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Show style Julien --

Been wanting to do this for a long while, mostly to prove to myself that I can lol
I've been feeling- not good lately.

It's the usual creator stuff, don't feel motivated/inspired, that my work is terrible, jealous of my friends own work, that old chestnut. 😑

So I opened clipstudio paint and just went for it. No thoughts, just move your hand and don't stop until your satisfied.

And yeah, I guess I am. I mean, I love my style, it' simple and sleek, at least I think it is!  😅
But I know if I wanted to draw a pic, let alone a sequence, like this, it would take ages! I mean, I wouldn't want to leave out any details because I would want it show accurate 😱

I kinda want to draw the girls this way tho, closest I'll get to seeing them that way lol

I mean, it's mostly the fur texture that is the most work, other than that the style is rather plain. My 2D style was created by studying 2D Dreamworks animation I mean, Julien's eyes are so plain! He needs his lashes 😭

CSP is still a trial for me, so I have to crop and past since I can't save in the program, just like old times XD

Color commission for a friend --

A while back I posted this as inks only but recently my friend decided he would have liked it in color!

Lately I haven't been feeling inspired when I work in SAI, so I'm currently hopping from all my art programs messing with new things and trying to find a new way to do things.

So I colored this in Medibang, I really liked the brushed I used, especially the shading on the hair, it was a fun experiment!

Doing another commission for the same friend this month, only work I plan to do for the rest of the year! Really want to focus on my AUs and such. :>

I don't know anything about the characters, they're used for tabletop RP and I know they exist as actual characters from franchises but that's about all I know lol

AU comic - options and anger --

Me: I'm just going to mindlessly doodle to get back into it.

Also me: ANGST. EMOTIONAL PROJECTION. Baby Lilith.

I was talking to a friend and, as much as I love the senseless, passionate fucking between Uncle and Julien, I love them coming together to form a family over angst and abandonment. 

I've been working on the Kowalski leaving Julien for Doris AU for years lol
It didn't really become an outlet for me until I experienced the same thing, lucky for me I never had children, but all the same investing your life into someone and being discarded so easily is - it's a real terrible thing.

And with the introduction of Julien's family and history with his kingdom it added more to the simple story I started with.

It's both painful and healing to vent like this, which I know full well I clung to Uncle when I left, and I know a lot of people miss Kowalski/Julien but, right now this is def my jam.

Gunna try for smut next lol
Something mindless to enjoy X3

Bondage King --

Anyone else read Bondage Faeries? 

I loved that comic series, it was one of the first I stumbled upon in 2000 and I've always come back to read through it throughout the years.

That's what happened recently and I really wanted to draw Julien wearing something lol
Also! I really missed filling in blacks, just- adding that simple shade and highlight, good times.

I want to draw him in more outfits, I'm slowly getting back to drawing and - thank you all for your patience with me! 🙏

Why I don't post to FA --

I'm pretty sure I know who this is, it's an account that was created only yesterday to post this to my most recent journal.

Posting here to keep everything like this in one place for future reference. 🤷‍♀️

In all honesty I was expecting this, lots of people through out the years really don't like me and I guess this is mean? Like my dad didn't know my work lol

These are always funny because it's lines on paper or in a program, oh no! SIN lol My dad raised me better than to let things like this hurt me, I've been through hell, this is just childish.

They shared their age on this account so I'm 90% sure I know who it is, that's on them, really shows their character. 

So from now on I really don't think I'll post to FA, I might start using my Inkbunny account, still looking into making a subscribestar, implementing my kofi account more, and using discord for NSFW if Patreon gets dumber about it.

To everyone that supports me, has helped me through all these tough times, as patrons and friends, thank you. You mean the world to me and I really hope after this sad and depressive air has lifted over me I plan to create like the wind! I run on spite and sweet tea. 

Love you all! 💖🥰

Try before you buy --

I thought I would try out Clip Studio Paint, it's pretty popular and right now it's 50% off, so I figured I would give it a go before I spent any money.

The only thing I really like about it was the colored pencil tool, really great for sketching, but once I moved onto inking and coloring I just gave up.

The work space didn't feel comfortable to me and even with all the various pens and pencils nothing really jumped out at me. I feel like medibang has a much friendlier interface, in my opinion. 

