damianojeda

Q/A part one

if you remember back in march I said I was going to do a Q/A video... I was doing it, but I clearly got very distracted and never finished it. I did end up answering a lot of questions but only successfully editing a handful (they are only patreon questions). the video here is from march 2022,, march 15. I did end up recording more answers later in march and even some in april but again I never got around to editting them. these are hoenst answers but honestly they're from so long ago they mi...

comforting - TAPE 4.59

sounds from 2012, 2017, 2019, and 2022

comforting - floating_point

sounds from 2017, 2015, 2019, and 2022

sadness - moonlit water

this is another song that's going to be on "old songs 2013". I started recording this may 22 2013, and sometime in autumn I probably finished most of the rest. before just recently (july 2022) that I finished the song for release, all that was left was bass and some vocals. the first verse was already tracked but I retracked the vocals because back in 2013 I was not good at singing. there were also vocals tracked at the very end for the chorus but they were also really bad so I retracked them...

sadness - the last kiss

this song is going to be on "demo 2013" which is yet another compilation of old songs, only this time from 2013 (I already posted a track from this album on patreon).  I don't know exactly when I started recording this but I know that I stopped recording in january 2014. what you hear now has nothing new added to it, just remastered the recording. this means it had to be late 2013 when I actually recorded everything (i'm thinking december). the melody at the end I came up with sometime i...

to despair of available on bandcamp

https://sadnessmusic.bandcamp.com/album/to-despair-of

talking distances

https://sadnessmusic.bandcamp.com/album/distances

distances is an album I released in march of 2015 with no digital format. I did this on purpose because I wanted it to be more mysterious, more introverted and less accessible. this album is extremely significant and personal and I believed it deserved to be more special. I've always been attracted to the idea of certain pieces of art being hidden ...

rose/lavender in depth

I remastered this album and it is now available for streaming everywhere. I also remastered greyness of a young despondency but for some reason it never made it to apple music, working on getting that fixed. 

rose:
"Autumn came with a lilac indigo rose

Delicate as her smile

Yet not absolved the emptiness

Her rose red spring ignites

Fragile, ever flowing waters

As spring in autumn

Open grace of memory"

I really honestly don...

demo 11 in depth talk

my last post about demo 11 wasn't that insightful because at that time I didn't feel like organizing my thoughts to talk in depth about the album, but now here it is:

also I've spent the last few weeks traveling so I haven't been able to work, but now that I'm  back I have a lot of work to do. if you're doing a split with me this is still in the works  demo 11 waas released in 2016 compiling songs that I never released from 2015. I don't exactly remember why I called it "demo ...

sadness - demo 11

I remastered this album and I'm putting it on spotify etc. it should be there soon

https://sadnessmusic.bandcamp.com/album/demo-11
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1. "illembraced"

When the colors are so far away.. all they seem are greys

Evening colors here in bleeding, red through a hopeless path to ever reach your smiles

I can’t live like this again… I can’t be dragged away again….

sadness - kiss in october (2017)

on january 13 2017 I went into a professional recording studio in chicago and rerecorded kiss in october and for the last 5 years I've just been forgetting completely about the song and the fact that I recdorded it and spent hundreds of dollars to record it, just so I could never get around to releasing it. it's mostly because of the piano intro, which I didn't get around to recording until june 8 2022. the vocals were done mostly by my cousin nila, but you can also hear me, even my brother, ...

unused music + miscellaneous recordings

https://damianantonojeda.bandcamp.com/

you have absolutely no idea how long it took to get all of this together. I started compiling this in march and am only just now finishing. this is (almost) everything I've ever recorded that wasn't released as something else. some things are gone, some things I didn't include because I didn't want to, and I probably missed some things. these are mostly logic ...

sadness - late spring true love

this is my favorite song I've ever made. it touches something deep in my heart that has always been so important to me. music with this exact kind of high energy and color is my favorite. I'm a very nostalgic person and this song sounds like so many moments of my deep past crying and singing in the most magical and purest way. I always long to capture the magic I feel in the music I make and this song makes me feel like I'm 9 years old again. i actually cried while listening to this today (in...

comforting - every day_|-like 13

this is the other comforting song that's going to be on the split. it's kind of about the same thing the other one was about. basically something I never ever want to have to feel again, making it go away. these sounds are a bunch of different noise pieces that I compiled together from 2019, and then in early 2020 I played drums over them. I just finished recording the vocals a few minutes ago, the lyrics I wrote a couple days ago

please let me be

me

 in every potent w...

comforting - upcycle

i plan on making a lot of music for comforting in the future, but it mostly wouldn't be noise rock, but rather electronic. this is partly because when I started comforting I was using such intense and cathartic music to deal with how I was feeling at the time and none of that is relevant anymore. I'm pretty content now. that doesn't mean I can't make noisey intense music out of just loving being energetic and expressive, but idk. the point is I'm really interested in electronic music and synt...

liminal dream - liminal sight

this song was ready 2 weeks ago but I forgot to post it. there's a 4 track album for liminal dream inlcuding this, liminal fire, liminal face (posted on patreon ages ago with the title "project 10"), and another song that still isn't finished. all these songs are so old, from like 2015-2018. this one in particular I think I started making sometime in 2018 or maybe 2017, I honestly don't remember, but I kind of forgot about it for a while, and then I remembered I lost it when I deleted my file...

