damianojeda

teal

teal fits snug within the rest of the album, in which obviously I'm talking about rain. when I say "teal" im referring to this specific shade of green which i believed to be called teal at the time but later found out that teal is more blue? I don't know. it still fits becuase there's a certain beauty I wanted to capture in deep earth green, like vegetation at a pond, in the same way there's a beauty in a perfect uniform sky, which is blue, but not in the sense that it's clear and sunny. I me...

kiss in october

the entire somewhere along our memory album is about the same thing. late 2015 feelings. I was also deeply inspired by autumn and winter. when I made kiss in october I can't remember if it was in october or early november, but the idea is the same. a coupld miles from my old house there was this one little hill that I remember sitting at some years before. when I wrote kiss in autumn (later renamed kiss in october) i imagined sitting on this hill in the grass with someone (more specifically t...

i will always remember

i wasn't going to talk about this yet because as part of life demo five I actually rerecorded one of these songs, but since you asked...

I will always remember was a small side project of mine born in the summer of 2015 (july). it only saw one release and that's all it needed. part of what created this project was being nostalgic about "close" which was recorded one year before exactly. considering the way I was feeling again during this time I felt like I wanted to make more...

the rain that falls alone

https://sadnessmusic.bandcamp.com/album/the-rain-that-falls-alone

i don't even know where to begin with this one. I always knew this album came from a whole different universe. the way it made me feel while I was making it, and the way it literally felt like it came out of me coming from a different distant place lost in a dream, it felt extremely personal. it felt like a...

im back

i spent the entire month of november away from home which is why i haven't posted anything or worked on anything but i'm back now. right before i left there was a life track that i finished but i haven't shared it because I might have a guest vocal appearence on it, so that's still on hold for now comment below any song lyrics/backstories you want to learn about, i have a trillion songs and i'm sure there's something I could share. working on music is back in full swing now at least

life - I want to go home

I'm not going to talk about this song. the subject matter is extremely painful and I don't want to think about it

sadness - on a green

it's finally done. this album that was made in 2018 but took more than 3 years to finish the vocals. I will release it to spotify and once it gets there it will drop on bandcamp. tracklist:

see you in the orange light

orange love

on a green

I can't say goodbye

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this song "on a green" has a lot of vocal layers that I would record every once in a blue moon slowly reaching towards finishing the song but it genuinely wouldn't be until last night that I actual...

https://sadnessmusic.bandcamp.com/album/motionless-watching-you

when i said i was going to wait to release this , i lied. i don’t feel like waiting i’m also extremely impatient. i already have to wait like two weeks for april sunset ti reach spotify and i’d rather release this EP first

sadness - lifted may blue

(refer to previous post for context) as well as an "old songs 2015" compilation, I'm also compiling unrelease/unfinished music from 2014. I have 8 songs that I will release as a compilation on bandcamp whenever it's all ready. in this are included "in january (2021 remaster)", "as one goodbye was always the last (2021 remaster)", and also prayer and "touch hour on early autumn flying" and a few more songs you'll see  soon. when I say "unfinished" I don't mean I'm just going to release a ...

sadness - no goodbyes

i mentioned a while ago that I'm compiling a lot of songs (about 16) that I was making in 2015 that either never had a proper release or just simply were never finished. 2015 was probably the busiest year for me in terms of how much music I made, because even though I released like what, 13 albums? and in early 2016 i released at least 10 other albums which were really made in 2015. on top of that there was still an entire compilation albium's worth of music that was never actualy released or...

sadness - blue (better mix)

when I first released this song I mentioned how terrible it sounded. this version sounds better and is what you'll hear on the official album release. i think it would be really cool to one day record this professionally in a studio with an experienced audio engineer to really get a nice solid shoegaze production out of it. previous post I mention how this EP is now complete, and will drop on bandcamp soon

sadness - your train is leaving

this song and "blue" form a new EP which is now finished entited "motionless, watching you". I'm sending it off to spotify and everything now, so once it reaches those platforms I will release the bandcamp. blue was 100% composed and recorded in june of this year, while "your train s leaving" I believe I started in august. at the end of july I started going through some heartbreaking events, but I think I only had the idea of making "your train is leaving" into a song but hadn't started recor...

sadness - spotlight

with this song being finished the entire "april sunset" album is concluded. I'm sending it off to spotify/apple music/ all streaming services and it should arrive as normal in 2 weeks, and once it reaches those platforms I'll release it on bandcamp. the imagery for "spotlight" came to me in january of 2018, when on january 15th I posted the lyrics on facebook as one of my little thought diaries. I imagined a moment, ike a memory and a scenario,  colored by this april essence. the memory ...

sadness - collar

sadness - collar

this song will appear on the full length album "april sunset", along with bigbury april twilight and all those other songs I've been posting recently. after this there is only one last song to finish (which is 99.9% done) which means I will definitely have this thing out very soon. it's exciting because I love these songs, theyre fresh and I'm proud of them, and also I havent' release a full length for sadness in a long time. the very beginning of this song is something I made in july of 2018...

camaleónica - en pleno deseo

made this song today. I wasn't going to start any new projects until finishing all of the trillions of things i have yet to release but I couldn't help myself. I really wanted to make some post punk music. so this is a new side project of mine. i don't really know what kind of backstory to give other than I've been wanting to make music like this for a little while now and I just decided to make this song. I was going to make a whole EP but it turned out I didn't have time to make any more so...

