Valentines Day Kisses (Early Release)
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BOOKCLUB! QUESTION
yall mind if we read too chapters tomorrow afternoon? had a real late start today and wanted to stream still. unless you guys want it for tonight more, im cool with that!
2020-02-12 01:56:21 +0000 UTC View Post
Looking for my book 😬
Last time I had it was when visiting slight...... I hope I didn’t leave it because randy packed his away frivHMM
2020-02-02 23:38:14 +0000 UTC View PostCan’t Tingle? STICKY BALLS to the RESCUE! (Trust me) 🌞🧚🏻♀️❤️ (Early Release)
Fast aggressive tapping, gum chewing, soft spoken ASMR (Early Release)
Journal #8
Phew, boy. Came to a lot of realizations the past week. Trying very hard to give it my all and fight for my worth and happiness.
The comparisons (that others and myself make) are leading my brain to want to self-destruct. I’m trying to find unique ability or character in me and I’m just not liking what I see.
In comparison to the people in my life I’m nothing special and I don’t understand why I even have a boyfriend or friends? Realizing I’m not athletic anymore, I’...
2020-01-26 06:13:11 +0000 UTC View PostASMR Goddess Gently Guides You to Sleep 💕🧚🏻♀️ (Early Release)
Early Bookclub???
Do you guys mind if I get on within the next 10-20 minutes? We have to drop binky off for a vet visit for his heart murmur at 4:30 and have to leave in about an hour and 20. Figured we could get a little session in :)
2020-01-14 21:41:24 +0000 UTC View PostJournal #7
I DID IT!!!
To be completely honest - I woke up today feeling the same as I have the past couple weeks. Didn’t get very good sleep, didn’t feel very loved or special and just had the darkness hanging over me like the rain cloud following a character in a cartoon. I guess it’s just one of those times. Hormones are still messed up, depression episode is going strong, choked down a panic attack after a talk with Tyler last night that made me realize we may not be right for each other...
2020-01-14 04:39:27 +0000 UTC View PostJournal #6
You are my people. Thank you for carrying me through this week.
I feel humbled looking through past videos and comments and trying to remind myself I am worth more than how depression may make me feel.
Thank you for sticking with me.
Going to read a few chapters of The Night Circus then get on stream ❤️
What video would you like me to film tonight? I was going to do hand kisses 😊❤️
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I lied. I have a heavy heart and I’...
2020-01-12 21:35:14 +0000 UTC View PostJournal #5
Today, I'm going to smile through the darkness.
I was reminded of the darkness inside my heart last night. It's been incredibly difficult to not go into a self-loathing spiral, but I'm constantly reminding myself that I want to be better... and incessantly punishing myself doesn't make me better. It only punishes myself and the people around me for my past mistakes or flaws that I need to work on rather than actually doing anything productive.
So, i hate myself today. But I ...
2020-01-11 00:22:19 +0000 UTC View PostJournal #4
I could’ve written last night, but was in a more negative headspace and didn’t want these to all be so depressing. I want to be true to myself and show a bit more inside my brain with you all (which is quite dark and morbid), but at the same time I don’t want you guys to think I’m constantly complaining and miserable. My brain is very much a rollercoaster. I’m waiting to get in to see better, more specialized doctors as well as getting an MRI to make sure everything is okay up there...
2020-01-08 22:01:05 +0000 UTC View PostJournal Entry #3
I DID IT! I got through another day. It wasn’t the best and it wasn’t the worst. I made it.
My anxiety is severe with all the things I have to catch up on with around the house right now, so I’ll keep it short and simple today to avoid weird rambles.
Highlights of my day:
Eating a waffle for the first time in years!
Playing halo with tyler on stream, playing well and losing myself in the energy of the stream 😊
Finishing my book!! It’s been so long si...
2020-01-07 09:15:36 +0000 UTC View Post
Journal Entry #2
So, we attempted to go “off the grid” this weekend. I think you all can guess how that really went with the tweets 👀 LOL It was a fun time - got to read and relax, go to a wild animal sanctuary and watch silly game shows. I wish I could end it there with only the positive and how I’m feeling refreshed and renewed to jump back into the grind.
Unfortunately, it kind of exacerbated my burn out feelings. The pressure to relax made it a bit difficult to actually do that. I had a wee...
2020-01-05 23:40:44 +0000 UTC View Post