I guess I'm so accustomed to SAI, Medibang, and even Firealpaca for everything I need. I know a ton of people swear by CSP but, for a first time messing with it, it's not for me unless I do more research about it.

See you guys soon! I'm trying to finish up the next page for Folksy Wisdom, draft more pages, and work on some pin ups and fun stuff! 

Le sigh on Patreon

The updated community guidelines are going to get me eventually, I can't even mention anything of an "adult" nature in the text boxes anymore.

I have seen a few other options like Subscribestar and such as alternatives to Patreon when it comes to furry/adult material.

Let me know what you all think, I love and appreciate you guys so much, you're support and input means a ton to me! I spent the last few weeks even trying to address this.

It didn't help that a mistake was made with my medication and psychiatrist leaving me currently in a rough state. First a week without my meds and withdrawal, which paxil/paroxitine withdrawal is rough as hell, might as well off yourself.

Then for some reason no one at the office was willing to help me except for a super sweet lady who worked the pharmacy, at one point my doctor's assistant was even telling me I missed my appointments and I lost it. I had not and felt at this point they were legit gas lighting me, even when I eventually spoke to my doctor she said we hadn't seen each other in five months when we had seen each other in June!

So I finally got my medication, I had a complete meltdown of all the varieties, because if you've ever had a medication withdrawal you feel everything 10x worse, you have no way to not feel. Anger? you're going to break something or even hurt yourself. Sadness? I was a crying screaming mess. I even called the emergency line and all they told me was to go to the ER... the ER. 

Sigh, I speak to my councilor on Monday and, jesus, I left such a manic message but like, I feel like I was put into a situation that was easily avoidable. I never miss my appointments and if I do I call to reschedule, always. 

Sorry I'm oversharing again, I'm still adjusting, it will take about a month for the medication to cycle through me properly and- it's enraging that it even happened and I was essentially blamed for it. 

I hope everyone is doing well, please take care of yourselves and find time to unwind and refresh your minds and bodies.   💖😘

A comic remake maybe -

Yes!
I wanted to actually finish a short comic. 🤣

I've never done comic thumbnails ever and figured I would give it a try for this project. It's meant to be a remake of an old comic I did years ago called 'Taken'. 

But it's been reworked, gone is the non-con/dubcon elements, all that's left is consent and a good time had by all!

I'm aiming for less than 20 pages, I really want to work on something somewhat mindless and fun, I won't start inking or anything until all the thumbnails are up, I hear that makes it easier lol

Heads up for August --

August is the one time of the year where I'm fucked up beyond belief.

As much as I try sometimes the depression and PTSD get the better of me and I'm a selectively mute depressed mess who can't stand the thought of being alive.

I'll do my best but it's been a rough start.

Hurricane Hannah aftermath --

So sorry for lack of updates!

Hurricane Hannah sent us a ton of rain!
Unfortunately my mom's home flooded, again.

Tho we were better prepared this time, we were able to elevate furniture, prepare our pets and keep them safe, and we packed and hunkered down at my sister's home, where it didn't flood but the power did go out.

We've been cleaning up since the water receded and I'm exhausted. 

I'm hoping to go into August with less stress and draw something lol

Thank you all so much for your patience! 🙇🏽‍♀️🙏🏽

New avatar!

About time I think lol

I spent some time on this last night for my new pillowfort account. 

You know, I hide behind a lot of my favorite characters a lot, like Julien, Starscream, Snufkin, and even Varian. It's because I have no sense of self love and very little self esteem, meanwhile I think all these characters are beautiful and strong.

Well I decided to fight all my learned self hatred and draw myself as cute as I wanted, without fear! Even drew my nose as accurately as I could, I have a big nose lol but it's my dad's nose too and I remember him telling me to never hate myself because I'm part of him and my mom and they love me.

Ah, I'm rambling! 😅

Enjoy!
And if you have a pillowfort account follow if you like, I plan to post Patreon posts once they are public 😘

Sketch - Swimsuit 2020 --

A whole month gone by! Get this King in a swimsuit!

I'm leaving this as a sketch for now and opening suggestions for swimwear!
What kind of swimsuit do you think Julien would rock? A simple yet stylish one piece?
A daring and bold bikini? Or anything in between!