sadness - bigbury april twilight

this track will appear on the same album as "our whole lives in this moment" and "every tuesday, tuesday is green/only hearing the soft streams". the intro was something I made in march of 2018; back then I was always making electronic "beats" if you will. I have so many of these laying around as incomplete songs and for a lot of them I want to build upon them to make sadness songs, this being one of the first ones that occurred to me to adapt. sometime in  maybe march or february of 202...

sadness - our whole lives in this moment

this will appear on the same album as "every tuesday, tuesday is green/only hearing the soft streams." of the whole album I tthink this one is my favorite. I still don't know what the album is going to be called but I have the album cover ready. I think if people liked "I want to be there" they will also like this album. I made this song along with the rest of the album towards the beginning of this year, especially when I moved states in april. I remember being particularly sad one day in ma...

sadness - orange love

at this point this song is genuinely old. I started it on february 9th of 2018. the instrumental side was finished almost immediately but as always the reason it's taken well over 3 years to finally consider it finished is because of the vocals. the clean vocals at 2:52 were tracked in 2019. the plan for this song was to always have purely clean singing that would follow that main melody you hear at the beginning and end but that proved to be too hard to sing so I gave up on that idea and eve...

life - you’re the most precious lyrics + somewhat backstory

you’re the most precious

i want to return

even now

to find you dancing in the autumn

like we would as kids

pure you

your glistening face

and your nuështo

you are the most precious

through times you have always been the purest sense of life

i want to remember the touch

i want to touch the distant stars

and feel the orange flame

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i won’t go deep into overt detail a...

sadness - a capture and pink dream moment spike

I'm honestly so proud of myself for finishing this today. I leave tomorrow early in the morning and I wanted to finish the "rain chamber" EP so bad before leaving but I was genuinely so sick the past couple of days I could barely even sleep last night at all, and I was certain that my voice was going to be too useless today to record. I was disappointed until I took a nap this afternoon and woke up magically feeling a trillion times better. I went to record the last of the vocals on this song...

life - I saw you in my dream last night

I've been sick the past couple days (not covid, just feels like a cold or something). pretty unusual for me as I never get sick and never had seasonal allergies. my head has just been hurting and I feel so much pressure inside my ears, and this is making me 0% capable of mixing any music. also I work on a train which is really fucking loud. the point is my ears are kinda useless right now but that's not stopping me from declaring that this song is done and ready for you to listen. like I said...

sadness - rain chamber

if you know my discography REALLY well you might recognize this song. I made this in august of 2015, but recently I did a little bit of remastering to it and decided to re-release it as a sadness song. the original idea of this song from 2015 is deeply personal. something extremely emotionally impactful happened during that specific month, and I made this immediately after. my general emotional and mental state is directly captured here. I don't know what anyone else listening to this will fe...

sadness - every tuesday, tuesday is green / only hearing the soft streams

this is two songs with a seamless transition at 9:33. whenever this presses on physical format they'll basically be pressed together as one track but for digital and for the purposes of recognizing what song each is, this is two different tracks. both created this year in april (started april 10), when like I talked about previously with "pregarden mayflowers", I had jiust finished moving states and felt new inspiration to start making new music after almost 2 months of feeling discouraged af...

Liminal Dream - Gradient

I made this song on decemeber 10 2016, saved a backup on may 30 2017, saved a draft mp3 of a better mix (two years producing experience difference) on 2/17/19. the 2019 progress was completely lost when I lost my files in february this year which was really annoying. I'm terrible at being responsible apparently. what's more annoying is that there's another song on this album that also had a lot of progress added to it that needs to be restarted, but that's another story. for a long time I tho...

sadness - redroom autumn tensions

this is my inclusion to a split album with another "post black metal" whatever you want to call it band (who are pretty big in the scene, this should be kinda huge). I don't think the split has been announced yet so I'm not going to mention the other project's name. each of us is contributing one long track and the label wanted us to represent a certain color. I'm not entirely sure if when I started making this song I had the color red intention in mind because of this or I chose to use this ...

sadness - pregarden mayflowers

I realize how long it's been since I posted here. this is due to many things which I'll get into, but if anyone has suggestions for song lyrics/backstories I can easily make a post about, mention them below in the comments. it's summertime and this is when I'm most busy with my "real" job, taking up almost all of my time unfortunately. I've also been going through a terrible time as of a couple weeks ago, if anyone has tried to reach me on social media I am guaranteed not to respond, for one ...

sadness - be happy

my inclusion towards a split album with the band "to be gentle". the beginning of this song (clean guitar intro) was an unused idea I recorded in 2015 (it says october 8 2015, but I feel like I remember recording that months before in april.. maybe I was wrong). I started building upon this song in october 2020 and I managed to completely track the entire instrumental side of this track RIGHT before I lost all my song sessions in february, so I was forced to work with a draft mp3 version of t...

sadness - in a memory

sadness is going to make part of a split album with some other post black metal bands. we've planned this for a while, in late 2020 my idea was to use a completely different song for the split. that song got lost when my files got deleted. this obviously wasted time, but I eventually decided to use this song instead. instrumentally this is made of things I recorded back in september of 2018. specifically, from 0:00 to 5:16 was an unfinished thing from back then, and  from 9:34 until the ...

blue

this song i made at the beginning of this month. recently something extremely impactful has been happening in my life, you can think of it as a certain encounter. without getting too personal with the backstory. i impulsively decided to release an unfinished video and unfinished mix of this song because of my internal chaos making me feel like i need to express something at all. i sort of regret it because i think this song sounds terrible, which is why i didn’t finish making an elaborate v...