fairysad

apparently the other file wasn't working

liminal dream - liminal fire

okkkk...... my mind is a chaotic disorganized mess right now and I cannot think straight
and this song in particular is extremely dense with a huge backstory that I am physically incapable of recounting right now. maybe on a later day I'll talk more about this song, but basically.....
i recorded the instrumental on june 30 2015. this is 100% inspired by my favorite tatu song "pokazhi mne lyubov" which I would listen to on repeat for an entire month. this was also made from my indescriba...

sadness - loss

made this march 2 2014. the lyrics I wrote in one of my old notebooks october 2013. you might recognize a melody here that I reused in a more popular sadness song, but I remember when I came up with that part all those years ago I loved it so much. the lyrics are about, well loss. it was really a refelction of how I was feeling personally. the vocals wouldn't recorded until literally a week ago though. that's literally 12 whole years of having the idea and never getting around to finishing it...

sadness - fairysad

I started making this on november 6 2019. i made the intro and then sometime in early (like february) 2020 I made the rest of the instrumental it didn't take long for me to finish the instrumental side, but vocals never got around to like a month ago. I even had the lyrics written beforehand (november 2020) but just never got around to putting them on the song, even though I saved the melody idea in my head for ages. the song is basically about fairy sadness, I don't really know how else to d...

sadness - august flower

omfg I was so annoyed for like a week. the day I finished recording vocals for this song my hard drive started acting up and giving me problems and I ended up having to take it in to extract the data and put it on a new one wnd they told me that would take 3 - 5 days and ended up taking 8 days which is really annoying because I literally am moving in like 5 days from now and i have to get this done right now. but anyway, I'm going  to be posting a lot of songs that I wasn't able to post ...

sadness - cold still hands

please read previous two posts for context. this song is no different. instrumental recorded that same day in november 2016, other band members didn't like it, then in march 2019 my friend ryn came over and recorded vocals. unlike the other songs I did have a concept for this. I had a beautiful dream where I was in the snowy mountains on a sunny day (I used to go skiing every winter since I was a baby) and in this dream I felt the touch of being loved. it was something I didn't know or recogn...

sadness - a minor pain

in my previous post I talk about another song off of this EP that I made one day when I was trying to write songs for this band I was in that never ended up happening back in 2016. years later I got my friend ryn smith to record vocals (harsh vocals) but I still never released the songs for years because I never actually finished the album. there were 3 more songs that I never actually fully finished and didn't even have any vocals or ideas for vocals done, but I decided that I don't even wan...

sadness - memory

in 2016 I joined a band called an open letter. literally nothing happened from that especially since we didn't even live in the same place until 2018. that project was really mainly the brainchild of the other original members but one day I decided to try and participate in the song writing. I recorded 4-5 demos one morning and none of them convinced the other members to use them so I decided well I might as well use them myself. it wouldn't be until 2019 that I got ryn (from an open letter a...

sadness - your hand melts into mine

I recorded the guitars in september 2018 and then lever did anthing else with the song until 2021 when I rembered that it exists and was a pretty nice song that I don't want to be forgotten. I reamped the guitars, recorded live drums (it had midi at first) and then added bass. I didn't know what i was going to vocally until last night when I wrote the lyrics. I always knew I didn't want to scream or do anything huge with the vocals, just simplistic sparse soft singing. the lyrics will make a ...

sadness - dream of me

if you read my post about my new song "rana" I mention that the working title for that song was "rose". before I decided on the name rana I always referred to that unfinished song as "rose original", because it predates the sadness song "rose" that was actually used on the album rose lavender.
this song was also called "rose", and I fully intented on using it for rose/lavender and it being the "rose" song, predating the actual rose song (I believe), i don't know when I started making this...

sadness - attention to detail bloom mayflowers

I made the instrumental side of this song (with the exception of drums) sometime in 2020 but I really don't remember when. I was going to finish this song so it could be a bonus track on holding (physical) but that never happened. I didn't even have lyrics or anything until may 14 2021 when  I wrote them. I didn't write them with the song in mind, but I was building off of a post I made on facebook on may 9 2020 where I just put "attention to detail bloom mayflowers". I'm talking about p...

sadness - without you here

this is the last song going on the 2015 song compilation. which means that the album is finally done and I'll upload it to spotify, once it reaches spotify I'll release it on bandcamp. whole thing is 12 tracks. it could have been more but all the other songs I was going finish I kind of didn't want to use anymmore. they weren't really worth finishing for this album. I'll still find a way to use them for other things though.
I forgot to check when I started making this, but my memory tells...

sadness - I will always love you

first of all I've been working really hard on the q&a video. I have 15 minutes of video so far and have answered 21 questions. the process is slow because there's a lot of video editing involved but I'm really enjoying it. I plan on answering basically every question that was asked so the video is going to be really long, but probably when I get through the patreon questions I'll show you guys an unfinished version of the video.

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this song is going on the "old songs 201...

sadness - histrionic and granted

I don't know what album this is going to be on. at first it was going to be on the EP with "the most precious orange light, I hold it in my hands" but then I realized that these two songs sound wildly different. I don't really care if the production differs from song to song on the same album, but I kinda don't want this song to stand out so abruptly from other sadness songs on the same release. it's like ten times louder and noiseier than the rest. idk. I'm most likely going to release it as...