I'll ink and color in the suggestions during a stream soon!
Also planning on a NSFW version of this lol 

I'm def going to ref some sunglasses tho, I tried to draw the ones he wears on the show but he probably gets gucci or something XD

Enjoy!
And send in those suggestions!

We might not be able to get to the beach but we can enjoy Julien doing so! 

Can I offer you a Snufkin --

In these trying times?

Tried to post this yesterday but Patreon was down.
Pretty much just venting my feelings.

I really like the rain and wish I could simply sit in it with a big hat, no glasses, I'm so tired of the damn things.

Need to talk to someone but at the same time don't want to. I purposefully ignored my counselors call today and slept for hours. Dreams helped a bit, a lot has been triggering me lately and knowing that this August marks tens years-- and losing my dad.

I'm angry, sad, frustrated. Just want to sleep. 

Help me Snufkin. 

It's pride month ya'll --

and Julien is making sure you know it!

Was kinda hesitant to draw- anything for pride month really, hah, I make myself nervous about it even though I really shouldn't.😅

You guys know how important Julien is to me, he's helped me through like, a lot of bad times, met and have some really great friends because of the PoM fandom, he helped me realize who I am and what I want out of life, he deserves all the rep man!✊🏼💖

By now I'm sure it's obvious that my Julien reps as a trans man, though I wasn't sure whether I wanted the rainbow on his tail, in the end I went with the pan flag. Feel it fits him better, Julien's all over the board with attraction no matter the gender, sex, or identity. He loves love baby.🥰😍 (I identify as panromantic myself 🥰)

I hope everyone is safe and sound, the world is changing right now and that can be pretty scary, together we can help keep each other's spirits up and see ourselves through these times.😊

You're all wonderful! 😘

Sorry for being so --

Anxious and nervous lately.

I'm doing my best to overcome a lot of ingrained fears and panic over being more social online. Which I know sounds dumb, I feel so helpless with it all. I mean, I was really looking forward to streaming and chatting online with everyone but every time I tried I got so overwhelmed and afraid I couldn't.

Because he used to hurt me for it, I remember when the fandom was fresh and new, I was on skype every night that summer streaming, talking to everyone, making friends, and he hated that.

He would literally PHYSICALLY pull me away from my laptop, slam it shut in the middle of a stream, force me into the bedroom, and I know he isn't here, he can't do anything to me but my brain and fear is so.

I'm going to try though, when I do I might be super nervous and anxious, please be patient with me! I really do want to share drawing more and bounce around ideas, I want to create a community for us. 

In times like these I want to offer what I can the only way I know how and that's offering my friendship ya know.

Sorry I've been meaning to say something about why I haven't been on discord and I hope you all understand. It's so enraging that there are still parts of me that are barely beginning to heal and issues barely being brought to light.

I am so grateful for everyone of you here, thank you so much for your continued support and friendship!😭

New banner incoming --

I followed the dimensions the site said to use and it still cut off some of the image lol

So here it is posted for all to see.

Finally a new banner after 10,000 years 🤣
Will be public since my name is literally huge on it, if anyone claims as they're own then- a dumbass they be. 😁

Hope you guys like it, I really love it, you know you're gurl love some Julien booty and pinks! 💖😍

A Lemur Kowalski --

Such an old concept, wow!

Like, ten years ago, when the PoM community was bumping on the regs, a friend of mine wrote a fic where Kowalski accidentally became a lemur and had to adjust to the changes AND living in the lemur habitat lol

Only this time around my concept is basically that Uncle teases Kowalski during threesome time, showing off how he can finger Julien, eat him out better, touch better, kiss deeper! 😍

So Kowalski takes the initiative and decides to turn himself into a lemur, using science!

I've been working on lemur!Kowalski on and off for years, my skills weren't so great back then but I'm actually happy with how he turned out. Gave him some unique features, tied in some of the girls features too, I super love the like, bridge of his nose? Never seen another lemur with that. 😊

I want to do a 15-20 page comic of this concept, mostly smut based with a dash of love you no matter what. Uncle's there too, lol jealous and frankly upset that this was even possible lol

Had a lot of fun doodling these, I have to remember to share my concepts more, I'm so used to being closed off and keeping ideas secret 😓

Well enjoy everyone, I hope you like it! 😅

Comic - Folksy Wisdom pg. 53 --

Oh boy three a.m. time to post!

