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On my way...

to Romania to see my father. First time in 2 years I'm able to go . Luckily my brother is accompanying me and drove us to the airport 4 hours away from my home. He is also carrying all my stuff because unfortunately the pain and dizziness haven't  eased  since Paris. There is so much noise in the airport and it's so hot (33°C) My body is struggling a bit (a lot) I can't wait to be in my bed in my father's home :) It was just a post to tell you not to worry if you don't read many news ...

Small WIP

Hello my dear patrons.

I did not recovered well from Paris ... Exhaustion and burning pain are still very high especially after I walk or try to do anything else than just sitting down . I'm reading and reading stuff trying to find more solutions to get better without success and my moral isn't at his best at the moment even if I won't say I'm depressed because I'm not. Just so frustrated... and disapointed because I didn't expect a backlash at all.

Anyway , I told you a few days a...

Recap part 3 ( health and old bonus)

Hello m y dear readers and thank you for your patience . I'm sorry for the delay.

But the pain, oh my god the pain... It makes me so frustrated because I don't know what to do to sooth it besides all the treatments and therapies I'm already following.. I guess I'm having a pretty bad backlash after these 4-5 days of almost normal life.

All my muscles  are burning and so heavy. I tried to get good nights of sleep, and I did but it didn't change a thing. When I wake up it's like...

Almost 10 years !

Tonight I stumbled upon old pics of my first  Alice cosplay and decided to put them side by side to see the differences.

Obviously both pictures are pretty bad quality XD ,.
I did the second dress, the first one was from an online store.
The wig is the same on both pics and ahahaha I think it aged almost more than I did XD .
Not putting any lipstick anymore when I'm cosplaying a young person .
I had blue lenses which looks best from closer but I can't wear any lens anymor...

Cosplay plans

Hello my dear patrons!

Well , yes because now my Tinkerbell's costume is done I need to find some motivation to finish Harley Quinn and start Toulouse from the Aristocats.

I'm looking for easy costumes to wear ideas to adapt to my condition . Harley is not easy to wear at all, heels, makeup, tatoos, I don't believe I could wear this for a conv, way too exhausting but I started it, I'll finish it.

Toulouse will be a humanized cosplay, more like the Pinocchio costume we shot...

Recap part 2

Fiuuu today was tough. Non stop pain, pain everywhere , I wonder how much time I'll need to recover ( as much as I can recover) from these 4 days. Anyway, here is a summary of the Saturday.

I decided to go as Arale which is easy to wear , I know my wig is not accurate but to tell the truth I wasn't aiming for a look alike contest or even any photoshoot.


Is there is only one wip you need to see it's this one ,
the birth of Poop:

2018-07-13 18:59:46 +0000 UTC View Post

Recap first part

Hello hello !

So today , I'm feeling good enough to start the summary of the past 2 weeks.

Yesterday was like I was going 4 months back in time with annoying neurological troubles , paresthesia, dizziness, mental breakdown (I wasn't even sad) and of course pain and exhaustion. But on the afternoon I went to  my neurofeedback session (which works on the brain) and felt slightly better after that. I guess it worked because today my brain is keeping steady.

Today is just t...

No recap today

Because I feel like I'm dying. I didn't miss this feeling. Tomorrow will be better. See you soon.

Going Home

Hello everyone. Hope you are okay ! I'm actually in the train heading back home. I'm going to make a full recap of the past 5 days with lots of pics when I'm home and fully rested. There were a lot of fun but also some frustrating moments But the best wins over the bad and I'm happy I decided to confront my fears and go. Happy happy happy :) Take care, see you soon.! 😚😚

Thoughts

I'm just about to leave my home and I can't help but being worried. I'm tired, I still have bad pain in my gallbladder and the lymph nods in my neck hurt and are swollen( it's like having the flu) It's not like I'm not used to it obviously, but usually I stay quiet at home and just rest until it gets better.  I'm worried I'm pushing myself too much too quickly and that I won't be able to do what I planned during this week end.

I know I shouldn't think about it but since this morning ...

Just a quick little video and program

Being silly with a dinosaure before going to Paris Tomorrow.


What is coming up ?:

-On Friday : Disneyland ! I haven't been there for 3 years. I hope I'll meet some old colleagues and friends!
Past Monday, when I was waiting my train over there, I didn't have time to go visit the parc but just being in the place brought back a lot of emotions !

I was shaking and I'm pretty sure I'm gonna cry when I enter the park.  Because yes, I loved my job over there despite not eve...

:3

I believe I didn't post that one 😅 My friend Zecouzu cosplay has got THE perfect face for Kame senin/ master Roshi

Back home

Hey hey there! Well apparently I wasn't invited to a baptism but to a surprise wedding ^^,,, ( they also did the baptism but the big thing was the wedding) I was so happy to meet people I hadn't see for more than 2 years. I was extremely pleased to be invited to the wedding also. My friends never let me down and kept inviting me like I had asked to. I'm so glad they did ^^. I thought I would implode of contentment . The week end went pretty well except some difficult times with the food (act...

