Astrid Adventures

Hidden in Hidden Falls

Photos taken by Noel Nichols and edited by me.

I'm getting back into shooting with other people. All outdoors right now. There is hardly any work in Atlanta but I'm going to Chattanooga for a day to shoot. It's exciting and a comfort, although a part of me wants to stay in bed and have no schedule. So contradictory that schedules and work are so great for mental health, and yet a part of us wants to reject them. I think it's a bit the fear of being a disappointment, showing up late, ma...

Self Portraits

OMG! I really can't believe it. I did my taxes for this quarter, and was stunned to find that I was okay! I'd made money. I'd ben procrastinating because I didn't want to see how COVID 19 had affected my business.  I've been working and stressing myself out a lot the last two months trying to pivot my business. I'm cranking out photos sets and self portraits, partially to keep me occupied, but also I hoped they could at least save me some what.  While I lost so much over this last s...

Photographer Kristina Dale

It's been such a weird life. I keep thinkin, what a weird month, what a weird year, but it's been a weird life. I don't know if anyone feels that they're living a normal or at least predictable life. I don't know who or where I'll be in a few weeks, months, or years. I couldn't have imagined being where I am now. In some ways it stops me in my tracks. Why do I want to plan anything at all knowing my plans will never really work out? But they lead me somewhere, and it's along of journey that I...

Photographer Darius Ollison

Today I shot at a falling apart house near where I live. I haven't shot in one in a while I think. I've missed working with Darius. He's been an old friend now for a while. We both started around the same time.
Now that shelter in place is lifted in Georgia but not through out the country, I'm considering getting a job here for a little bit and looking into some other business ventures. But I'm also ready to look into the future and plan modeling 2021 to give myself something to plan. 2020-05-09 00:01:10 +0000 UTC View Post

Fields of

Photographer Grant Beecher

I'm not sure how I feel about georgia opening back up. I haven't noticed many differences yet. If anything it seems more outdoor places are closed, but I hear various types of businesses are opening. Parts of the state are going back to school in person, and other's aren't. I've been looking into getting unemployment still, now that I finally have access to do so. I'm no longer hopeful of getting it though. They want more information than they've ever needed ...

River

Photos taken by Grant Beecher

edited by me

It's no secret I love water, but artistically I really love water. It's translucent but not. So many different colors. I wish it wasn't so cold all the time. With the summer coming up, that'll be perfect. I really hoped to be in full tour mode during water season this year. I really found an element in the water. I'll still enjoy the springs, rivers, waterfalls, etc, but I'll missing combining two of my favorite things: water a...

The Wisteria

Self portrait series. I have so many of these I'll be posting more soon but from another side of the wisteria. 

The wisteria in Georgia is invasive and kills a lot of trees, but grows rampant. It's beautiful for about two weeks before it dies. For once I wasn't on tour will it bloomed, so I could take these photos but get to enjoy them myself. There is an abandoned plant nursery near my home in Georgia, where these flowers took over. Bridges and tunnels covered in them. They smelle...

more quarantine self portraits

 I really miss my pink hair, but this wig made me forget I didn't have it any more!

Wig by 2020-04-22 01:46:56 +0000 UTC View Post

Quarantined Selfies

Wig by Maddie Marissa

Skirt Dawnamatrix

Been keeping busy with shooting myself and sewing. I've had a lot of fun with shooting self portraits. I've been making up who I want to be. I haven't had any grand concept ideas, like I have in the past, but I've been shooting on the fly, capturing the moments that are coming and going with this isolation from most of the world. I know there is online communication, but does anyone enjoy that much? I don't like writing or talking...

Photogapher Theresa Manchester

I spent three days straight working on my website to get it running. I did it. It isn't perfect, yet, but I'm excited to have most of the work done. The rest is all the improvements I've wanted to make. I spent the holiday and today relaxing. I got rather tired of looking at a computer screen. I enjoyed an Easter dinner with my boyfriend, and then started sewing.  As I was stitching is occured to me why sewing isn't my passion, nor is photography. They're hobbies, but I wouldn't make eit...

Moss

From the sudden shock to this. I've found another path and a new schedule. Now that I'm not touring this summer, I have a new future to dream about, but a complete lack of any idea what I will be able to do.

I'm making a new website. It's up, but a mess. I have a lot more to do to it, but I needed something. Found a new outlet through my self portraits and they motivate me to do more everyday. I'm unfortunately behind on editing though. Hopefully when this website is together that won't...

River and Copper Self Portraits

Last set of these photos. I'm surprised. I thought these were a failure. I do that a lot. I think I get so frustrated with my camera sometimes I'm sure that I screwed up the photos, and then it's fine. On the other hand sometimes it also takes me a long time to find the right edit for photos. I feel like I should have more control when I edit, but I don't. I feel like I can't force a photo to look the way I want it to (I could, but it takes 5 times longer in the worst possible cases), I have ...