I've been meaning to post this page for a while but was dreading having to letter it, I finally managed to keep focus long enough to do it. XD

I really love how this page turned out, the Timo cameo, Kowalski's excitement, Julien just casually dropping the knowledge, it's so much fun. 😄

Hopefully I can keep pace with doing two pages or so at a time, I'm really excited for what comes next! Hope everyone one enjoys! 😘

Comic - Folksy Wisdom pg. 52 --

Ahh, finally another finished page!

I've been so stressed these past few days, I found a white hair!😱
Really just want to work on personal projects, I think after this last big commission I owe I'm going on commission hiatus.

I have so many ideas and all my motivation wants to go into working on Folksy Wisdom and other smaller comics ideas and stories. 🤗

Please enjoy this page, working on the next one, which I hope gets finished soon. 😎

Moomin - One's a little creepy --

I drew this the other night to illustrate how I see the two most popular versions of Snufkin.

I didn't grow up with the 90's version, I only became familiar with it during the Moomin boom of last year, which led to me watching it eventually.

2019 Moominvalley Snufkin is the first Snufkin I was introduced to, again because of the Moomin boom, it's like when someone asks who your favorite Doctor is, and with me it was who I watched first. It's Ten for me btw lol

I adore 2019 Snufkin, he's very  relatable  and has the sweetest voice, he's much more emotional and feels more human.

But when I watch 90's Snufkin he's very aloof and comes off as too stoic, he has his moments of attachment and kindness but- I guess he's more dominating than his recent iteration. 

I also have some uneasiness associated with 90's Snufkin because of some very violent fanfics I stumbled upon when I first joined the fandom, of course that's not really his fault but I'm weary of both him and the Joxter now lol

Well it's only how I feel, I enjoy them both! But I honestly do favor 2019 Snufkin <3

Sorry for all the Moomin stuff lately, it's sort of venty and 100% for my own enjoyment. XD

Streaming news --

My wifi these past few days has been blipping in and out of existence!

I'm going to try and see if I can fix that, or at least make it better, I don't want anything to randomly stop while I'm with you guys. ;w;

 https://discord.gg/SA6U32

But there is the invite link, let me know if it works or not, it expires in a a day so I'll update that as it needs to be. :>

Thank you for your patience! <3 

A discord group?

Would anyone be interested in chatting on discord while I stream?

It would be Patreon exclusive and, uh, if you like the idea of talking to me while I stream let me know! I'll do my best to stream during the day, my sleep schedule is absolutely knackered but I can do it!

Let me know!
Hope everyone is staying safe! <3  

Perky Persephone bust --

OH!

Persephone, the slight changes work so good on her! They're subtle but really bring her look together, especially the inner ear color, it really works well with her color scheme and help her eyes pop more too!

I always had the canon that Persy was just a bit shiny, a trait she inherited from Kowalski, she just has naturally shiny, healthy fur. Lilith isn't jealous one bit, nope lol

Pers has also gone through a few changes relating to her interests and self worth. She's still very stubborn and always looking for a fight but has some doubts about how her father seems to have more of a connection with  Lilith than her. 

She knows she's smart in her own way but isn't smart like them, as she reaches her teen years it really weighs on her, Julien being the only one she can open up to and have understand. 

I plan to draw it all out, I really want to show Persephone off more, she deserves it.

I also kinda scrapped the Skipper love interest, at least for the main canon, I want to focus more on her character growth and sort of pour my own insecurities with my own father into her lol It's not bad, I swear! It's going to be great. ^^;

Sketch - Folksy Wisdom pg.53 --

You can tell I was easing back into everything by this point because the expressions are much better! 😁

We also get a cameo from Timo!
Julien is one of those- I'm only going to learn something if it benefits me- types. And he really wants to learn how to wield things like, electricity and power tools, good thing for most everyone involved he gained more information if anything.

But still- better keep him away from circuit boxes and gardening tools.😮

And Kowalski is impressed!😏
If anything this is MY knowledge level and isn't going to get very deep, just enough to tease out Julien's inner nerd and gain a deeper connection with Kowalski.😅

 DNA is basic right? Like even Julien knows squirrel+otter not 100% DNA match. 

Again, during inking some text or expressions might change, but I really like how this page came out so far. 😘

Sketch - Folksy Wisdom pg. 52 --

Yo, dis is what you all came to see!

