitalist society we live in that cares more about insulating the people at the very top rather than actually working towards the greater wellness of people in general, so I can recognize that there's something a little arrogant in wanting to carve out a niche in that context. But I really just think ultimately I want people to recognize me for being multi-faceted, and that that's ultimately just a human thing to want to be seen as.
I hope none of what I just said was overly flowery or made no sense. I'm just saying that it's a consistent kind of tension in my mind where I try to balance wanting to do something that I realize will be self-fulfilling for me with also trying not to be too much of someone who capitalizes on the power structures in this world that naturally disempower certain other people, 'cause I do recognize I am extremely privileged to be where I am. Like, there are plenty of other people with the same ambitions as I have that are more deserving -- who's to say it should be me? I don't know.
I should probably go back to focusing on this work meeting instead of pondering these things. I hope you all have a great week ahead. Luv y'all.
As always, catch me on Twitch being goofy 'cause that's where most of my attention (outside of my 9-5 job) goes.
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Special Thanks
Overlords: Elvellia | Riosjude
Supremes: Adriel Reinsley | Alastor Trinh | Josh Bautista | Nani | Nexus | Sleepy Seaweed | Vade Vafurous
2024-10-23 15:42:23 +0000 UTC
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Summary: Hey you. Take some time out of your day -- if only for a moment -- to cum and relax.
Tags: [M4A] [Ramblefap] [Masturbation] [Moaning] [No Talking] [Impromptu] [Real Orgasm]
(art by nayoshi_(r-744))
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En's Weekly Thoughts:
I know these "ramblefap" audios are a little on the shorter side but that's for a good reason this week especially -- I'm on vacation and I didn't want to leave you all hanging. Again, take some time out of your day, sit down, relax, focus on your breathing, and frantically jerk off. If only to relieve some stress.
My weekly thoughts this week are about people who do not like you for reasons you just cannot seem to reconcile. I've never personally subscribed to the belief I oftentimes heard of people saying "if you're not pissing someone off, then you're not doing anything right" because it comes off as so edgy and arrogant. But there are certainly people I've met in my content creation journey who seem to have this inexplicable hatred for me when I've barely interacted with them, or those who need to control my attention in that they get upset when I don't give them any. It's the most bizarre thing.
I tend to find that, even when I've done everything to remove myself from being around such people, they still crop up every now and then just by virtue of the internet being community-based and people having smaller circles than they realize. The best I can always do is just mind my own business and move on, but that doesn't guarantee that I won't run into people like that again in the future.
I think if I had any practical advice to give to people and especially fellow content creators it's to truly try not to stew in pettiness when you encounter these kinds of people in your own lives. Keep busy with the circle of friends you do trust and care about, and focus on your own work. All these people care about is the endless cycle of drama and negative feedback that comes from you interacting with them. Focus on yourselves and the people in your lives who need help.
Anyway that's all for this week. Luv y'all. Happy jorkin'.
As always, catch me on Twitch being goofy 'cause that's where most of my attention (outside of my 9-5 job) goes.
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Special Thanks
Overlords: Elvellia | Riosjude
Supremes: Adriel Reinsley | Alastor Trinh | Josh Bautista | Nani | Nexus | Sleepy Seaweed | Vade Vafurous
2024-10-16 16:00:05 +0000 UTC
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Script: Coldtofu
Summary: I come home to find you on the bed, and today you’re asking me for something different...
Tags: [M4F] [Boyfriend] [MDom] [Taunting] [Kitty] [Teasing] [Domination] [Choking] [Kissing] [Spanking] [Cunnilingus] [Doggystyle] [Dirty Talk] [Breeding] [Extremely Warm Aftercare]
(art by gotou kenji)
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En's Weekly Thoughts:
Look at me somehow getting my audio for the week done even when work is especially busy.
How have you all been? I don't particularly have anything to talk about this week. My stupid 3 hour video on YouTube is blowing up again and it's (bafflingly) led to a few people subbing here from over there. So if you're new here -- welcome! I know I come across as very mouthy but I promise I'm not at all an inflammatory person (towards anyone who doesn't deserve it, at least).
I really feel like I've just been kind of stagnating with my content lately. I've been working on projects that take forever to come to fruition because it involves lots of reading and writing and research, so I won't see any of the fruits of my labor until well into the new year. But I'm still enjoying myself nonetheless. And I hope you can take some time away from whatever you're doing today to jerk off or play games or whatever you do to relax, if only for a moment.
Anyway, luv y'all. Thank you again for being here.
As always, catch me on Twitch being goofy 'cause that's where most of my attention (outside of my 9-5 job) goes.
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Special Thanks
Overlords: Elvellia | Riosjude
Supremes: Adriel Reinsley | Alastor Trinh | Josh Bautista | Nani | Nexus | Sleepy Seaweed | Vade Vafurous
2024-10-09 18:11:02 +0000 UTC
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Script: Coldtofu
Summary: I serve you, Sir. One day you make a special request.