Getting ready for the week end

On Friday I'm taking the train to go on the opposide side of my country. Friends invited me for their little girl's baptism. I'm happy and a bit worried at the same time. Happy because I'm finally going on a trip of my own after 2 years of not going anywhere by myself, I'm happy because I'll see my friends , because it will be sunny, because it will be a lot of fun, because I love traveling by myself, and I'm a bit worried because my right side ( biliary ducts as usual) hurts a lot and I hope...

What you, my dear Patrons want to see:

 If I heard you well : 

 - interactions with little Pitchoune 

-More Bulma pics

    What else would you like to see ?( in the range of my capacities obviously. )

   Sadly since yesterday I'm not in the condition I was for the past week. I believe I pushed myself a bit  too much physically (walking around, editing pictures, receiving friends, almost not sleeping because I increased my  LDN intake ) and...

Q&A video. :)

What with that habit of mine to put "s" to the end of words or names, even those that aren't plural XDD.???


Anyway , I forgot a few points  in the video because I was too focused on trying to speak English which is not an easy exercise for my mushy brain  XD

Here are some additions to my replies :

Geekdings, concerning failure in cosplay : I usually know I won't succeed making a costume in one go and I don't mind starting over and over until I get the result I'm look...

I heard your questions and...

I'll prepare a little something ^^. I'm waiting just a little bit more before starting in case people want to add their contribution. :)

Q&A video?

Let's enjoy the fact that I'm feeling better at the moment. What would you think of me answering some of your questions through a small video ? Well, if you have questions for me, obviously ^^,,.

I won't reply to anything too intimate but other than that, just let me know :)

Feeling happy

Because life is beautiful despite all the pain and trials ! Never give up hope!

edit Nov 2019 Photoshoot Bulma + Roshi Complete photoshoot

With my friend @zecousu on instagram

Edit 2019 Pinocchio photoshoot complete + new pics

Just some backstage pics :)

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Tinkerbell edit Nov 2019 : complete photoshoot + more pictures

I started this costume 3 years ago. Just before getting too sick and keeped working on it slowly when my body would allow it. Sometimes I though I wouldn't not recover enough to wear it.I had it hanging on my door in my room and often looked at it imagining the day I would wear it. I have a story with Tinkerbell. When I was working as a character at Disneyland Paris , I was dying to get a fitting to be a Tink and Alice face character. But they never allowed me to even try. I have been told I wa...

Good news

Hello my dear Patrons. I did not post anything the 2 first weeks of June because I wasn't feeling well at all and just stayed sporadically on Insta. (Sadly It still happens and I had a lot of blood tests to do.) But I have been better for about a week now so I have the opportunity to enjoy the visit of my friend Ladylili Cosplay. I'm still increasing the dose of thst miraculous medication called LDN and I'm getting better at handling the sides effects. I have more energy than the past month...

Not feeling well

My dear Patrons. Sorry for not updating. I haven't been feeling good lately. I guess, no remedy is a miracle. I hope I'll be better soon even just to post selfies or quick WIP.
Take care.

Judy Hopps Edit Nov 2019 more pictures

Somebody asked  for more Judy hopps pictures^^.

So here they are !


Not very good quality I'm afraid but now that I know my camera was broken, I get why all my pictures were blurry ( and I had to edit all of them)

I also had to work with a bad makeup brand ! Next time it should be all fixed^^  

( my  Canon EF-S 18-55mm f/3.5-5.6 is not of very good quality either but now my 50mm f/1.8 is at least functional !...) 

Ho!!! And I also had f...

Fairy wings WIP part 2

Finally, months after the first part  I could finish  this ! Now, well, I have to wear the full thing!  (  by the way, the white ugly thingy at the base of the wings will be stuck in the costume, it's not for the eyes to see ^^)

For the lights I used christmas tinsels XD

first part video was here :

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wXOgIE6jEwA&t=21s

Tired selfie

Just some selfies

The past 2 days have been tough. Going through tachycardia all the time and sever panic attacks. 

It has finally calmed down today because I didn't take anything last night but I feel it's still there and Im exhausted. 

I believe it's a side effect of taking LDN. My body isn't ready to handle more than the minimal dose ( I should say even less than the minimal dose ) 'cause each time I tried to reach I.5 mg, which is the smallest dose , I noticed my heart rate speeding and havi...

I just want to let you know....

That I  used a part of the last month's Patreon money I received to buy a backdrop for an upcoming photoshoot with my friend Lady Lili cosplay !


I used a part of it for COSPLAY, not for my HEALTH.


Can you believe it ??