Self Portraits at the River

My tour for the summer is officially cancelled. A part of me is relieved to not be responsible and another part nervous and unsure of what to do with myself. I have so much to keep myself occupied, but not having a future thing to work towards makes me feel listless. 

Now I've moved on to creating  a new website and a collection of self portraits to sell as sets for art references. Maybe I'll think of more, but right now this is a lot.

I've wanted to rebrand for a long t...

New Orleans 2019

Photographer Dent De Lion

Will post more reveries. I spend the last day or two resting. Are you resting, stressed or working?

Blooming with the Spring

Photos by Vania Stoyanova

I finally woke out of my depression a few days ago. I felt like a rose. I felt full of color and opened up.  The transition was sharp.  I felt awakened from a trans.  It's like I live with a demon that possesses me, but I still inhabit the body. A part of my mind if full of self talk and the stronger half is the demon, Depression.  I think depression is stronger than I am, but I have tools to ward it off and fight it down, metaphorical cross...

Photos taken by Atlanta Boudoir

I had a great workshop at the beginning of this month. With COVID 19 just coming out to the news, we weren't entirely sure if we'd have to workshop or not.  I'm so relieved that we did.  It was good to go to Florida, and work with a group of people.

edits by me

Hawaii

I went to Hawaii back in November with my mother.  I didn't really see Hawaii at all, but from the hotel or restaurant windows, it seemed beautiful. I heard so much about it from a photographer that was living there.  I hope one day I can go back. 

Sorry I've been absent. My depression is making it harder to get out of bed lately. I may have to stay there for a while.

Remembering Ireland

Human tripod Grant Beecher

I can never seem to pick a way to edit, so these are edited in a variety of tones and colors

Like I said, more photos

Photos by Vince La Valles

edits by me

Still a wandering millenial

Photographer Joseph Calvo

Quarantine is really just life between modeling tours. I sit at home, sending out travel notices, and freak out over everything because I have too much time on my hands.  I got excited thinking this year I was going to end the cycle. My plan was work and tour all summer straight and then work on other projects and jobs during the modeling off season.  The last few years I got burnt out of modeling, not from the modeling, but from the stretc...

Going to have to post a lot of photos

Photographer Vince La Valles

edits by me

In light of COVID 19 continuing to still get worse in the USA, I've accepted that I need a nap and to post more photos.  I didn't expect that I might have to cancel touring this year, but I might. I really expected better from our country and its government. I didn't expect great things, but I expected the bare minimum. It makes it look like the whole country may get shut down and closed off until Fall, when touring kinda su...

Ice Cream!

 Ben and Jerry's has the best vegan flavors too

Photos by Grant Beecher

edits by me

dress by Dawnamatrix Designs

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Photos by Grant Beecher

edits by me

dress by Dawnamatrix Designs

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The change I wish to See in the World

When I first woke up I saw a post asking about how I got into modeling. I was inspired to share my response.

" I got into modeling as a fun hobby in college. I dyed my hair blue and finally let a friend take my photo. Normally, I'm not photogenic at all, but when I became a silent movie character, I wasn't so awkward. It was nice to live other lives, and be someone who wasn't an unhappy student leaving an abusive relationship. Being able to realize I have autonomy over myself and my lif...

Self portrait garden

Find something beautiful anywhere

Photos taken by Atlanta Boudoir- Noel Nichols, edited by me

Lately, they've started taking down my favorite shooting locations in Athens, Ga where I'm based. This includes an abandoned cotton field less than twenty minutes from my house! Meanwhile, I'm looking for houses in Athens, GA (because I might become a home owner soon!!!) and they've all been renovated and flipped, but are so ugly I'm surprised people buy them.  It might just be my aesthetic doesn't mix with this current cu...

A very real photo by Brian Storey

Lately, I can't believe how different my life turned out. Even since 2020 started, so much changed... Again.
I started off the year, making an LLC, determined to get fit, determined to find a house, and certain if start to feel like an adult. Instead, every house I've looked at is horrific, I eat my feelings still, the Corona virus might destroy the economy, and to top it off my parents got divorced suddenly. They don't want me to talk about it with a lot of people, but getting a divorce ...

Vintage Latex Feel

Photos by Grant Beecher

the coat is a latex design made by Dawnamatrix

A few self portraits

The cenotes were beautiful. It reminded me a lot of the springs in Florida but warmer.  The water is so clear, and I feel like a mermaid hanging out around the wildlife and watching the underwater plants grow.  Nothing feels more effortless than flying through the fresh waters.  The weight of gravity is off my shoulders, my muscles feel relaxed, my heart beat slows.  While my vision is terrible, I can just see the sparkle of light and shades of blue and green.  The wa...

BTS Mermaid Video from the Cenotes

Follow the link to my youtube and watch this small video I put together. It isn't great quality, but it was a fun distraction from everything to make it