Tags: [M4M] [Master/Servant] [Sir] [Stripping] [Embarrassed] [Blowjob] [Deepthroat] [Gagging] [Fingering] [Doggystyle] [Breeding] [Aftercare]
(art by nayoshi_(r-744))
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En's Weekly Thoughts:
Despite the fact that I'm incredibly swamped both with work and content creation, I'm feeling pretty good about my life. You know how content creators oftentimes fall into the trap of getting too wrapped up in their numbers that it becomes reflective of their overall sense of well-being whenever they feel like they're doing poorly. I know for sure that I've been able to successfully extricate myself from that kind of mindset because I treat a lot of my projects as just fun little things I do on the side -- my life isn't over if I have a bad stream or I'm not as productive as I want to be, and I can take my time with these things and carve out my own path. I've come a long way in that sense since even just the beginning of this year.
This is the main reason why I'm always actively discouraging a lot of people from taking up content creation, and I'm sure (once again) I'm repeating myself because it's a topic that crops up in my mind very frequently. I'm lucky enough that I'm older so that I've already (mostly) figured who I am and what my values are, and I feel like I just notice so many friends of mine who are still figuring that stuff out just by virtue of not actually living their lives outside of school or work. When you mix in being a community leader who's trying to make content based on personality, I feel like you just lose a lot of opportunities to really reflect properly without being sucked into the web of doing things for the sake of content.
As of next month it's going to be 4 years now since I first decided to take the plunge into streaming. It's been one of the best decisions I've ever made in my life because it completely changed me as a person and made me a lot more ambitious. But I'm still wary of how much a lot of this stuff isn't real. What matters at the end of the day is connection with other people -- a true connection rooted in mutual understanding and warmth and empathy. I'm not trying to sound corny here when I say that. I will always want to remind people (especially friends of mine in this space that are younger than me) that there is more to life than making content. And I hope you're able to find time for yourself in that regard.
As always, catch me on Twitch being goofy 'cause that's where most of my attention (outside of my 9-5 job) goes.
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Special Thanks
Overlords: Elvellia | Riosjude
Supremes: Adriel Reinsley | Alastor Trinh | Josh Bautista | Max | Nani | Nexus | Sleepy Seaweed | Vade Vafurous
2024-10-02 17:57:52 +0000 UTC
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I just posted this audio to the Discord. Be sure to join!
Script: Coldtofu
Summary: You ask for a massage, and I take the opportunity to test my luck…
(art by Junsei Chuurenpoutou)
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En's Weekly Thoughts:
I'm back from Twitchcon, and I'm absolutely exhausted. I have a little fitness watch that I wear to make sure I'm moving around enough on the daily, and I ended up walking at least 22,000 steps each day that I was there, which is about 11 miles / 17.6 km. My feet were so sore they felt irradiated, I was mostly drinking alcohol instead of water and also not properly eating enough food so I was dehydrated and crabby, but I had the best time. It was wonderful seeing friends, and I wouldn't trade my time there for anything.
One thing I've learned this year over last year is to not spread myself thin. There are lots of people that I didn't properly get to say hi to this year. Usually I would feel really bad about that but I'm also realizing that it's not like I won't have other chances or like I wasn't doing my own thing. It's definitely a tendency I have in my real-life too that I'm trying to shake off, which is that I try to make time for literally everybody who's offering that I end up not having actual time for myself or the direct people in my life.
I don't feel sick like I did last year, and I certainly am not excessively coughing or losing my voice as I did then either. But I'm just so very physically tired. This time, though, it's in a way where I feel really good for having spent time with the lovely people that I did. I'm already looking forward to next year.
Not much in the way of stuff I would like to ruminate about this week, so I hope you're all well. I can't believe it's going to be October soon already. Luv y'all.
As always, catch me on Twitch being goofy 'cause that's where most of my attention (outside of my 9-5 job) goes.
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Special Thanks
Overlords: Elvellia | Riojude
Supremes: Adriel Reinsley | Alastor Trinh | John Bautista | Max | Nani | Nexus | Sleepy Seaweed | Vade Vafurous
2024-09-25 15:27:00 +0000 UTC
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Summary: It's late at night after a long day at work. I'm tired but I want to jerk off. Why don't you join me?
Tags: [M4A] [Ramblefap] [Masturbation] [Moaning] [No Talking] [Impromptu] [Countdown] [JOI]
(art by kukumomo)
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En's Weekly Thoughts:
I'm off to Twitchcon tomorrow. It promises to be a fun time because, again, it's the only time of year I get to see some of my Internet friends. I'm a little worried mostly because I'm generally not a person who likes being in big crowds and around too many people, but I'm excited nonetheless.
I had a stream yesterday where I invited anybody who was subscribed to my channel to hop in a voice call and chat about anything for a couple of minutes. I do this kind of stream every couple of weeks, but I particularly enjoyed it yesterday because I feel like there were several moments when certain subjects were brought up and I was just really proud to be around so many people who shared the same values as I do when it comes to fostering an inclusive community.