I forced the zone, I am going to finish this comic. 😎

We're getting a lot more blushing and slow realization of attraction going on, it's gunna go full blown, we'll get there.

Kowalski is still being awkward 🤷🏼‍♀️
Julien is starting to show real excitement 🤩

It's going as planned. 

Kowalski came out great in that last panel, a few expressions or text may change before it's finished but I'm liking it. 

Onto the next page! 

I need some input -

Ok, I'm working on drafting a few pages of Folksy Wisdom to get my groove back, for both drawing and working on comics, and I have written a very basic outline for the rest of the story and I -

Hmm, I have it that Julien isn't stupid, you know what I mean?

Since All Hail King Julien a lot has been changed in the comic outline, I wanted to add that canon because Julien is shown to be much more capable and intelligent, and that fits into my headcanon that he essentially 'acts' stupid because people already have preconceived notions of him outside of Madagascar. 

In this coming part he expresses excitement at using the lov-u-lator and wants to know Kowalski's process, how does it work? What factors even lead to finding the perfect partner based on DNA? That's nutso! 

I mean, I think he would know and retain the basic scientific method, he went to school, knows how to read and write, and had Timo as a friend back home, he has to have retained some of that knowledge, whether he realizes it or not.

And he's been shown to enjoy the whole process, making things, how does this work, he just does it in a Julien way. This will be shown in a flashback for the reader!

Kowalski on the other hand- he's more of a numbers guy. He can't read or write, mostly works in chemicals and mathematics, and of course, fantasy mad scientist rules.

I guess I want to know if it would be believable, yeah? 

And it's also meant to be humorous in this scene for Julien to school Kowalski, only to then revert back to his aloof self, mostly out of habit but also as a way to cope and reel himself back in.

Oh man, this got long! Sorry!

Let me know what you all think!

I'm so upset

I spent all that ime last night finishing a page that was laready done! Fuck man

Little Lilith bust --

Last night my PC and drawing tablet were lagging hella badly and it really freaked me out.

So I restarted, which seemed to fix the problem, but let me tell you, I was terrified that something was wrong or broken. ;A;

After testing the tablet out to make sure it was working well, after re-calibration, I doodled this little Lilith. 

I love my Kowalski/Julien kids, they're my kids and drawing them relaxes me so much. <3

A few things were done differently, I like the idea of the girls having heart shaped noses, it feels more unique and could be a trait they get from Kowalski. I also tried some- how do I say it, you know the lion guard? I love the fur texture fluff thing they do with like, ear rims and secondary colors, so I tried that here.

I like that too, a good example is the inner ear color. Because Julien's family has that and I always simplified it but adding it like this looks really good. And the little fur stroke on the eyes and chest, very nice!

Hope you guys like it, not sure if the little changes will be permanent but let me know what you all think. <3

Comic - Folksy Wisdom pg. 51 --

EDIT: WHAT?? THIS PGAE WAS ALREADY DONE???! IT wasn't in my files!?! UGH, will make delete soon. 😭🤬

I seriously thought I had finished this page but I found it just needed to be lettered and let me tell you, it was hell.

Photoshop was not working with me, it was lagging terribly and no matter how slow I went or how hard I tried nothing was working with me. So I ended up having to use medibang and it was an absolute ordeal! So the speech bubbles and text might look different than usual.

It took over an hour. 

I need a better version of Photoshop.

Also, right now the story is finally moving on! New scenes, other characters, they are actually going to use the lov-u-lator! And I know this is already similar to something that happened earlier, but hang on with me, we are getting things done, you're gunna love it!

2020 is the year I finish this comic, watch me!

I hope you all enjoy!

Beastars AU - Anthro penguin?

This was hard.

I haven't been sleeping well at all and thanks to that, and mistakenly drinking a pepsi for breakfast, I managed to doodle a what-if to wrap my brain around.

I wasn't sure if Kowalski would be the same height as Julien or if he would be taller. I made him taller for humor's sake lol

The series/manga has shown ring-tailed lemurs and they are pretty small. A penguin tho, uhhh, I mean, they are technically carnivores and maybe Kowalski's height is another oddity? I have no idea. 😅

What do you guys think? 🤩

penguin handssss?