Cory Cowley

New Beginnings

Four days into the new year, and I already have a newfound sense of self. Oddly enough, I received my period a week early. What a strange, peculiar thing, indeed. For those of you who are new, blood is my source of joy, inspiration, and creativity. I do not stray from its appearance, smell, taste. It is us, at our source, and the reason why we are alive. If you’re sensitive to blood, please be cautioned. If you’re staying, thank you for understanding and respecting my admiration.

I ...

Glory Hole Fuckery

How can I not capture this genius behavior? 😂😂😂😂

“Glory Hole” Post-Edits

Super-hyped for these. I think I’ll get away with it, but I KNOW some dumbass is going to cry about how “offensive” it is.

Happy New Year, Patreon Family

In all seriousness, it’s been a ride. I can’t say it was the best year, but it was undoubtedly a fantastic one. I feel as if we’ve all grown together as a community, and more than myself—all I’ve ever wanted was to watch people connect.

I can’t really say I know the right words for tonight, but I’ll leave you all with this poem. I think, it’s how I feel. It’s how you all have given me hope, in a very mean, cruel and often unforgiving world.

Thank you for making...

So I Made a Glory Hole

Why the fuck am I like this? Um, not sure if people will even know if that’s the intent, but I don’t honestly care. I’ve been toying around with this idea for awhile, and I’m not sure if I’ll be flagged for it (even though I don’t think it’s that bad).

This isn’t a political statement, thought, or much else anything, really. I just wanted to make myself into something disturbing and weird.

I’ll edit these bad boys and show y’all the final edits.

Mother of Lost Things (Conceptual Looks)

Next month I fly to Georgia to film my first short film, Mother of Lost Things.

Paul, the director, and I had our first conversation over the phone about this character. She’s going to be earthly, yet, not? If that makes any sense. The wardrobe thus far is looking like a rough spun tunic and some sort of tattered hood. We’d also like to sew coins and rings into her wardrobe to connotate “finding things”.

I’ve done a few trial runs on her look, and honestly, it’s been...

“Oh Well” BTS

This one is a fucking BANGER. I won’t be posting this till next week, but holy fuck this has become a fav. I truly have no idea what this creature is, nor the intent of what she does. All I know is, is that I was thinking of the drawing in Profondo Rosso and went from there!

“Human Syphilis” BTS

I won’t be uploading these to social media. I’ve discovered something, too:

As I’m sure y’all know—iPhone’s selfie camera sucks ass. The normal camera has been pretty bitchin lately, and what I mean is, I’ve been putting the timer on and using a flash. I know it doesn’t sound like a large discovery, but I’ll be damned if it doesn’t make a shitload of difference in detail.

Turning the lights off and having just the face as the emphasis is what makes these so f...

Queen Barenziah

I’ve decided I’m going to cosplay her. Will it be easy? It depends.

Ultimately, that crown is what’s stopping me. I think the bone structure, eyes, and nose are pretty close to mine. The outfit I can definitely make on my own. But…that CROWN.

So, if anyone knows any expert costume makers or anyone who can recreate her crown—PLEASE LET ME KNOW!

But this cosplay is definitely going to happen!

Happy Holidays, Fam

Happy Holidays to you all. Not sure if many of you celebrate, but I hope you all have the best day.

It’s not been the most festive holiday season, but I’ll regale the woe. What matters is that you all are here, and you all are alive, healthy, and in one piece. I haven’t wished anyone good tidings yet. I wanted to save that for here, where I know it matters, you know?

You all have stuck by me in what has been a really rough time. I truly hope all of your holiday cheer is fu...

“Human Syphilis”

STILL can’t really make great use of my leg. Once the 29th rolls around, that will be the moment I can decide whether or not to take my movement a bit further.

Regardless, this one I based on vaginal STIs. The addition of the horns was unintentional, but frankly, it somehow works out quite well. I used primarily scar wax, Mehron bruising palette, and my Skin Illustrator Bloody Five. I’m hoping someone will be kind enough to gift me silicone so I can start messing around with that. ...

Update, and I’m Sorry I’ve been MIA

Hey, gang. If you’re still here, thank you. To make a very long story long, I’ve unfortunately been dealing with not having any income, and fighting with the Hartford over sending my forms.

I think it’ll sort itself out, but it’s life, and the quicker I can drum up money—the better I’ll be. The American Dream, innit? A great place to struggle and struggle some more.

That shit aside, I’ve been focusing on acting and developing my skills as character acting. ...

Poetry

I guess at my core, I’m a writer before an artist. Today is one of those days where I’m just swimming in doubt. Sitting here before PT and I’m thinking, “Fuck me. Is there any purpose?” I’m trying not to let doubt get the best of me. There’s a reason for all of it, and there’s a reason for this doubt.

Regardless, putting thoughts into words feels good—even if the subject matter is not the most optimistic. Truthfully, I feel in my heart I’m on the verge…of somethin...

“Mask Off” Pre-edits

On their own, these are just so fucking delicious. 

“Mask Off” Tutorial

Okay, this was FUN! I have to tell you, the accident has forced me into doing more detailed, thorough work. This was done with the simplest tools: cotton balls, liquid latex, stage blood, and eyeshadow.