There has been a lot of unfortunate shit that's happened to me over the past couple of years of me being a streamer where I've had to deal with bigots and incels harassing me because I make no compromise when it comes to harboring those kinds of people, and without making myself into too much of a martyr, it sucks to be in any kind of situation where you feel like you're arguing for something so basic as human decency, especially when it comes to the rights and safety of underprivileged people. But yesterday's stream really reaffirmed in me that I'm headed in the right direction, and that there will always be good and righteous people who will stand by you even if you feel like you're just shoveling shit against the tide.
With that said, I hope you're all fighting the good fight, finding some time to jerk off to relieve some stress if that's your fancy, and generally taking care of yourselves. It's just a quick audio this week because, again, I'm prepping for a weekend of socializing that I'm not ready for.
Luv y'all.
As always, catch me on Twitch being goofy 'cause that's where most of my attention (outside of my 9-5 job) goes.
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Special Thanks
Overlords: Elvellia | Riosjude
Supremes: Adriel Reinsley | Alastor Trinh | Josh Bautista | Max | Nani | Nexus | Sleepy Seaweed | Vade Vafurous
2024-09-18 14:31:57 +0000 UTC
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Script: Coldtofu
Summary: We’re out on our first official date, and I want it to be the first of many.
Sequel to: "Blowing me in the Locker Room" and "Fucking You in the Locker Room" and "Getting Sweaty Together in the Park"
Tags: [M4M] [Arcade Date] [Wholesome] [Flirting] [Adorable] [Kissing] [Missionary] [Cuddling] [Confession] [Asking to be Your Boyfriend] [Happy Ending]
(art by namekaho)
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En's Weekly Thoughts:
How often do you build up a moment in your head to the point where it actually happens and you don't even feel anything as it's happening and then it's over before you know it and you're almost kind of... disappointed.
That was me with a big work meeting I had just now. Literally nothing bad happened, but I kept imagining a small little impediment would occur and I wouldn't be able to get my work done.
I don't have much to share this week. That stupid 3 hour video I made on YouTube has been making the rounds again which is exciting. I'm also fighting a very, very low-grade fever from getting vaccinated. That's about it. I hope you're all well and taking care. I'm excited for TwitchCon.
As always, catch me on Twitch being goofy 'cause that's where most of my attention (outside of my 9-5 job) goes.
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Special Thanks
Overlords: Elvellia | Riosjude
Supremes: Adriel Reinsley | Alastor Trinh | Max | Nani | Nexus | Sleepy Seaweed | Vade Vafurous
2024-09-11 19:28:02 +0000 UTC
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Script: Coldtofu
Summary: We match through a hookup app, but I’m a little inexperienced. Could you take the lead?
Tags: [M4F] [Hookup] [MSub] [Strangers to Lovers] [Nervous Speaker] [Awkward] [Cute] [Adorable] [Lots of Kissing] [Whimpering] [Nipple Play] [Cunnilingus] [Cowgirl] [Cuddling]
(art by shpo)
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En's Weekly Thoughts:
It's about two weeks until I get to meet some of my silly Internet friends for Twitchcon. I know there's hardly any overlap between the people who are subscribed here and the people who support my streams (trust me, you're not missing much if you're just here to listen to my moans). But are any of you going?
Aside from it being the one time a year I get to see my online friends, I mostly also like going to Twitchcon to network with other streamers. It's funny how with having gone for the last two years, my conversations with my streamer mutuals at these events always reroute themselves into gossiping about other people, whether they've wronged us or any kind of info we've heard about their alleged poor behavior.
I've taken little steps here and there to kind of separate myself from the community I'm largely associated with (Vtubers) because I find that it's just largely un-creative and infantilizing, but it's still nevertheless the community I've found my following in. With that said, I used to think that our conversations at these conventions would always devolve into gossip because there weren't a lot of people in our day-to-day lives as Vtubers and streamers that could relate to our particular stressors. And while that's certainly the case for the most part, I also feel like I've become less charitable in my view of why we have these conversations -- a lot of people just like the high drama of shit-talking other people, and a lot of these same people are just too unaware of themselves to not walk around like their own shit doesn't stink. I'm honestly too old for that shit.
I know that sounds cynical and mean but I'm coming from a place of being fed up with a lot of people in the Vtuber community, and I'm trying my best to just prioritize myself instead of just angling for the attention of people I wouldn't even be friends with in real life if given the opportunity. I would much rather prefer to just talk about how things are going in our individual lives rather than idle, mean-spirited chatter about random people I don't even care about. I'm hoping I can accomplish that this year, and I'm hoping all of you are able to make that discernment in your lives as well.
In any case, I hope you're all well.
As always, catch me on Twitch being goofy 'cause that's where most of my attention (outside of my 9-5 job) goes.
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Special Thanks
Overlords: Elvellia | Riosjude
Supremes: Adriel Reinsley | Alastor Trinh | Max | Nani | Nexus | Sleepy Seaweed | Vade Vafurous
2024-09-04 18:10:50 +0000 UTC
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