Maybe it’s just me, but do you find practical effects more realistic looking? Be that as it may, I’ve really, REALLY enjoyed these last series of looks! 

New Shirt Design (Patrons Only)

So, I’m retiring the Paimon design. Most of you have been with me for a minute and need another gift. So, my question is:

What would YOU like? What is the best design that you want? I’ll leave this as an open forum and the one with the most votes—I’ll add it as a Patreon gift!

Removal!

I don’t post enough of these. Reason why I’m posting is because I want to emphasize just how intricate looks can be. I used a piece of duct tape to allow for a smooth surface on the face. Scar wax is unforgiving in the fact that it doesn’t bond to the mouth, eyes, and nose as well as one would think.

The duct tape is a base; I built the mouth piece around it, gradually going up. Was it perfect, no, but I will say this:

PLEASE EXERCISE CAUTION⚠️

I had an extreme...

Question

Do we like darker or lighter more? They both look so goddamn good.

“You Are What You Become” BTS

God fucking damn it. Between duct-taping my mouth shut and layering it with scar wax, and trying to get my contact in for over fifteen minutes—this one was a bitch.

This is made completely out of scar wax. Since I still can’t really fully act, I’ve been focusing on eyes and headshots. This is supposed to be a strange humanoid/extraterrestrial infestation. A person whose fear is imminent, and when exposed to a creature not herself…she changes.

Her worst fears come to life,...

“Sloth” Tutorial

TUTORIALS ARE BACK BABY!!!!! Enjoy! 

“Sloth” (Edit; more to come)

You knew it was coming! I couldn’t resist the urge to capitalize on some good ol-fashioned choking to death with a crutch. For being semi-handicapped at the moment, I did pretty well. The SFX is superb, in my opinion, and I’m actually shocked this is what came out of it.

I put most of the weight on my left leg to help distribute weight. The tutorial (will be posted later) was a lot of me leaning in..so, I apologize for that.

This was done with only scar wax, and since I can�...

I’m Back! (On a Chair, Anyway!)

Prepare yourself—“Sloth” is coming. 🔥 Gonna be giving some head to my crutch 🍆😌🫡♥️

I CAN WALK!!!!!!

GUYS THEY WANT ME TO START WALKING! I’m about to cry!!!!!!!!!!! This is the x-ray of my knee. So, basically, I have three screws running laterally across the tibia. I found out, too, that they performed a menisectomy. That basically means they shaved and cleaned up some minor damage I suffered during the accident.

BUT THEY GAVE ME THE GREENLIGHT TO WALK! I WALKED UP THE STAIRS FOR THE FIRST TIME IN A MONTH!!!!!!!

Thy Burning Light Preview

Alright, I’m still here. I don’t know how the fuck y’all have stuck by me here, but shit if I ain’t grateful.

If you’re new here, then you may not have heard; last year, I started in Vale of Pnath’s video for their new record. This was directed by Scott Hansen. There was a mess of shit surrounding this video. I won’t get into the details too much, but there was a lot of frustration.

Being in the middle—I just wanted the video to come out. Almost a year later, and...

Post-Op Pics

That’s a shitload of iodine. I lowkey thought I had gangrene, but realized it was iodine.

Welp. It looks like three incisions…I think? I’m amazed at how non-invasive it was.

I Do Worry

Yesterday was a very hard day for me. For whatever reason, I was on the verge of a panic attack and felt like everything I worked hard for was going to fall apart. Contrary to the soul-searching badass you sometimes see—I can be very self-sabotaging. I go through bouts of thinking I’m not that good, I’ll lose everything, and I’ll never amount to anything.

It’s part of the ongoing battle with OCD. Which…again, OCD isn’t merely just rearranging or being a perfectionist—it...

But, What Exactly Did They Do?

Obviously, this was the day before yesterday, but I wanted to explain a little bit better what my procedure was.

First, the team at St. Thomas medical were awesome. They were professional, courteous, kind, and had me in and out. They injected a nerve block into my right thigh. I guess there is a major nerve that runs into your knee, and the nerve block prevents any excess pain from happening. There is currently a plate and medical cement in between the comminuted fracture. I cave say i...

Happy Thanksgiving

Needless to say, I love y’all very much. I would not be here without y’all. I mean that. 

Once Upon A Time in A Land Called Doubt Pt. 2

I starved myself down to a bone. I was a wreck mentally, emotionally, and physically. I weighed 138 pounds and stopped having a period. This man had made me into someone I really didn’t like.

Did I learn? No. No, I didn’t. In fact, I had Fallin *in love* with a guy who was beautiful, goofy, and nice to me. He was an athlete, a prom king, and came from a rich family. I hated him at first. I really did. But, then I started feeling that feeling I had felt before, and I knew right then...

Once Upon A Time in A Land of Doubt

Let me tell you a story.

This was me circa 2019. I’ve written many stories about my previous self. I think most know my tumultuous affairs with loving the wrong people, struggling with mental health, and writing poems about men that couldn’t love me. I was going through Google Photos and came across these old pictures I drew. I used to be an illustrator—a long time ago—but my talents were dwindled to scribbling eyes and blood that fell from them.

Since I’m pretty much ...